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- 6y
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Yeah, it's depersonalization / derealization. It's caused by ocd when you're too overwhelmed. I'm dealing with it
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- 6y
Everytime I have a severe suicidal episode since my depression is definitely connected with my OCD.
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- 6y
very much so! and damn i miss being myself! i cry about the depersonalisation as if someone i loved has died. i do love myself tho, so that makes sense
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@chelsbingy yes! not that much in the mirror, but looking at pictures i feel it way too hard. i get so sad because i dont feel like the girl i used to be, and also i miss being that girl! my ocd keeps making me doubt if i was ever that confident and had all that self love and makes me worry i was broken and insecure back when i didnt have ocd about a year ago, but its the opposite. i really, really miss being that fine and happy with myself. i was so content. in some way, being that happy was what made me go into an existential/suicidal obsession cycle. it felt like my happiness was beinh threatened
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- 6y
dont you worry! depersonalisation hits the strongest individuals, and it’ll dissappear as you lower your stress levels. worrying about it only adds to your ongoing struggle
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- 6y
thats exactly what it feels like! someone cutting the power to your identity. just gone. it can feel as though someone wiped your harddisc, and now everything seems new and scary. like you could crumble into nothing by just going for a walk in the park, because existence seems so intense now that your usual way of dealing with things is completely gone. its very scary, but luckily just a harmless symptom of anxiety
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- 6y
Yes sometimes if I’m very very stressed out from OCD.
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Is just that with ocd?? Or other disorders ???... I don’t even know .. felt it yest .. felt it after a dream yesterday.. lasted for a few hours ..
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Yeah, occasionally
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Yes I have that right now too. I don’t feel like me at all. I feel odd when I look in the mirror
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@anna banana do you have it 24/7 do you feel like you don’t recognize yourself in the mirror and pictures?
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Yes that is me!!
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Mine makes me question if I’m a mom and wife l just feel like a shell of a person right now
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I guess that’s just DP though it makes you feel like you lost your identity. We will get better!!
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- 23w
Hi everyone, I haven’t posted in a while—about 6 months—but I’m really struggling and need some help or advice. I thought I had healed from all of this, or at least I was doing so much better. I have never felt this before but it feels like I’m slipping back into something I can’t control. Right now, it feels like I’m stuck in a bad reality. It’s like I’m trapped with my dad in one reality, and I’m trying to get back to the other where I’m with my family, but I can’t. It’s so hard to explain, but everything around me feels unreal, and my mind keeps telling me I’m stuck. It feels so real, and I don’t know how to get out of it. It’s like I’ve been transported to another world, and I can’t break free. nd now I’m scared I’ll never come back to the “good” reality I had before. and I genuinely believe this. I’ve been struggling with these thoughts about spiritual realms, the devil, and spiritual warfare. My dad has always talked about these things, and he’s gone through psychosis before. He’s also had a history of doing a lot of drugs, and now I’m terrified that I might end up like him. I fear that I’m somehow becoming like him, trapped in that same mental space he’s been in. He talks about spiritual stuff that scares me, and I can’t shake the thought that I might be losing myself the same way he did. I know this might sound weird, but I feel like I’m getting closer to that line, and I don’t know how to stop it. I keep feeling like I’ll never come back to the way things were, like I’ll always be stuck in this distorted reality. I’m afraid of losing myself, especially in my faith. I believe in God, but my thoughts and fears about all of this are making it hard to feel connected to Him. I feel so distant from God right now, and it’s hard to see how this can change. Has anyone else experienced something like this—feeling like you’re trapped between realities, afraid of becoming someone you don’t want to be, or struggling with fears like this? How did you cope? I just need some hope that I can get through this and come back to a better place. I’m scared, and I feel like I can’t escape this. Any advice would really mean a lot right now.
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- 20w
TW// nsfw and 18 up pls i can self pleasure without even realizing it. not like full blown, but it just happens when i dissociate and think about past flings or whenever im bored. just like casual touching myself. sometimes it happens when im scrolling on my phone or when im doing school work. what sucks is sometimes kids will pop up on my phone and for example today i was doing studies on a mental health in children. when i came to, basically becoming fully aware, i was like wtf. because of what was on my screen and what i was researching. it freaked me out really bad and i know it wasn’t with any bad intent it just makes me feel bad if that makes sense. like i dissociate basically and i am doing the touching like on pilot mode if that makes sense so whatever content on my phone or schoolwork isn’t even associated with the act. It just makes me feel like i was doing it to whatever was on my screen which ik I wasn’t bc I would’ve been aware and freaked tf out but I still am freaking out. this has happened before and I just move on bc I know what I was doing and like it wasn’t even a compulsion like “oh am I attracted to this?” Like the compulsions that come with sexual ocd. It was just autopilot dissociative self touching and I just was zoning out while doing my work. idk if this makes sense I probably sound like a monster. I keep having what if thoughts like what if I was doing it to that or what if I am a monster and it’s that bad to the point where I am unaware
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- 9w
anybody else deal with this?😔
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