- Date posted
- 3y
compulsive acts of kindness
i always worry that i’m bad so i do nice things and then i feel worse bc i’m like i only did this to feel less anxious so i’m selfish lol
i always worry that i’m bad so i do nice things and then i feel worse bc i’m like i only did this to feel less anxious so i’m selfish lol
If I’m only there was more people like you in the world <3 I often have this thought. And I conclude that the core thought is to be nice.. therefore at the very least my intentions are good, even if I only did it because I feel like I think only did it because I look down on my self. Either way I did a good a thing. That’s more then most people do.
i deal with this a lot as well! it’s unfair, but doubts are just a byproduct of the disorder so please be nice to yourself. the nice things you do shows your true character, not ocd thoughts!
I feel the same, it’s like I’m jsut playing and acting part
i’ve been dealing with this “thing” since i was 15. (i’m 23 now) if i have a bad memory that i have done when i was really young or just an intrusive thought i feel like i need to tell my mom or boyfriend. it’s been on and off ever since but since January hit it’s been an everyday thing about the littlest things. mostly about my relationship. an example is i was talking to someone random at my job and we were talking about taxes and when im in deep thought or just thinking i do a thing where i bite my lip (not in the sexual way) and i had a thought when it happened “was that sexual?” and i felt like i did something wrong and i went for a while thinking that until i told my boyfriend about it. or like my ex’s face has popped up in my head in the most inappropriate times and i feel the need that i have to tell him. (my ex was not a good person) i feel like im a prisoner in my head everyday, trying to justify thoughts or remind myself that its just a thought. i didnt know that this was or could be a form of ocd. it runs in my family but i’ve just never considered it being this. i always called it anxiety or depression but i always felt like it is more than that.
So recently i had really obsessive thoughts about something and once i got over it i kept bringing back more stuff to make myself feel like a bad person. Why am i doing this? Why do i need to look for something else to burden someone with once they have forgiven me
I often feel like i did something wrong even tho i am positive i didn’t, my boyfriend and i have been together for like 6 months and i’ve been completely loyal to him the whole time but recently i’ve been feeling the need to confess that i cheated on him even tho i didn’t and there’s absolutely no proof that i did something even close, i don’t talk to other men and if i do my boyfriend has full access to my phone and it’s usually a friend or me asking a simple question but i still feel the need to confess even tho i’ve done nothing wrong🥲 someone please help it’s so confusing
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