One of the hardest parts of OCD for me (besides the obvious) is missing the life I had before OCD. I feel like I was so happy even in the hard moments when I thought it was bad. Looking back I’d give anything to only deal with those simple struggles again. OCD has just consumed my life and truly makes me feel unworthy of happiness, of having love or kids or anything good. It’s so hard to feel deserving of good things when you have a taboo theme. Does anyone else feel this?

dieinaholeoc...

Date posted: 3y

Yes, especially because I am having the best things happen to me right now. What I’d give to fully enjoy these moments.

ocdisnotcool

Date posted: 3y

you’re definitely right. i also miss the life i had before OCD. I swear i was at my happiest. It’s just sad that we cannot get that life back. We just have to live with this one

Jul24

Date posted: 3y

It’s awful. I hope all of us struggling with this can eventually get our freedom from OCD and feel that true happiness again

Anonymousk

Date posted: 3y

I just hope I can get my life back I miss the old me. I didn’t realize how good I had it before this.

Jul24

Date posted: 3y

I feel the exact same way :( it’s so hard. I’m sorry you’re struggling with this too

anonymous ca...

Date posted: 3y

I miss the life and the mind I had back then more than anything, and I think about it all the time.

Jul24

Date posted: 3y

Same :( it’s so hard sometimes looking back on pictures of myself before OCD and just remembering how truly happy I was. It’s like mourning in a way. All we can do is look forward and have hope that we will be able to look back on this time as just a memory.

anonymous ca...

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous I know it’s like looking at a completely different person. It does feel like memories are all I have left of that person I was.

Anonymous111

Date posted: 3y

I feel this.. sometimes when memories pop up or I look at old pictures I'm like... wow I would love to be that happy again.. what happened to me. I feel like I don't even know the person I see in this photos anymore.

jackie3!

Date posted: 3y

Me too and I curse myself cause why did this have to happen to me again after 2 whole years of being free it returns again

Jul24

Date posted: 3y

It’s like looking back and seeing a different person. I feel like a shell of who I was sometimes and I hate it so much

Anonymous111

Date posted: 3y

@jackie3! It sucks! I had a year break and it feels like this time it came back with vengeance

jackie3!

Date posted: 3y

I relate to this 💯 God I was such a fool complaining about those little nuisances if only I'd known months later that I'd be suffering from this shit again after 2 years of being free

Jul24

Date posted: 3y

Definitely feel the same. Like complaining over how stressful and draining my job was at the time lmao I’d give ANYTHING for that to be my only struggle

AAK1

Date posted: 3y

I feel this ALL the time

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

I feel that pain sometimes too, but what helps me so much is knowing that you CAN recover from OCD and you can learn to tolerate the fear and uncertainty until it no longer consumes you! Just keep up with the ERP! Even in my hard moments, I think about where I was before, before I even knew I had OCD and I can see how much better it is already, even if I'm not quite where I wan't to be, it's work keeping up with the ERP. You got this, you are so much stronger than you even know!

Jul24

Date posted: 3y

Thank you. Definitely needed to hear that. It can feel so defeating at times. I just hope I can find that true happiness again.

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