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I have obsessive thoughts about this fear sometimes too, but it has gotten better over time. To answer your question, I think if you go to the settings and “my channel”, you would see anything you posted there. However, what has helped me is not checking or if I do check just doing it one single time and nothing more if I absolutely cannot resist the compulsion. I know it is super scary and I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this fear.