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- 3y
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 3y
Sounds like magical thinking OCD. We don’t know for certain if it is but I think you know the best course of action is taking that risk!
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it’s so difficult to just go for it with the guilt that comes along. like he’s worth it but i want him to like me because he wants to not because of some bs manifesting ya know? thank you for helping me out
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- 3y
Oh my gosh!!! I have the same thing!!!
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- 3y
really?? that makes me feel so much better. like i want to go out with him, but i hate the idea that i “forced him” to like me
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- 3y
update: i told him that i did a silly tiktok trend to get him to like me back kinda as a joke and he was like “that’s silly. i’m not being forced to like you” or something along those lines so i don’t know if this makes me feel better or worse lol
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Can I ask what you did specifically? So I can share what I did..
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That's very brave of you!! I did too (after like 7 months)
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@Greynocd i did a silly youtube video that i saw. it was like writing their name in a notebook and then saying it out loud. it sounds silly to talk about but was a genuine fear that i forced him to like me
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@emcpo I did that too. As well as listen to "subliminals" like a recording of someone saying "you and your crush have a healthy relationship" etc. It sounds silly now but it really made me spiral.
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@emcpo I felt guilty every time I was with them. It was horrible.
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@Greynocd how are you guys now? are you still together?
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@emcpo No my ocd was untreated and it got so bad I started controlling them.. they got tired of it. Now I'm getting better and have a sense of self and happiness for the first time since I was a child I feel like. We're friends still (with kinda benefits) and I hope for something more in the future.
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@Greynocd i’m glad to hear you are getting better, and i hope you and them become closer in the future. if you have ever talked to a therapist about this what advice did they give?
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- 3y
@emcpo About the magical thinking - no. I talked to my school nurse about having distressing thoughts and she said I should ask my curator for more psychological support. I'm pretty sure she thinks I have normal anxiety.. Idk if she knows about ocd. Anyway... I'll speak to my curator on Wednesday about general ocd and ask if she thinks I fit the description. And get a psychologist after that.
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@emcpo Thank you, so do I!
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- 3y
@Greynocd i’m asking this as one on one, and obviously you don’t have to give any advice back, but do you have any advice for me about this situation? taking to you has made me feel less alone but i’m not sure how to continue through with this. and i hope all goes well with you, you deserve everything amazing in this world
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@emcpo Aw, you deserve everything!!! I'm really glad (but sorry for you) that someone else experiences this. Well.. I sat with it until the anxiety eased and then I could think rationally. It takes practice. Erp could be like maybe telling yourself you've made them like you by writing their name and saying it out loud. After a while it will fade. Also For a while the word manifesting triggered me. It still feels icky but I can read it now. How is that for you?
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@Greynocd that’s what spiraled me into this, i saw another video and then it led me back to like the idea i could’ve done it or i did. i honestly can’t remember if i actually did, which makes it worse because i don’t know which side of my brain to follow. the rational side or the other side that tends to mess with me haha
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@emcpo Omg I hate when that happens.
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- 24w
i feel like i have been posting a lot about this and i will try to stop since now but i just don't know where to start or what to do, and i can't take therapy right now either. my event is about something that did actually happen; i had a boyfriend and we had a 1.5 age difference (i know this sounds stupid) but the thing is that we both started to sext a lot since he was 14 and i was 15. we shared audios videos pictures ect and i don't know how to just let this go, even when i know that i never really forced him into anything and i was always constantly worried about him being comfortable, when to stop and ect. the memories keep coming back to my mind and the guilt is eating me up slowly because i keep thinking that i'm a predator or a groomer or something like that. i don't know how to deal with the what ifs either, lately i haven't stopped thinking what if i sexually harassed or sexually exploited him or something like that. how do i deal with the cycle of guilt and constant what ifs if i also feel like my event is worse than others i've seen? please help me with this. it's getting a lil tiring and even if somedays i know how to deal with this, i still get really triggered sometimes. this wouldn't even bother me before, i wish i could just get back in time before this theme popped into my mind. my life has been a hell since then and i live constantly scared and suicidal.
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- 24w
my ocd and anxiety has been so bad a couple of days… so i started liking this guy that i am friends with and we also went to prom together… after prom, i caught feelings for him even more because he’s so respectful and nice… but he is also a boy that acts like one… but overall he’s rlly sweet.. the other day though since we go to the same school we were in the parking lot after school with our friends just talking and socializing… but once he was leaving i went to go give him a hug and hugged me… my other guy friend was with us who’s also friends with him and hugged him too and whispered in his ear and said “yo u and sav would be a good couple” and he nodded saying “yes” (my guy friend told me that) so eventually i told him saying “yeah i like him” blah blah but there is a problem that bothers me so badly… my friend likes him… i didn’t tell her for a while until i think my OCD was just bothering me sm if i didn’t tell her so i told her how i felt and i was just saying like “i don’t want this to ruin our friendship or anything but i have feelings for him…” yada yada… she was like “i understand but if i’m honest with u if u ask him out i will be upset” i’m just like i wasn’t planning to rlly i can’t tell if he rlly likes me anyways but i didn’t say that… i said “i’m just telling u how i feel” and she goes “i mean i would see u guys anyways because u guys are closer” then she says “can i ask u something and a non rude way” and i was like sure…. she goes “since i’m the first person that liked him can i give it a try if it doesn’t work that’s that” and i was like girl idk it’s Gods plan if it doesn’t work it doesn’t if it does it does” and i’m saying that in the most mature and respectful way yk? because i am christian i’ve been praying about it also. so we were good after that but my anxiety and OCD has been so horrible… i’m uncomfortable around them because she flirts with him but i don’t and she did it on ft when i fell asleep on ft and my best friend was on there and had to hear it….she told me that he does it back she just can’t tell if he’s joking or not… but i’m so overwhelmed about it i’m having thoughts like “what if u and him stop being friends” … “what if something bad happens” …. “what if ur not confident in yourself enough where he won’t like you” …. “what if this is a love triangle” i’m just so sick of this and i don’t wanna be so distraught over a stupid boy because i’ve been through sm with my past talking stage thinking it will work but now im like rlly cauious over being in a relationship now…
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- 20w
My feelings are everywhere at the moment and i can’t think straight. I’ve recently started talking to a boy and I’ve met up with him twice. He’s a lovely guy and I think I do like him but idk if I’m attracted to him atm he’s not really my exact type and that’s what’s driving me crazy because what if I’m in denial about my “sexuality” and I’m lying to myself? And I’m panicking like mad because everything is going so fast that I can’t think straight. I’ve never really been in this situation before. He’s also being really kind to me and I know he likes me so his intentions are clear but that’s what’s scary, whenever he messages me now I feel overwhelmed 😭 If anyone has experienced this could you share your experience? Thank you.
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