So lately I been feeling depressed about not knowing how to drive believe it or not . I am 19. It honestly embarrasses me That a this age I still rely on parents and younger and older siblings for rides . I get jealous seeing other people already drive . Literally all my friends drive . I’m exhausted . I don’t know what to do . I feel very stuck in life . Drivers Ed next course isn’t until June 20th-July . It’s 500$. I’m so fucking desperate . A new friend from work has said she’s willing to teach me , but I worry she won’t keep that promise. I feel slow mentally lately like I’m losing memory and I don’t comprehend or process things same way anymore . At work, I easily lose memory all sudden and I have tj keep looking up screen no matter how many times I’ve looked my memeory fades away. I’m feeling depressed. Useless. I feel sad I’m not as good as others and they’ll rather put a 17 year old for manager than me . I’m done with everything . Ocd is worsening . My low self esteem/social anxiety is rising .

I didn’t get my driver’s license until my late 20s and I wasted money on it too. But I finally did and that’s what counts at the end of the day.

I just turned 20 but i was in the exact same spot you were in with the whole driving thing. I'm Canadian so I'm not sure if it's the same for you, but I already got off to a pretty late start with my written test portion in highschool, while most of my friends were already driving cars. My first driving test I failed terribly and the tester was really criticizing (he gave good advice but the way he delivered it hurt me alot). I got extreme anxiety driving ever since and my mom made me jump from one instructor to the next, and I felt really guilty because she spent so much money for my lessons. Because of covid my second test took forever to schedule and it was far away from my house (and this time it wasn't free). Despite it being in a different location I ended up getting the same guy that failed me the last time! And once again, he failed me. I felt like a disappointment to my mom, and to everyone I told about doing the test again. Cried super hard and felt like an idiot. I never wanted to drive again... but my mom made me schedule a third test. I told myself I needed to keep trying so I reluctantly spent more money on lessons- this time it was an instructor I felt comfortable with. I also watched YouTube videos on techniques I had issues with, and I practiced more with my mom's car specifically. I finally passed on the third attempt.... I'm telling this whole thing to say I've been where you've been! And I know it's cliche but you have to keep trying, and build your confidence with practice. You are not a failure, and you will pass eventually (with the second, third, fourth, or so on attempt). You are not alone in this fight and you certainly will pass. If you fail the test you're going to take, it's ok. You have the opportunity to take more and eventually you will pass! I wish you the best of luck

Take things with one win at a time. I always feel overwhelmed with things that go wrong in my life but I feel like the blow is softened when I focus on doing something right little by little so it doesn't seem like that big of challenge. I hope this helps you, even a little bit.