i can't accept and forgive myself for having pocd.

I'm not Christian, but if God does exist, can someone with pocd reach heaven?

@Nameless000 First off, you aren't doing anything immoral by having a mental illness or by having thoughts. Second, if I am to genuinely answer your question, Christian philosophy focuses on how one acts and not what one might think (regardless of whether you choose to think it or really think it)

@Nameless000 - I had POCD and I overcame it. The trick is not to judge yourself + not to analyze it + not the check + not to avoid + let it play as if it was a scary movie you are exposed to and understand that the reason its OCD is because you don't like or want these thoughts because you are such a good person. Real offenders don't stay up at night worrying about the thoughts they have which they act on. So remember to separate from the thoughts + don't analyze them. Don't judge yourself. The more you do, the more they will stick. Ignore it. Its ok --the more scary they are just means how kind you truly are because you hate this.

@Nameless000 - When the thoughts come in -- let them float like balloons and keep doing what you are doing or do something but just don't look it up anymore. Don't talk about it. Completely ignore it as much as you can because the less you feed it, the thing will just go away. It is our fear that feeds it.

@Rose So that means I should also stop writing them down on my notes?

@Nameless000 God exist and His mercy is endless, even the worst of sinners can enter Heaven if they repent and ask for God's mercy. Now that you know this also know that you have ocd, you're sick mentally, we all are sick from ocd, that is not a sin. No matter what the theme is, having ocd is not a sin. Seek treatment and God's love and rest in His mercy, He loves you more than you can ever know. He loves you this very second

I'm sorry. I just hate that this became a permanent reality, out of everything that could have happened.

@Nameless000 But I think it's my fault. My worst pocd episode that changed my whole life could have been easily avoided, if I wasn't such a fool.

@Nameless000 Ya I feel u. But it can and will get better

@Nameless000 It might not be a permanent reality. I'm sure you didn't have it since you were first capable of forming complex thought, so I don't think it's right to assume it will be there forever. Therapy helps.