I don't know how to take erp to my process of creation in writing... it's so frustrating.

I don't think I totally understand. But generally speaking with ERP it's best to expose yourself to whatever you intend to do without doing compulsions. Although sometimes worrying about doing ERP correctly can become a compulsion also. Are you working with a therapist?

With ERP, when people say thoughts are not real they mean they are not true. They do not define who we are or what we truly want. Think of these thoughts as clouds passing by and attach no meaning to them. Once they have less "weight" in your mind it will allow you to focus on areas that you truly do want to.

It's so difficult and awful. Sometimes it really sucks that ERP is the only solution to OCD. Sometimes I really wish there was another way to cure us all because it's so so scary. And OCD totally makes us not trust ourselves. Can we just have someone rewire our brains please so we don't have to be tormented anymore??

Are you worried that you're writing incorrectly?

Not exactly... Im worried that my hocd doesn't let me imagine my characters pretty well... like I can't believing what I want to create. I can't concentrate or see genres like before... And I keep repeating scenes to see if I can do it anytime and I starting to think these are compulsions...

Yes I am working with one ♡ but it so difficult... like I can't se genres straight anymore to start with something... the worst about hocd is that the conclusion of your thoughts are not actually bad. They are not like harm ocd, suicide ocd, rocd... they are just an unreal possibility to your own identity... and that's why surpassing it is so complicated. That much that you start to question everything in this world. If my thoughts are not me. If they are not real. Then what it is? And then you are in the cage again... with the only company of rumination

Yes. Sorry sometimes is called SOOCD/sexual orientation ocd. My ocd attacks all my identity as a woman, as a friend, as a lover, as a worker... and is everywhere ...

I know. But when you got it all the time and again with a theme that is not actually bad (but for the sufferer) you just can't believe yourself all the time. And you stand in between with no way out than erp. It keeps you distant with everyone you love...

Exactly... My therapist said this will pass. She keeps telling me. Someday it will not matter anymore, we should keep training. And... If I have to believe in something in this world, that is she. I want to trust her

I just saw a posting on here about people who have recovered or not affected very much by OCD so it's definitely possible!!

Thank you...