Forest13
- Date posted
- 3y
I feel nothing
I feel nothing at all, not even when I compulsively look at younger people I need help, I’m so scared, it’s like I don’t care any more about anything or peoples basic human rights
GoneHikingGoneHiking
- Date posted
- 3y
I went through something similar to this...if I am right in assuming that OCD is causing it, then what's happened is that you've emotionally exhausted yourself, so you're going into depression. It's okay; you're likely going to feel kind of numb and are not going to experience much emotionally for a while. You may feel detached from everything and not care about anything. Just focus on today, and don't stress about the future; I know it feels scary, but it's going to go away, I promise. In the meantime, don't worry about caring; unless you make it real, what goes on inside your mind isn't going to affect the external world, anyway. Worry about yourself and living. Don't make any big choices. Just survive for now and you'll make it out, and make sure to call someone if you need help.
mateus12mateus12
- Date posted
- 3y
I'm same bro
Forest13Forest13
- Date posted
- 3y
Hey i don’t like being called bro
mateus12mateus12
- Date posted
- 3y
Feling Numb
mateus12mateus12
- Date posted
- 3y
as if I am soulless as if I am not interested in anyone in the world
Forest13Forest13
- Date posted
- 3y
I’m sorry you feel like this
mateus12mateus12
- Date posted
- 3y
I'm sory
mateus12mateus12
- Date posted
- 3y
Wat yuo feeling
Forest13Forest13
- Date posted
- 3y
Really hopeless
mateus12mateus12
- Date posted
- 3y
@Forest13 (They/she) Ne not have hoope
mateus12mateus12
- Date posted
- 3y
@Forest13 (They/she) I'm distrusted
Forest13Forest13
- Date posted
- 3y
@mateus12 I’m sorry I don’t understand this comment
ThomasHerena98ThomasHerena98
- Date posted
- 3y
Hello Forest! I totally understand what you’re going through! Whatever the root cause of feeling numb might be might not necessarily matter in the moment, it’s just that you feel like you can’t relate to basic human emotions and desires, right? That’s pretty frightening (even if you feel you don’t feel frightened, though it sounds like you are!)- humans are emotional beings and being without that feels unnatural. But it’s good to remember that you CARE about feeling these emotions. I remember reading somewhere that it’s simply enough to care about caring. If you force those emotions or constantly check them, you’re just going to set yourself up for disappointment as OCD tends to do. In the meantime, I would suggest trying to set up a routine where you do meaningful activities (and again, try not to ruminate about whether they bring you some kind of emotional response!) . I also am quite emotionally numb, and it’s something my OCD frequently tries to latch onto to convince me of all sorts of awful things about myself. It’s definitely not fun, but remember that you can get through this!
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Anonymous
- Date posted
- 17w
Maybe it is OCD (please say anything)
I have no idea anymore. I guess this all started with me worrying about whether I was gay, then whether I was a P, then worried about being just attracted to teenagers. After that I started freaking out about not feeling “grown up” enough. Like “I’m an adult wtf is wrong with me for seeing someone who is probably younger and thinking they’re physically attractive. Then I started overthinking not finding older adults (like 30 or 40) very attractive. Like ofc I’m probably not gonna find them attractive, they’re not anywhere close my age. Maybe the desires are half real. Maybe as a 21 yr old young adult I do find older teenagers (16+) somewhat physically attractive. I still think it’d be weird to date one. Maybe that’s the normal reaction I’m supposed to have. If not, please let me know. I just don’t wanna do anything illegal one day and I’m super scared I will. I can’t tell if the fear is my just being afraid of the law though, in which case I might actually just be a bad person. I hate that my brain is just rationalizing thoughts now. I feel like I can’t do the ERP thing of “just accept that the thoughts are there but don’t engage.” Like what? How can I just think a thought that might be so integral to my identity and just ignore it? If it’s all true and I don’t like people my age anymore then I have to know and plan around that, that could change my entire life. I’m rambling, my b.
Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 16w
I’m confused
I keep wondering if I’m attracted to this kid I saw a week ago or not, it keeps happening, I can’t figure it out, what I hope is false attraction is feeling too real, I don’t wan to like the kid, I never wish to like kids, I genuinely feel like I’m just in doubt, I can’t figure it out, it feels weird, I don’t feel any guilt, shame, disgust, or panic, idk why but ik that I’m supposed to feel that, it makes me feel like I’m a real p. I barley get any negative emotion from those thoughts anymore, even when these thoughts started I didn’t feel shame or guilt, but I think I did feel worry and panic, I’m not sure anymore, I don’t remember.
Shaodidi
- Date posted
- 16w
Doubt
I keep wondering if I’m attracted to this kid I saw a week ago or not, it keeps happening, I can’t figure it out, what I hope is false attraction is feeling too real, I don’t wan to like the kid, I never wish to like kids, I genuinely feel like I’m just in doubt, I can’t figure it out, it feels weird, I don’t feel any guilt, shame, disgust, or panic, idk why but ik that I’m supposed to feel that, it makes me feel like I’m a real p. I barley get any negative emotion from those thoughts anymore, even when these thoughts started I didn’t feel shame or guilt, but I think I did feel worry and panic, I’m not sure anymore, I don’t remember.
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