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don’t be scared to try. tell your doctor how you’re feeling always. just keep them updated.
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i have suicidal OCD and i was also scared of the same thing as an ssri caused my real suicidal thoughts in March, i just got on fluvoxamine as still dealing with suicidal OCD and i’ve noticed a drastic change in just 2 weeks. it’s not completely in control yet and still causes some anxiety. there’s actually a HUGE difference in real thoughts vs unwanted ones. the way i look at it is, if you could get rid of the suicidal thoughts itself would you be happier? if your answer is yes, they are unwanted. real thoughts are looked at as a last resort. as nothing else matters etc. it’s looked at more pleasurable.
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My thoughts are definitely unwanted, I’ve never been suicidal in my life. But if you don’t mind me asking did you already have suicide OCD before trying an SSRI?
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@Anonymous yes!! the suicidal OCD is actually what drove me to get on meds. i dealt with harm towards other and existential and then when it went on myself it freaked me out. i actually dont know if they were actual suicidal thoughts or not, but they felt real and i had an emotional blunt. so i think they were. but me too, i’ve never been suicidal in my life nor have ever wanted to die but this makes me question it sometimes. and i sometimes get depressive intrusive thoughts that i dont want at all so it adds on to it idk. it’s confusing
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@username255 i was scared to get back on ssri, for that reason whether they were real or not i didnt want to add on to how i was already thinking. but it hasn’t. it hasnt done alot but i luckily havent gotten any horrible side effects and ssri’s take awhile to have its full effect so im giving it a chance
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@username255 That’s so crazy you say that cause the exact thing happened to me with the first SSRI I tried which was Zoloft. I felt so emotionless and on top of having those OCD thoughts I got so scared and stopped them. It really is frustrating and confusing having suicide OCD. I hope your medicine ends up helping you out though!! I’m gonna stop being so scared and give it a chance.
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@Anonymous mine was zoloft too!!!
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@Anonymous i hope it goes well for you too!! we will be just alright
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@username255 Yes we will! Another question just curious do your pupils dilate when taking the medicine? I’ve noticed mine get big when taking them
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@Anonymous i havent paid any attention but possibly!!!
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With medication you should always consult with the prescribing doctor about side effects. For OCD you can always lean into the uncertainty and use non-engagement statements like “maybe it is maybe it isn’t.” Are you currently working with a therapist?
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I have talked to my doctor about it, he said since I’ve never been suicidal he’s not worried about me having that side effect.. Idk. And no I don’t have a therapist, the ones I can afford don’t understand my OCD.
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I went to talk to a psychiatrist based off my Nocd therapists recommendation. I had a very hard week beforehand where I had anxiety so bad I couldn't leave my bed. It seems like once I get my period my anxiety and everything dissipated some so I talked to the psychiatrist. Anyways, I was immediately put off by her because she told me she didn't have any information on me included in the referral for one reason or another. So I had to basically "fill her in" on my life story. I have anxiety disorder, panic disorder, OCD and PTSD. I told her these things and how hard the last week had been. She started asking questions like I had bipolar disorder, which I don't have. She then wanted me to take buspar and Zoloft TOGETHER daily. I know for a fact you never start two medications daily at once. You don't know which one is causing symptoms if you do. So I immediately didn't like that. I asked her about Zoloft specifically daily because it is an SSRI what I should do if it gave me thoughts of harm for myself. She told me "just go to the hospital".... Now, I don't wanna say that was the worst possible thing she could have said to me, but it was. Because now my OCD is spiraling that just my general harm OCD thoughts are enough to mean I need to go to the hospital. It had been 2 days and I cannot stop obsessing that maybe I'm depressed or suicidal because of this. I know I don't want anything to happen to me. I love my family and my friends. I am scared of death. But the thought is sticky and it's been so, so frustrating. My anxiety has been so frustrating. I feel so lost and like nothing I'm trying to fix my issues is working very well. NOCD therapy has been one of the only things to help in the long term, but I still get terrified of certain obsessions like suicide. I don't really know what to do, if anyone has any advice or any personal experience that may help, anything would be nice right now. I've felt so lost trying to figure it all out.
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For starters I was on this medicine before i remember the first few weeks were very scary and debilitating. I don’t remember why I stopped taking it , it was about 7 months ago. but I just recently started back because my ocd and anxiety has been off the chain. I keep having bad thoughts about the side affects and I’m terrified like “ what if I have a seizure” can anybody share an experience? Anyone on Zoloft here. Thanks !
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I’m not suicidal by any means, I had a thought one time when I was going through some stuff and ever since then I wake up every morning and think about it all day I have thoughts like “did I mean that?” “Did I want that?” “Am I gonna think this all day” “would I really do that” and literally it’s to the point it’s driving me nutssss please tell me I’m not alone and please tell me how you got through this, I started antidepressants about 6 days ago it’s called Effexor for the mean time I need some advice
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