username255

Date posted: 3y

anyone else? or opinions?

okay so i am currently on buspar. its an anti anxiety medication. the medication gives me really weird head feelings, almost like a brain zap. sometimes its a strong feeling sometimes its just a constant weird feeling in my head. like some type of pressure. i’m currently dealing with suicidal OCD, i in no way have a desire to die or plan. but i’ve been fixated on one thing “what if i shot myself in the head” and i ruminate and sometimes get those head feelings i explained with my medicine which i feel like makes it more real or that i want to. could this also subside with the urge? or make the urge feel stronger than it normally would? like if i switched my medication if maybe the thoughts decrease because sometimes just the feeling in my head brings on the thought. i wont even think of it but will have that weird feeling and it connects with “shooting myself in the head” i know none of you are doctors and i am currently changing my medication bc i dont feel like the buspar has been working anyways just seeing if any physical feelings already going on can either cause the thought like that or if its just simply an urge/sensation?

username255

Date posted: 3y

or maybe the thoughts make the head feeling worse than what it actually is??

Tator

Date posted: 3y

Hi! Have you tried other medications before? Buspar was one of the first medications my Dr put me on when I finally decided to get help with my mental health. It was awful for me, I didn't sleep for 2wks, I had weird thoughts (not suicidal, but like all my normal thoughts were amplified & I couldn't stop thinking), and I just didn't feel "right". After the 2wks, I stopped taking it, and all those affects went away. I told my Dr & she switched me. In my medication journey, I've learned if you think you feel not right, stop taking the medicine! Lol but you are not alone & Buspar is a wild drug!

username255

Date posted: 3y

i actually got my new medication in today!! so just now starting it. i thought it was working at first but now it’s making me feel weird and i know brain zaps strictly come from medication because i had it with ssri’s. thank you so much for your feedback! i hope me stopping it helps!

username255

Date posted: 3y

may i ask what medication you got switched too?

Tator

Date posted: 3y

@username255 Yay! I hope your new medication helps you! As soon as that Buspar gets out of your system, those brain zaps will go away😊 I've been on just about everything.. I started off on Lexapro & stopped because of the side effects, then she tried me on the Buspar & Celexa, I stopped the Buspar & just did Celexa with multiple dose changes. It seemed to help the depression but not the anxiety so she added Valium. Once I got up to 40mg of Celexa I had to stop because of the side effects. Then she switched me to Paxil & same issue with it only taking care of the depression & once I got to 20mg the side effects got to bad. Then she tried Welbutrin XL, that made everything worse & made me suicidal. I got scared & stopped all my medicines for like a year. Then when I was ready to try again, she put me on Trintellix & it's been amazing for me! I'm on 10mg, but I feel as normal as I've ever felt, I feel stable, & no miserable side effects! I still have the Valium for when I have panic attacks that creep up, but it's very rare now!

username255

Date posted: 3y

@Tator thats so awesome!!! that makes me very happy for you. trying medication sucks but it’ll be worth finding what works for me!! i was off medication for 6 years and never needed anything. something traumatic happened and triggered me and now im back on unfortunately. i was on zoloft and unfortunately it did what welbutrin did for you (although it helped 6 years ago so i think) but it made me emotionally numb and i hated it. as much as i hate feeling emotions sometimes i missed it. so luckily got off that and he said sometimes if you’re not depressed, anti depressants can cause depression and i think i deal more with high anxiety than i do depression. he just put me on hydroxczine! praying this works but anything is better than what im feeling now. im not actually suicidal, just have some intrusive suicidal thoughts that i do notttt want 😂

NrseKris

Date posted: 3y

@username255 Do those thoughts ever make you question or worry if you actually wana do it ??? I’m now scared thinking what if I actually start planning something the thoughts feel so strong rn that my head is throbbing I’m scared

username255

Date posted: 3y

@NrseKris yes. that’s nornal. i’ll sometimes act like im planning and it makes me very anxious. you’re ruminating try to stir away from that if possible. OCD wants to latch on to anything that brings you fear. the fact you’re on here questioning it shows you truly dont wanna do it. it called the doubting disease for a reasin

NrseKris

Date posted: 3y

@username255 Wow it’s so hard to stop ruminating. I. Even started thinking who’s gonna take care of my son if I died and then I thought why would I even think that if I’m not gonna do it I must wana do it omg ughhh

username255

Date posted: 3y

@NrseKris yep just a bunch of ruminating!! allow the one thought you have be present and nothing else. you’re not alone!!

NrseKris

Date posted: 3y

@username255 I called off work cus I just wanted a day to rest it’s been so busy and my anxiety was bad this morning now I regret it I must really be depressed if I called off

username255

Date posted: 3y

@NrseKris you’re just anxious lol. are you in therapy? or on meds?

emilycb

Date posted: 25w

Suicidal thoughts vs OCD

I recently had a psychiatry appointment, and because of the amount of suicidal thoughts I have (which I believe are obsessions because of how anxious they make me), my dr. wants me to try taking lithium. Does anyone have any experience with this? It feels like a med that is for very severe mental illness, and it almost seems to reinforce the fact that I should be scared of my thoughts. The lithium seems like it could be more of a bandaid than a fix to my issues with SI, but I’m also at the point where I am terrified and exhausted of my own mind. Any thoughts or help is very appreciated :) thanks

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Lena1998

Date posted: 22w

Harm OCD made worse by psychiatrist visit

I went to talk to a psychiatrist based off my Nocd therapists recommendation. I had a very hard week beforehand where I had anxiety so bad I couldn't leave my bed. It seems like once I get my period my anxiety and everything dissipated some so I talked to the psychiatrist. Anyways, I was immediately put off by her because she told me she didn't have any information on me included in the referral for one reason or another. So I had to basically "fill her in" on my life story. I have anxiety disorder, panic disorder, OCD and PTSD. I told her these things and how hard the last week had been. She started asking questions like I had bipolar disorder, which I don't have. She then wanted me to take buspar and Zoloft TOGETHER daily. I know for a fact you never start two medications daily at once. You don't know which one is causing symptoms if you do. So I immediately didn't like that. I asked her about Zoloft specifically daily because it is an SSRI what I should do if it gave me thoughts of harm for myself. She told me "just go to the hospital".... Now, I don't wanna say that was the worst possible thing she could have said to me, but it was. Because now my OCD is spiraling that just my general harm OCD thoughts are enough to mean I need to go to the hospital. It had been 2 days and I cannot stop obsessing that maybe I'm depressed or suicidal because of this. I know I don't want anything to happen to me. I love my family and my friends. I am scared of death. But the thought is sticky and it's been so, so frustrating. My anxiety has been so frustrating. I feel so lost and like nothing I'm trying to fix my issues is working very well. NOCD therapy has been one of the only things to help in the long term, but I still get terrified of certain obsessions like suicide. I don't really know what to do, if anyone has any advice or any personal experience that may help, anything would be nice right now. I've felt so lost trying to figure it all out.

llinkys

Date posted: 20w

Buspar

I was prescribed buspar for anxiety. I’m worried that the psychiatrist didn’t fully understand that the more triggering feelings of anxiety come from the feelings i get mentally. I just kind of wonder from a professional what Buspar does. Google scares me I don’t know what the facts are and I just need some facts.

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