incest ocd

i’ve never had a thought like this before. i have the best relationship with my dad. but tonight a gross thought came up in my head. and instantly i was like um no. i didn’t get a sensation or any attraction or happiness from it. so i know i don’t like it. but for some reason my brain was telling me. “say this say this say this” as he was telling me goodnight and obviously i’m not gonna say it over the app but it just freaked me out. i didn’t say it and i didn’t want to at all but my mind and thoughts felt as if it were trying to force me too. now i can’t stop thinking about it and what would have happened if i said it. i feel so gross and weird and idk how to talk to anyone about it because my mom is very understanding and she understands this stuff very very well but it’s still an extremely hard concept to bring up to my mom. idk what to do:( i’m lost.

Username: Sam911Sam911

Date posted: 2y ago

It was a thought, and you didn't act on it, your capabilities to control your thoughts will get stronger. I think we all had weired thoughts once but the more we control our thought the more they get better.

Username: Jamie LJamie L

Date posted: 2y ago

I've been there and it's certainly upsetting when OCD strikes with family members and unwanted thoughts. You are doing a great job sharing here and know you aren't alone! Maybe the anxiety is telling you you have to talk to people about it but maybe just for now the community here nad your therapist, if you have one, will be easiest. It's wonderful your mom is understanding! I just mean, don't pressure yourself to share it all and figure it out. As the other commenter said, it was just a thought. ❤ you will get better at managing the discomfort from them.

Username: wheeleriwheeleri

Date posted: 2y ago

I also had thoughts like that about my dad when I was a teen. It totally freaked me out and disgusted me at the time. Don’t worry, you aren’t a pervert because you had that thought/impulse.

Username: Stacy QuickStacy Quick

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 2y ago

This can be so hard to experience. It is very common that OCD latches on to things we care about and value- so it makes sense it would cause you to get "stuck" on thoughts about someone close to you. Remember these are just thoughts (everyone has them- they just filter them out and are able to see how ridiculous or illogical they are and move on) and when you have OCD you get stuck on them and want answers as to why you have them in the first place. Do yourself a HUGE favor- stop trying to figure it out- there is no why- there is no meaning- you have a disorder that causes you to have anxiety about these "stuck" thoughts. Don't engage with these thoughts- they can be there and hang out and you don't need to "do" anything with them- eventually they will pass. Stop giving meaning to them. OCD cannot change your values and who you are as a person. It cannot make you say things- it may make you feel an urge to say something but resist those urges and don't attach meaning to them. If you haven't yet, I would highly recommend working side by side with a trained ERP/OCD specialist to help you to come up with a individualized treatment plan to tackle this. You got this!

Username: Jamie LJamie L

Date posted: 2y ago

Screenshot this as a reminder when I need it!

Username: dee012

Date posted: 1y ago

TW// rocd sex trauma

i have thoughts about incest, specifically from trauma, and i love my boyfriend and we are intimate. 99 percent of the time when i have intrusive thoughts during sex im able to move past them, but yesterday, my mother ended up texting me during it (TMI i know lol), which stressed me out, which caused more intrusive thoughts PLUS groinal responses, then she decided to go into the kitchen that’s RIGHT outside my room, causing more thoughts and feelings, while this was happening me and my bf were intimate in the moment and it felt as if the thoughts and feelings helped me finish, i was trying so hard NOT to think about them that i sortve thought about them on purpose???? it’s weird to explain… i told my bf about it since he knows about my ocd and he suggested we could take a break if it ever got that bad again, but it’s making me question myself and my morals i guess like now i feel like i really enjoy those thoughts and im just making excuses for myself. i feel so horrible and this is so haunting to me my ocd therapist doesn’t even know how to do erp for this according to her and i just feel so stuck

Username: Anonymous6482

Date posted: 1y ago

Inc3st ocd

I know this is terrible. And I shouldn’t be having thoughts like this but I read someone else who had these thoughts and my brain remembered a time I had an intrusive thought about my brother and it made me think what if I’m attracted to my brother. Now when I’m around him I get worried I’m going to have some sort of physical feeling or attraction to the point I basically freak myself out and have intrusive thoughts that I do or am while talking to him. And now I’m just avoiding even being home. Ik it’s awful and I never felt anything like this before and I know I don’t have any but I keep thinking about the feeling aspect. And whether those feelings/thoughts were true.

Username: asbl

Date posted: 19w ago

Sexual intrusive thoughts

I had gotten a lot better with my OCD, in general I had a real grasp over my relationship ocd and intrusive thoughts, I was able to comfort myself and see them as just thoughts. This is really embarrassing, but I was triggered a week or so ago when my boyfriend told me one of his key rings came from a girl he slept with 1 time but was friends with (this was 6years ago and has nothing to do with me!) This trigger has led to my sexual intrusive thoughts returning, I have this thing where if I’m having a bit of ‘me time’ my brain sends me images of people I don’t want to think about at that moment in time. Two nights ago it was my boyfriend’s stepdad and I’ve felt guilty ever since. If I’m honest with myself, I’ve always had this sort of issue but I convinced myself that if I didn’t climax whilst thinking of them then it didn’t count and I could let the thought go, I didn’t climax over his stepdad but the thought now isn’t leaving me and I just don’t know what to do. I feel really alone in this and like a weirdo, does anybody else experience this sort of thing ever?

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