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That’s very hard, I’ve been there as well. There’s nothing as painful as seeing someone you loved so much move on with someone else. Please be kind to yourself, and know that this really will get better each day. I have been separated from my ex almost 3 years now, I loved him so much and it’s still hard to this day, but so much easier to manage now. I think often times, those are normal responses to grieving your past, I wouldn’t beat yourself up too much over this.
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I know how that feels and nothing is wrong with you. You just miss her. I got dumbed badly in January 2021 and I never felt so bad after a separation. I felt so much emotional pain, I thought my body would not be able to bear it. I'd cry for hours on end and when I didn't, anything could make me cry. I felt no connection to anyone, friend or family, had been worth something in comparison to the love I felt for my ex. But nearly 1.5 years later, I don't miss him at all anymore, I'm only still angry how disrespectfully and rude he dumped me and has treated me afterwards. I know it doesn't feel like it at the moment, but it will get better...
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I’m so sorry you’re going through this
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I’m so sorry. Breakups hurt so much. Give yourself time to grieve. I found that writing a letter to my ex (but not sending it) helped me. Also, if you can’t stop looking at pics of your ex, maybe at least try to wait a little but when you have the urge to look. I found that helpful too. Sending a hug!
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Love you all ♥️
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I did voice recordings and said eveything I wanted to say and then deleted them. I did a lot of them to start with, but at someone point, I didn't feel the need anymore.
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I’ve shared on here before that I don’t have the best relationship with my parents but I still care for them a lot. I love them. This disorder has been so debilitating for the last 4 months. It keeps getting worse. It’s been attacking any physical contact with my parents. Any touches, hugs, playful jabs, caresses, anything. Anything that’s supposed to be pure and loving. My brain jumps to it being inappropriate, or weird or just comparing it to something sexual. Then I just feel so uncomfortable. I don’t know if I’m just hyperaware of how I feel, I tense up badly or if I’m checking how I feel. I don’t know. It breaks my heart. It genuinely hurts so bad. I feel like a child who just wants to cry in her parents’ arms but OCD is trying to take them away. This feels so painful, I’ve been dealing with so many themes but this specific situation hurts the most. I feel devastated and scared. If anyone else has been through this or has any advice, I’d really appreciate it. And if not, just knowing that someone heard me would mean a lot. I feel so deeply sad.
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Everyday I wake up, all my mind makes me think of is the stuff I’ve done in the past, like all day I’m in a constant cycle of judging who I used to be and it hurts so so much. I wish I never thought to do those things, I wish I had been more mature than how I was before, it’s really lowering my self worth and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this miserable before, like last summer was the worst because I was dealing with this shit, I about almost ended my life over it, and I thought it would get better, which it did, but it didn’t last but for a while. As soon as it became 2025 I was going through it again, having constant cycles of “I’m a good person” to “I’m the worst person imaginable” and I’m so sick of it because I just want to feel like the good person l like to imagine myself to be, but I can’t because of shit I did in the past that I obsess over. I’ve cried and screamed so much over it and it seems like it will never leave me.
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Was just remembering and ruminating on extremely traumatic and disturbing drawings I looked at as a teen. I'm trying to move past it because I cannot go back and unsee what I've seen, it's so difficult though. Feeling like people would look at me with disgust and I don't deserve the love that I crave desperately.
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