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- 3y
Health anxiety & convincing myself I’m dying
At what point do you start to tell yourself you have to stop believing what your mind is telling you? My health anxiety is so bad. I’ve been having gut issues for 10 months and I’ve seen a GI. I’m CONVINCED I have colon cancer. Tbh, I’m extremely scared of cancer and dying in general. I’ve probably thought I’ve had every cancer or tumors anywhere I feel some pain. I’m a google monster when it comes to looking up my symptoms when I’m anxious and I can’t stop. My two friends have both been diagnosed with lymphoma under the age of 30 recently, and one of my best friends unexpectedly passed away in her sleep 8 months ago, she was a healthy young mom. so this has me more paranoid. I have almost every symptom of colon cancer, except the fact that there’s no blood that I’m seeing. When do you also tell yourself that maybe this really is the issue and you continue to push and advocate for yourself without seeming like you’re crazy? I’ve been brushed off for months because of my OCD and it’s starting to make me upset. There’s only so many times you can complain about your obvious pain and symptoms and they tell you nothing is wrong and it’s just your anxiety 😥 but, my mind tells me I need absolute proof that I don’t have this or else I’ll think it forever. Or that they’ll catch it too late and I’ll never see my baby and husband again. I’m so terrified all of the time that I don’t know if I’m causing my gut issues to be worse. 🥺 I don’t even feel hungry half the time, but I’ll eat and then get full really fast. But sometimes I’m not like this and I can eat just fine. Idk when I’m overreacting or not.