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- 3y
Feel like a burden
I feel like a huge burden to those around me because of my anxiety. Idk what to do and I feel so much guilt.
I feel like a huge burden to those around me because of my anxiety. Idk what to do and I feel so much guilt.
I know how you feel. You want to rely on someone but they can’t help you the way you need to be helped. The guilt is the mind going down the rabbit hole in overthinking. Trust me that’s my fortay. Overthinking to the extreme. YOU ARE NOT A BURDEN!
I just feel so much guilt because I feel like my loved ones have to carry the weight of my anxiety w me. I don’t drive anymore due to my anxiety & because of this they have to drive me around everywhere and they know about my fear and ocd…
I completely relate to this!! In fact my guilt often triggers my OCD and sends me spiraling further. I too have had to stop driving and my sister has to drive me everywhere. I feel so inept right now, but I haven’t yet given up on my determination to recover. Just because things are one way now doesn’t mean they will always be that way! And when you are able to do more in the future, you can show appreciation to those who helped you. It’s a helpful motivator for me anyway.
This was seriously much needed! Thank you. Why did you stop driving?
I’m so glad! I don’t drive because I am afraid I’ll have a panic attack while driving and hurt someone, and I obsess on the thought to the point that it triggers me further. So for the sake of safety at the moment, I don’t drive unless absolutely necessary. BUT I went through the same feelings about 7 years ago and I was able to recover. I even got to the point I was able to drive on long road trips! I’ve just recently hit a set back, so I try to remind myself that change is possible. In the meantime, I like to think of the ways I can help out in the future when I can drive again.
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Me too plus harm thoughts about my fam when they’re so good to me is making me feel shit
I woke up very late today because my son kept me up all night because he is teething so I didn’t fully wake up until 6am. These past months have been crippling because of my ocd, depression and anxiety. So crippling to the point I have been terrified to leave my bed. Because I haven’t been leaving the room often I am starting to come off as lazy to my mother in law and I have been slacking on helping around the house. My mother in law has surgery on Tuesday and needs us to help out more. I got up to do the dishes the other day and had to stop because I was having a flare up and felt like I was going to over heat from anxiety. I laid down and never finished the dishes. Today she came home really mad at my husband and I because we haven’t been helping and the guilt is eating me alive. I want to apologize but I don’t want to bring up how I have been feeling because I don’t want it to come off as an excuse. I don’t want this to lead to a point where I’m suffering because of it and I don’t want it to ruin her perception of me. I just feel awful that I’m letting this take over my life. Moments like this make me feel useless and I lose hope of ever getting better. what if I never get better. She does so much for me and I’m letting her down💔
My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and I’ve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but I’m so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then I’m reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I can’t handle the guilt. I’m becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.
I genuinely feel like the worlds most horrible person deeply for my past actions in childhood and general mistakes I’ve made. I feel like I shouldn’t be here or there’s no hope for me despite doing right ( trying to do right ) I’ve wanted to open up to my mom about things from my past but when I was talking to her about a situation that happened just to share, she was like “Thank God you’ve never done anything like that” But really my past mistakes are worst. It’s like I feel like I should disappear. I don’t know how to deal with the guilt and I feel horrible. I’ve made good and bad decisions but despite this being a long time ago ( which doesn’t erase my stupid actions ) I still keep bringing back into the present and I’m filled with guilt I genuinely think it would be better if I wasn’t here. I wake up think about my past things and I’m filled with guilt and shame that maybe I am a bad person and voices don’t stop, they keep telling me a lot of things that I start to believe. It makes me upset that I did something like that in my past and I try to be understanding but I can imagine the reactions of people and being condemned so much. I literally do this to myself every single day and it’s exhausting I don’t know how you guys can treat me with so much compassion and understanding. It really doesn’t feel real or like I deserve it. Like even on nocd, it makes me feel worst because I come across comments that say “as long as it’s not —-“ or something and I compare it to my past and I feel like a horrible unacceptable person.
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