Does anyone here get disassociated or disconnected from themselves ?

Yeah, it's depersonalization / derealization. It's caused by ocd when you're too overwhelmed. I'm dealing with it

Everytime I have a severe suicidal episode since my depression is definitely connected with my OCD.

very much so! and damn i miss being myself! i cry about the depersonalisation as if someone i loved has died. i do love myself tho, so that makes sense

@chelsbingy yes! not that much in the mirror, but looking at pictures i feel it way too hard. i get so sad because i dont feel like the girl i used to be, and also i miss being that girl! my ocd keeps making me doubt if i was ever that confident and had all that self love and makes me worry i was broken and insecure back when i didnt have ocd about a year ago, but its the opposite. i really, really miss being that fine and happy with myself. i was so content. in some way, being that happy was what made me go into an existential/suicidal obsession cycle. it felt like my happiness was beinh threatened

dont you worry! depersonalisation hits the strongest individuals, and it’ll dissappear as you lower your stress levels. worrying about it only adds to your ongoing struggle

thats exactly what it feels like! someone cutting the power to your identity. just gone. it can feel as though someone wiped your harddisc, and now everything seems new and scary. like you could crumble into nothing by just going for a walk in the park, because existence seems so intense now that your usual way of dealing with things is completely gone. its very scary, but luckily just a harmless symptom of anxiety

Yes sometimes if I’m very very stressed out from OCD.

Is just that with ocd?? Or other disorders ???... I don’t even know .. felt it yest .. felt it after a dream yesterday.. lasted for a few hours ..

Yeah, occasionally

Yes I have that right now too. I don’t feel like me at all. I feel odd when I look in the mirror

@anna banana do you have it 24/7 do you feel like you don’t recognize yourself in the mirror and pictures?

Yes that is me!!

Mine makes me question if I’m a mom and wife l just feel like a shell of a person right now

I guess that’s just DP though it makes you feel like you lost your identity. We will get better!!