I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I keep searching my ex on social media and get so much pain from looking at the pics. I know I can physically refrain myself from doing this but I just do it. I’ve been through a lot in my life but this heartbreak is by far the worst thing I’ve ever experienced. I also think it’s so hard because we lived together for about 2 years and dated for 4 in total. I don’t wish this on my worst enemy. 😢

My ex best friend started dating my ex boyfriend. And me and the boy are in the same church so this is awkward. My heart is broken, not because he’s with someone else but the fact that it’s with her. I look back at every moment the three of us spent together and just wondering if they liked each other when me and him were together. I’ve lost all self respect, I keep stalking them on social media and I’m so mad at myself because I know that I’m letting them hurt me more but I can’t help it. I also still have my ex bsf location and I checked it today and saw that she was at my ex bf’s little brother’s baseball game, this hurt because me and him used to do that together, also me and his family are still close because of church so I have a soft spot in my heart for his little brother. I just feel like my whole world is upside down, I’m so confused. I’m trying so hard not to resent them, I try and remind myself that they are still God’s children. But I still find myself full of bitterness. I’ve been processing everything for about a month and I have tried tons of things to heal: put all of the items he gave me in a box, go to a rage room, visit the temple, journal, pray. Each of these things have helped a ton, but I still have a lot of pain. I know that this is all part of God’s plan but it’s still painful, I just need to remember that this pain is temporary and will help me grow as a person. I just wanted to share this and maybe get some advice on how to heal from a broken heart. I know this isn’t really OCD related but I just really needed to share this.

I’m overanlazing alot of things. My first post on my profile covers everything but I’m so worried and like nervous reck of what my ex boyfriend could be doing. We are on no contact for almost 3 weeks now which is the longest we’ve ever gone. I’m getting so much into my head like if he already moved on, or if he’s talking with some girl already, or letting a girl hit on him. Or even going back to bad habits. It’s been driving me nuts for the past few days. I’m still mad at him for hurting me mentally but miss him too. I keep thinking there’s something wrong with me, wrong with the way I’m thinking, like I’m not normal for thinking these things. That he’d find me weird I wonder those things and that I check on his profile on instagram, just staring at it, blocking and un blocking him. I worry that maybe he doesn’t think of me anymore. And he just. Doesn’t care. I feel like an older version of him would say I’m being too much, that I’m overthinking to so many extents that even tho we are broken up, he’s single and so am I and I shouldn’t care this much about it. But I do. And I’m sure it’s because I’m still in love with him. Even if I’m mad and upset still.

He broke up with me out of nowhere and told me he never loved me & he said he stayed with me for years due to comfort and guilt of not hurting me.He was emotional & physical distance for years and drove my ocd and jealousy up ,leading to him reaching a breaking point and few weeks after his with someone new . It’s been almost two months now and still can’t eat or stop crying and spiraling. It’s affecting my job and never got closure because he just sugar coats things if I ask or ghost me . We together for almost 5years . I’m stuck and can’t stop my thoughts consuming me . I also have trouble doing daily task or finding energy too. I don’t have friends or family and trying to make friends but I have bad habit of trauma dumping and that pushes people away. I also live alone and being alone is something I struggle with and causes me so much anxiety/panic attacks Idk what to do to get back to normal I made app to see a psychiatrist, but it’s not for a few weeks and I am seeing a therapist. I just started, but it doesn’t seem to help because I’m just venting to them and I feel they don’t specialize in OCD. Is there any actual supplements that helped anyone or anyone in a similar situation will helped you get through this I feel like my OCD makes me self sabotage my relationships because of my insecurities and I also have abandonment issues.