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- 6y
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And other people judge me because i'm not working, it's because you can't see just by my appearrance that i have ocd so i hear them thinking, why doesn't she work?
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Same here. Ive judt quitted my job because of my ocd. My parents are desperately telling me I got a brain scan done and I keep thinking ive got sthg seirous on my brain due to my migraine daily auras ad it appears ti be something unusual. I have the thought 24/7 and Im so depressef I cant work?
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i'm there too.. i'm 28 and everyone around me is working, starting familys and are going places.. while i'm back at my moms place trying to become human again, and that can really get me down to.. but as i just found of from this (thanks to your rant) i am not alone, and you are not alone.. so don't let that take over, cuz i think all of us would do amazing stuff if it were our choice! and yes, the word lazy (which is used way too often when it comes to this apparently) makes me see red.. they really have no idea how ut feels to be prisoner in your own mind so their opinion doesn't matter ?❤ all of you are fucking warriors, so don't let your minds or anyone else tell you different! ❤
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- 6y
Totally agree❤? we are warriors and we can face these crisis that come to us
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I get you im in the same position as you,bthat used to seriously get me so down because my friends are going places. I’ve only had one job I haven’t been able to do any due to ocd ( I only found out I had ocd this year when I have been suffering for four years) but now I’m actively trying to recover. Putting in the work no matter how hard it gets because time is passing me by and I want to live life the way I want to live it. Sending you love and strength. ?
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I’m 22 and feel the same way. Ruined my GPA by obsessing about studying perfectly while not studying at all
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Yup they suck so bad :(
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Know exactly what you mean, I'm 35 now and also at home for about Five years now, i can work 20hours a week but when i have a sollicitation everything goes well untill they learn i' ve ocd, then they close the door in front of me and the feeling of being useless i know all to well
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That happens to me too Everyone just thinks I'm LAZY and TOO young to not do anything for myself. But you see... I just feel worn down and sick
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It's true, i often feel weak and useless but actually i'm a fighter and i've more strenght then i often think i have, but it's not only the ocd that let's me down, it's also knowing that i've failed in many things, things that comes easy for others, or so it seems, i feel like i do not only have to deal with my ocd, but with the judgements of others, i had to go back and live under my parents roof with my son, having the knowledge that i make my partner and my parents their lives quiet often like hell, and i unwanted expose my son to my illness and that hurts the most, i also feel envy towards people who seems to get it all and i hate myself for thinking sometimes, why is their live perfect, can't something bad happen to them, something that make them feel like all hope is lost because that's the way i most of the time feel
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- 25w
I'm really frustrated right now because once again I feel like I can't keep up with my own brain and I just can't keep doing this. I'm so tired of doing this. My head is always going and going and going and I just want to unplug it. It makes me so stressed. It's like I have someone else in my head who won't shut up and is always pointing everything I do out. Like I'm walking on eggshells around myself so I don't trigger these thoughts. But if I walk on egg shells then it just goes on about something else and I feel like I'm going crazy.. I feel so bad because it makes me so snappy. I want to bash my head in because I'm so over it. The only thing I know that helps is anxiety meds, because I had one one time and it actually really helped me (it didn't even do it's job! Because of how bad my anxiety is!! I'm just so desperate at this point for relief) But the last time I brought up going on meds for anxiety with my mom she said I'll get addicted, like my dad, or my grandma, or whoever else in my family because everyone in my family is addicted to SOMETHING. I don't see the issue in trying though. I feel like I'm someone who could really benefit from anxiety meds. I don't talk about my feelings often BECAUSE of anxiety, so it seems like I'm just trying to go on meds for no reason. But it's like..my body hurts. All the time. And my brain never stops. My brain is so messed up. I feel like I could do so much more if I wasn't like this. It's never going away, I've tried and I've tried and I'm still a mess. I just want it to stop. I'm not asking for much. I just want the fear to stop and the intrusive thoughts to stop and the racing thoughts and the feelings of doom and the nervousness and and I actually want to feel okay in my own skin for fucking once. I've tried everything nothing works im losing patience and I'm losing hope. I feel like there's something wrong with me. I feel like my brain is broken and that makes me sad to be honest. I feel like everyone around me can work. Why can't my stupid brain work???? I try so hard. I try so hard all the time. And it still doesn't do what it needs to do. I hate myself so much.
