eybaddict
- Date posted
- 5y ago
miru10miru10
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yeah, it's depersonalization / derealization. It's caused by ocd when you're too overwhelmed. I'm dealing with it
biancalovesartbiancalovesart
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Everytime I have a severe suicidal episode since my depression is definitely connected with my OCD.
anna bananaanna banana
- Date posted
- 5y ago
very much so! and damn i miss being myself! i cry about the depersonalisation as if someone i loved has died. i do love myself tho, so that makes sense
anna bananaanna banana
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@chelsbingy yes! not that much in the mirror, but looking at pictures i feel it way too hard. i get so sad because i dont feel like the girl i used to be, and also i miss being that girl! my ocd keeps making me doubt if i was ever that confident and had all that self love and makes me worry i was broken and insecure back when i didnt have ocd about a year ago, but its the opposite. i really, really miss being that fine and happy with myself. i was so content. in some way, being that happy was what made me go into an existential/suicidal obsession cycle. it felt like my happiness was beinh threatened
anna bananaanna banana
- Date posted
- 5y ago
dont you worry! depersonalisation hits the strongest individuals, and it’ll dissappear as you lower your stress levels. worrying about it only adds to your ongoing struggle
anna bananaanna banana
- Date posted
- 5y ago
thats exactly what it feels like! someone cutting the power to your identity. just gone. it can feel as though someone wiped your harddisc, and now everything seems new and scary. like you could crumble into nothing by just going for a walk in the park, because existence seems so intense now that your usual way of dealing with things is completely gone. its very scary, but luckily just a harmless symptom of anxiety
HaileyHailey
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes sometimes if I’m very very stressed out from OCD.
eybaddicteybaddict
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Is just that with ocd?? Or other disorders ???... I don’t even know .. felt it yest .. felt it after a dream yesterday.. lasted for a few hours ..
SimSim
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yeah, occasionally
chelsbingychelsbingy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes I have that right now too. I don’t feel like me at all. I feel odd when I look in the mirror
chelsbingychelsbingy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@anna banana do you have it 24/7 do you feel like you don’t recognize yourself in the mirror and pictures?
chelsbingychelsbingy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes that is me!!
chelsbingychelsbingy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Mine makes me question if I’m a mom and wife l just feel like a shell of a person right now
chelsbingychelsbingy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I guess that’s just DP though it makes you feel like you lost your identity. We will get better!!
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- Date posted
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