Is accepting the thoughts and feelings whether it be it making it feel as real and true to crippling anxiety mean recovery or your ocd coming true

It's just sometimes it's hard to tell if thoughts are intrusive or not, or if i have been fighting for so long that i start to think about it unintrusivley but still dont like the thoughts

Ya thing that sucks is even when you feel certain and good you always have that feeling of doubt or that voice in your head that tells you otherwise

That's pretty hard sometimes. The feelings is like my ocd tells me im gay when im not and i have no anxiety but it feels real but its not something i want. I just sit there and go okay maybe. I dont really care at this point. At the same time i want to care

I want to start trying to exercise. I know that's good for dopamine levels. Just trying to distract myself is hard. Im ADHD diagnosed so im constantly thinking all the time and constantly moving

As you get better at accepting "thoughts are just thoughts", recognizing some uncertainty and letting them go... your thinking will get clearer and you'll get better at recognizing "normal" cognition from OCD thinking. OCD intrusive thoughts are the "noise", if over time you learn to recognize the noise for what it is, you will be able to detect the true "signal".