- Date posted
- 3y
Need advice
This isn’t really an ocd thing so much as it is am anxiety thing. But if I don’t get a routine started back my ocd will get worse. Here it goes: I’ve had the same job since college. It’s retail. I’ve been with them for almost four years. I’ve been through a lot there. I work 25 hours a week I used to have Mondays Wednesdays and Saturdays off. Well I just started an internship and it runs through October. I have to be at multiple events a week. Most of them are night events. There used to be three interns but now it’s just me and another person so the work load is going to be uneven especially with the summer coming up. On top of this internship I picked up another side job to be a videographer for a persons performance piece. She wants me to meet with her every Sunday until her performance. I have three in total that she wants me to be at to film. Well, to fit everything I changed my schedule to working Mondays Tuesdays Thursdays and Friday’s. I have Wednesdays off for emdr and now Saturdays and Sunday’s off as well. I think I messed up my schedule. I’m working 7am-3pm now and I trialed it this week and I’m barely hanging on. Turns out 8am-4pm was the best for me but I didn’t want to have to rush after work to get to my internship if I needed to. I’m tired. It’s horrible. On top of that, I was thrilled to have two consecutive days off but I hate it. It’s not really time off. Turns out Mondays off was really working bc In case I needed doctors appointments or go somewhere that isn’t open on the weekends really made my mental health great. Take that away and I’m scrambling to find time for being home to let people in for maintenance and doctors if I need them. I’ve been feeling so sick with anxiety about it now. My advice is should I stick it out until I complete my third job or should I explain to my boss that I stretched myself too thin and would like to return back to my original schedule? I only have to meet with the person who hired me three more sundays but the performances go into the month of may. Turns out if I have any disruption to my routine I donot handle it well. I’ve been so sick with anxiety all week and I feel like a nuisance to my real job 😔 I know this isn’t a big deal but I don’t know why it feels like a big deal to me I thought I would love having the weekend off TLDR: changed my availability for my job so it wouldn’t conflict with my internship and side job. Starting to regret it now bc I’m not adapting well to time changes and different days off. Wondering if I should change it back to how I originally had it or stick it out? Advice needed. Anxiety is really bad