One of the hardest parts of OCD for me (besides the obvious) is missing the life I had before OCD. I feel like I was so happy even in the hard moments when I thought it was bad. Looking back I’d give anything to only deal with those simple struggles again. OCD has just consumed my life and truly makes me feel unworthy of happiness, of having love or kids or anything good. It’s so hard to feel deserving of good things when you have a taboo theme. Does anyone else feel this?

you’re definitely right. i also miss the life i had before OCD. I swear i was at my happiest. It’s just sad that we cannot get that life back. We just have to live with this one

It’s awful. I hope all of us struggling with this can eventually get our freedom from OCD and feel that true happiness again

I feel like a shell of who I used to be. It’s so strange how OCD really makes you feel so hollow. Someone on here recently told me about their experience overcoming this disease. They are happily married with a baby now. It gave me hope for the future. We just have to keep going 💛

I’m so sorry hear that. I’m in the same boat as you. You’re definitely not alone. And thank you for sharing that. Definitely gives me hope that all of us struggling from this will eventually find peace and happiness again.

I just hope I can get my life back I miss the old me. I didn’t realize how good I had it before this.

I feel the exact same way :( it’s so hard. I’m sorry you’re struggling with this too

I miss the life and the mind I had back then more than anything, and I think about it all the time.

Same :( it’s so hard sometimes looking back on pictures of myself before OCD and just remembering how truly happy I was. It’s like mourning in a way. All we can do is look forward and have hope that we will be able to look back on this time as just a memory.

@Anonymous I know it’s like looking at a completely different person. It does feel like memories are all I have left of that person I was.

I feel that pain sometimes too, but what helps me so much is knowing that you CAN recover from OCD and you can learn to tolerate the fear and uncertainty until it no longer consumes you! Just keep up with the ERP! Even in my hard moments, I think about where I was before, before I even knew I had OCD and I can see how much better it is already, even if I'm not quite where I wan't to be, it's work keeping up with the ERP. You got this, you are so much stronger than you even know!

Thank you. Definitely needed to hear that. It can feel so defeating at times. I just hope I can find that true happiness again.

I feel this.. sometimes when memories pop up or I look at old pictures I'm like... wow I would love to be that happy again.. what happened to me. I feel like I don't even know the person I see in this photos anymore.

Me too and I curse myself cause why did this have to happen to me again after 2 whole years of being free it returns again

It’s like looking back and seeing a different person. I feel like a shell of who I was sometimes and I hate it so much

@jackie3! It sucks! I had a year break and it feels like this time it came back with vengeance

I relate to this 💯 God I was such a fool complaining about those little nuisances if only I'd known months later that I'd be suffering from this shit again after 2 years of being free

Definitely feel the same. Like complaining over how stressful and draining my job was at the time lmao I’d give ANYTHING for that to be my only struggle

Feel the same life wasn’t perfect but at least I was normal then

Feel this way too I keep thinking about when I was normal I’d do anything to go back to those days

I feel this ALL the time