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- 17w
I’m 21. The 3 year anniversary of my graduation from high school is soon. Lately, I’ve been worried about where I’m going in life and if it’s even worth it because I don’t know why I exist or what my purpose is After graduating I lost a new job I loved due to poor management on my boss’s side, they failed to teach me my job then fired me for it, and moved from my mom’s house into my dads house due to issues with my stepdad, both of which put me into a depression. I got a new job 3 months later. But ever since being fired and moving out, I feel like I’ve been in a depressive cycle of Eat, Sleep, Work, Repeat. I’ll get home and doomscroll for hours, and occasionally play games with friends at nights. Occasionally I’ll do my hobbies but usually feel guilty for it. I don’t see my friends and family nearly as much as I used to. I want to, but it feels like everything I want to do, my intrusive thoughts find a way to keep me at home. “It’s a waste of time.” “You need to be productive on your time off or you’ll go nowhere in life so stay home.” But then if I stay home it’s “you need to go out and do something.” “You’re being unproductive sitting at home all day.” “Seeing them wont make you feel better, you’ll never be happy” My girlfriend lives 6 hours away and is usually the only time I’d go outside and live and feel in the moment, but even then I’d feel guilt. I feel like my OCD makes me feel guilty for everything. She’s helped me a lot, but lately we’ve had a few issues we’ve worked past that made me fear for losing her too. I’ve felt depressed for years now. Before being fired, I usually felt pretty good and was almost normal feeling. I’d had control over my fears and intrusive thoughts of suicide and the meaning of life, and had accepted them and wasn’t afraid. I knew it wasn’t me. But lately I’ve been trying to push myself out of this depressive cycle, and it’s made my OCD and fears of suicide and if life has meaning, come right back. I’m handling it slightly better, but it’s still hard. I just want to move past this and stop questioning why I’m even doing anything, if I want to end it all, when I know for certain I don’t want to and that I get to make my own meaning in life. I have dreams, I want to get back into art. I want to move in with my girlfriend eventually and start a family. But my OCD makes me so scared to even try to make art, and it makes me so scared I won’t be happy or content with my dreams. I feel so alone and sad. I feel like life will pass me by while I’m stuck feeling this sad and scared. It sucks, but I’m trying my best to get there. Gotta keep moving
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- 14w
I had a really stressful couple of weeks and it's all hitting me right now. I cannot for the life of me shut off my brain my thoughts for a little and it feels like drowning. It's 1 a.m. here and I'm feeling completely hopeless like this feeling is going to last forever. I'm feeling like I can't use the tools I've been given my my psychologist and my meds feel like they've stopped working. I feel like by the end of the end I'm going to lose my mind. I usually am able to find some silver lining but today has been so bad. Everything triggers me and I have really bad intrusive thoughts about dying and finding some peace but I know that's not what I want. It's just so difficult navigating life when your brain works against you. I'm so tired and defeated and I feel like I have no one to turn to, but even that is some form of reassurance and it makes me spiral that I decide actively against it. I just feel like I'm losing my mind and I'm going "insane" from the distress. All my failed friendships and relationships have come back to haunt me and I feel like I can't get out of the house. All my sort comings are layed out in front of me and I feel like I am the worst person in the world and nothing will fix that. I have some real bad thoughts about my friends and family. And I know alla of this is classic symptoms of OCD but even though I know I can't rationalize and come to peace with them. I'm so envious of people being able to lead a normal life without this burden and in my mind it's just highlights all my shortcomings. I've had moments like this before but the last really nasty one was four years ago when I was yet undiagnosed and I really felt insane back then. I was hoping that when this happened to me again I'd be more capable of handling it but I don't think I am. I'm constantly on a battle against my mind and some times I win and sometimes I lose. I'm sorry for the rant I just feel extremely hopeless right now.
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