I’m sorry to hear that :( my names Sam. I’m suffering with pure-o tonight has been one of the hardest nights for me if not the hardest. We just have to remember everything is alright and we will find happiness again. Whether it’s today the next week or in a year. We have to remember all we’re having is expressed thoughts. Thoughts that we are absolutely horrified of
you said it so well
I’m sorry you feel this way but you’re so young and if you feel too much pressure your family should understand that, if you need a mental break say something. Now is the time dont wait until you have no choice but to work to pay bills. Do it and get the professional help that you need and your future self will thank you for it. Don’t worry about people’s opinions either your mental health is the most important thing right now everything else can wait.
Hey Raj, no productivity doesn’t mean you are a bad person, neither does leaning on the people that love or care for you. Pressure and judgement we place on ourselves makes this a lot harder. I’ve been there, better, and back again. I’ve been doing this lately too, not going to work and feeling like I’m a sack of Doo Doo. We all take our own time to heal. I’m leaning on my wife more than I ever wanted to, but thinking negatively isn’t going to help you feel better. You’re trying, you’re loved, nobody is going to let anything happen to you if you know when to reach for help which you are. Productivity is not equal to self worth. Try this, tonight, write down one thing you want to accomplish tomorrow, a walk, study for 5 minutes, even getting out of bed and making some food, sitting outside for 10 minutes. Something you think you can’t do. When that becomes easy add another thing. Start to write a schedule for your day, even if most of it is a nap or sitting. Sometimes we have to reduce our days down to minutes of progress to get better. You can do this, I’ve been where you are many times and it sucks a lot, I’m there now, but start moving just a little bit and see how quickly you can do more for yourself. Hope that helps in some way, easier said than done I know, sometimes I don’t take my own advice, but try.