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Am I the only one?
I’m worried that I am taking too long to get better. I have been doing erp therapy for 9 months now😬.
I’m worried that I am taking too long to get better. I have been doing erp therapy for 9 months now😬.
Are you working eith a therapist? Everyone's journey is different
Yes I am. That’s why I especially feel like I am unusual. It seems like everyone with a therapist is like done in 25 sessions or a few months.
@Have a sunflower🌻 Maybe talk to your therapist about any compulsions you might be unaware that you're doing. For example, I may cut out all my compulsions but I'll still be checking how "recovered" I feel.
@Material.Gorl Thank you for the advice! I have talked to my therapist about that and I think there are still some mental compulsions going on. It worries me though how easy it is to miss some because they are so subtle and automatic. If I really have to get down to no compulsions to get better, im not sure if that will be possible.
Well let me just say that I have had five different therapists for different things over the past 8 years: and honestly..I think that the single hardest thing is really committing: I feel like I wax and wane in my commitment to get better out of fear: so two things 1) everyone has a journey, and 2) if you're really concerned maybe ask yourself if you have truly committed and if not what is holding you back (this is not to say you haven't committed however! You probably have, and things are just taking time: age, and how long the neural networks in your brain have had to get used to OCD thought patterns without resistance also plays a big part. To me, 25 sessions sounds insanely short. In fact, it seems weird to me to even ever stop therapy totally if you have the economic means to continue it
Thank you for your response! I can understand waxing and waning commitment. As far as I can tell I’m committed but sometimes I think I’m not doing any mental compulsions either just to discover that I was later. 🤷🏼♀️ Thank you for making the time frame seem slightly less important. I feel like lately that’s what everyone’s focus around me has been…how long I have been in therapy.
Sunflower, it has been a year for me.
Thank you for sharing! If you don’t mind me asking, has it been by yourself or with a therapist? Sorry if that’s too personal!
With a therapist.
Not too personal. I am having a slower journey than most and trust me its hard but from where i came from it is a lot better
Thank you, it helps to know I’m not alone with the treatment time frame
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I’m sorry you are struggling! The process definitely has its ups and downs. Sometimes I feel like it’s one step forward then one step back and another step to the side just to complicate the situation.
You are not some. I have been in erp therapy for months and it’s hard. I feel the same as you. Ocd is tricky and keeps throwing new things at me to trip me up. I try not to compare myself to others recovery. Easier said than done . Sending hugs 💜
Thank you! Good luck with your recovery!
I’m so scared I’ll be stuck in this forever soo soo scared
When you become a “conqueror” does it mean you’ve completed ERP or you’ve just gotten to a good place with it? If so, how long did it take to finish therapy and how did you finally make progress? I’m having a hard time sticking with it right now as it feels unproductive. I’ve been in ERP for about 2 months and I can’t wait to be done.
My theme is suicidal OCD. I’ve been doing ERP since last year November and the overall intensity of my thoughts have not reduced at all. I have these thoughts 24/7 and my life feels like a living hell. Not two minutes goes by throughout the day where I’m not suffering from relentless thoughts. I don’t want to take meds because of the side effects and my insurance is coming to an end so it’d be difficult to ween off them by myself. I’m starting to feel so hopeless because I’ve done the toughest of the toughest exposures and I’m not getting better at all. My life is a living hell and I don’t see my condition with OCD getting better anytime sooner.
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