Fear of losing control due to anger exacerbated by OCD struggles.

You are SO not alone on this. I can go off in a matter of seconds… red assed pissed off… at everything!!!! Then it just stays with me . I usually don’t calm down unless I can get some sleep. I get so angry that I feel like my heart is going to pop right out of my body. I try to calm down but sometimes it just takes over. I usually have to go be by myself when this happens. I don’t want to do or say anything to hurt anyone else. Working on it but it is hard.

So true. I'm so impatient with my kids. I get easily over stimulated with nose because of all the thoughts in my head.

Yeah, I fear that a lot. My patience is also thin when it comes to people, and I fear doing something irreversible. However, I'm aware that even when we're upset, there's moments of clarity where we go "I have a choice." but i really get what you're saying :)

It’s so terrifying, I get so angry and almost get the urge to act on the anger, then it’s like I have a battle in my brain with “if I act out and punch someone, I’m going to jail” I then play the scenario in my head off being in jail, and I can’t do that, I won’t be able to live in jail and it keeps me from acting. I am scared that “voice of reason” is going to shut off one day and not be there, and then I’ll do something. It’s truly unnerving, I just wish there was a cure for all of us. I don’t want to hurt anyone or anything, I just don’t understand why I have this, and why I can’t get rid of it. I want my fking life back, I am sick of living in the prison of my own thoughts. This has to be some sort of karma for me, I had to have done something to deserve this. I don’t know. I just want peace of mind. :(

I have seriously affected my relationships because I am so easily angry. It is exhausting for the people around me, and I want to stop, but it is hard when I feel so constantly running on empty.