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- 3y ago
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Sometimes, when iām doing a hard run, I tell myself āokay, iāll run to that treeā and then once iām at that tree iāll say that iāll run to the next tree, and then on and on, I keep repeating, and at the end of that run, I feel accomplished because iāve ran more than I said I would and I pushed through the difficulties. I know life probably seems not worth living right now, but itās important to not get too wrapped up in that, and push through, I encourage you to try to keep setting times that you will go to, and then more, and more, I believe in you!
- Date posted
- 3y ago
You came on this app for a reason. You have to TRUST that shitty things like this are temporary. It took me time to see that, but EVERYTHING good takes time. My cousin killed himself 5 years ago and I would do fucking anything for anyone to try to help them get better. Weāre humans and weāre capable of adapting to new or odd feeling situations. The transition from that to something else is always uncomfortable but weāre capable of SO MUCH CHANGE
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- 3y ago
i think about it every day. all the time 24/7
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- 3y ago
Hi please donāt
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I know itās hard to believe but trust me it always gets better in the end even if you donāt think so yet, if you donāt mind me asking are you having therapy to help you?
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- 11w ago
Everyday I wake up, all my mind makes me think of is the stuff Iāve done in the past, like all day Iām in a constant cycle of judging who I used to be and it hurts so so much. I wish I never thought to do those things, I wish I had been more mature than how I was before, itās really lowering my self worth and I donāt think Iāve ever felt this miserable before, like last summer was the worst because I was dealing with this shit, I about almost ended my life over it, and I thought it would get better, which it did, but it didnāt last but for a while. As soon as it became 2025 I was going through it again, having constant cycles of āIām a good personā to āIām the worst person imaginableā and Iām so sick of it because I just want to feel like the good person l like to imagine myself to be, but I canāt because of shit I did in the past that I obsess over. Iāve cried and screamed so much over it and it seems like it will never leave me.
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- 10w ago
Today my mom broke down crying because of how much stress she feels having to take care of me, she said I canāt do anything in terms of being able to take care of myself and sheās right I canāt, she breaks down constantly because of me, I donāt know what to do, itās been like this for years, part of me feels like the only way to save her is to kill myself, I donāt want to die, but it feels like the only way to set her free, I donāt think anyone but her would miss me anyways, I feel utterly hopeless. Iām not going to do anything to myself the voices are just SCREAMING that I need to. I canāt work, I canāt go to school, Iām trying desperately to get therapy, I donāt know what else to do, I wish I was a child again and I felt like I had a chance to be okay. I love my mom so much and she loves me and Iām killing her, Iām actually killing her, with how fuckinh worthless and pathetic I am, itās too much, I miss being a kid.
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- 10w ago
so I need to get back into ERP, but itās so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mindās like yup make sure itās clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that thatās why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. Itās so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? Itās hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I donāt know many people with this exact theme. Itās such a scary feeling. And Iām constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if itās just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just donāt know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
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