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don’t be scared to try. tell your doctor how you’re feeling always. just keep them updated.
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i have suicidal OCD and i was also scared of the same thing as an ssri caused my real suicidal thoughts in March, i just got on fluvoxamine as still dealing with suicidal OCD and i’ve noticed a drastic change in just 2 weeks. it’s not completely in control yet and still causes some anxiety. there’s actually a HUGE difference in real thoughts vs unwanted ones. the way i look at it is, if you could get rid of the suicidal thoughts itself would you be happier? if your answer is yes, they are unwanted. real thoughts are looked at as a last resort. as nothing else matters etc. it’s looked at more pleasurable.
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My thoughts are definitely unwanted, I’ve never been suicidal in my life. But if you don’t mind me asking did you already have suicide OCD before trying an SSRI?
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@Anonymous yes!! the suicidal OCD is actually what drove me to get on meds. i dealt with harm towards other and existential and then when it went on myself it freaked me out. i actually dont know if they were actual suicidal thoughts or not, but they felt real and i had an emotional blunt. so i think they were. but me too, i’ve never been suicidal in my life nor have ever wanted to die but this makes me question it sometimes. and i sometimes get depressive intrusive thoughts that i dont want at all so it adds on to it idk. it’s confusing
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@username255 i was scared to get back on ssri, for that reason whether they were real or not i didnt want to add on to how i was already thinking. but it hasn’t. it hasnt done alot but i luckily havent gotten any horrible side effects and ssri’s take awhile to have its full effect so im giving it a chance
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@username255 That’s so crazy you say that cause the exact thing happened to me with the first SSRI I tried which was Zoloft. I felt so emotionless and on top of having those OCD thoughts I got so scared and stopped them. It really is frustrating and confusing having suicide OCD. I hope your medicine ends up helping you out though!! I’m gonna stop being so scared and give it a chance.
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@Anonymous mine was zoloft too!!!
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@Anonymous i hope it goes well for you too!! we will be just alright
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@username255 Yes we will! Another question just curious do your pupils dilate when taking the medicine? I’ve noticed mine get big when taking them
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@Anonymous i havent paid any attention but possibly!!!
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With medication you should always consult with the prescribing doctor about side effects. For OCD you can always lean into the uncertainty and use non-engagement statements like “maybe it is maybe it isn’t.” Are you currently working with a therapist?
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I have talked to my doctor about it, he said since I’ve never been suicidal he’s not worried about me having that side effect.. Idk. And no I don’t have a therapist, the ones I can afford don’t understand my OCD.
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