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Hey, I’m so sorry, I really recommend you talk to a professional about this when you can, none of us are qualified to help you with this. I’ve been feeling very similar, when we are struggling with depression or jsut suffering we want relief, and I feel that at some point those thoughts do come up, not because we want to die but because we want rest and to not have to feel the suffering. but you also have harm and suicidal ocd, so it may be just that as ocd is using your biggest fear against you, my ocd feels so real aswell I can’t tell the difference between real and fake feelings, and that is super scary. Regardless of where these thoughts are coming from you need support and to continue to reach out to support as much as possible Talking to your local helpline, a doctor a school councillor or a university councillor if one is available or even better a therapist that is trained in ERP if you can afford it Please reach out to friends and people you trust aswell, just having one person to let out your feelings to helps so much and can get you through these impossible times

@Forest13 (They/she) Thank you. I have an appointment this Thursday with a counselor

@NrseKris That’s really awesome :)

I just think like what if I’m depressed and hurt myself or wana die or i think what if I snap or lose control and kill myself or just act out of impulse if I can’t handle an emotion it’s really scary

@NrseKris I understand you , i have had similar thoughts but in effect of my ocd, i have horrible thoughts and then think about k**ling myself, i recommend you to seek professional help as soon as possible, if you cant, please talk to your local helpline im so sorry and i can understand your fear

@valerie_ Thank you. I have reached out for help. I don’t think I’d act on my thoughts just scared and want to feel better

At least we aren’t alone . Sometimes I feel alone or crazy with this. I want to live tho I have an amazing son and a good life I just want these thoughts and feelings to go away 🤯🥺

@NrseKris Same here! I have a son too and I really like my life. I am with you, I just want the thoughts to go away. My therapist said that OCD attacks the things we value most. She said a good response to the thoughts is “thank you OCD for reminding me what I value most which is my life.” That helps me sometimes.

@lindsmuff Aww that’s awesome. I love my son and he needs me. The thoughts are so scary, that’s a good way to look at it. But sometimes in the moment it feels sooooooo real like something is about to happen or I’m gonna act on it I get so scared

@NrseKris I feel that way too. Like there is an “urge” but then the anxiety rises because it is not something you want to do. I definitely understand. Sometimes it is hard in the moment to deal with it and remember that it is just the OCD.

@NrseKris It has gotten worse for me since having my son because now I have even more reason to want to be here.

@Lindsey516 How old is your son?