I really just want to go to sleep. I’m so exhausted with these thoughts and this guilt. I feel so gross. I literally want to just die. I was playing sims 4 & my sim had a son. when he became a teen he was a cute teenager so I thought “oh I’ll make a sim that will be with him (as a gf)” and then I just started being bombarded with thoughts like “oh wow ur attracted to ur son” “why would you want to play as another character to date your son” “ur so disgusting that’s ur son why would you want to date him” “ur disgusting that’s incest” and I just feel so horrible. i really didn’t mean anything by thinking it but I just feel so disgusted omg. I’m so freaking sick of myself and these thoughts. I don’t even know how to feel. what does anyone think?? someone please give their thoughts. it’s something new everyday. i get worked up over the “smallest” things but is this really small or was what I thought not okay??? I promise im not some incest freak.

thoughts are only thoughts they have nothing to do with what youre doing or want to do one innoent thing turned into something more because you grabbed onto the thoughts its easier to see them and either make a joke about them or reply sarcastically or just adress them and be like its okay i had that thought it means my brain is working right for being curius it doesnt make you something for just thinking about it

I used to have a religious OCD. Guilt about everything. I even ask God one time to take away my eyes so I wouldn't lust. I decided that I wasn't going to feel guilty about my thoughts. I even stop telling my very devout Christian wife my thoughts because she's very judgemental. I tried to commit suicide be ause I got tired of her "Whys?" and her judgemental antics. Those thoughts can be consuming. You are not alone. There's a meeting online on Tuesday at 12 noon. You don't have to speak, just listen and you will come to find that you are not a island but you have people that understand. I love you and stay strong...talk to like- minded people who will understand and not judge you...