my mom and my brother put on the Joker and it started triggering me and making me feel crazy and like i could do all of those things? i feel very irrational and not like myself and i just want this to end
hey! Remember that you need to sit in uncertainty and move on :) I have a relationship with Jesus and I blocked out a lot of those movies Murder, phycotic people, etc because it’s really just not good for us. But also this doesn’t mean watching it can turn you into something your not. I’m just meaning ocd or not blocking out movies or songs really is good for you! I can tell you more if ya want!
@Jenny330 Maybe you know then that watching stuff like that can be something called an open door, which just leaves room for the enemy to bring fear or other things into your life. So I would stay clear of stuff like that. But ocd is very real and these thoughts are still gonna happen so just sit in uncertainty about what it could possibly mean! You are doing great girl!
If you feel triggered by something and your OCD flares up, the best thing you can do is expose yourself to it. Also be careful not to let your faith become the compulsive behavior! It’s a fine line between practicing our faith in a healthy way and moral scrupulosity. Great thoughts on here! Love the support and love this community gives! ❤️
I’m not a religious person, so I don’t avoid certain types of media. I used to feel that way about watching things like that, but I realized that it’s OCD. I think it’s similar to the subtype “Emotional Contamination” I like listening to true crime, but all of a sudden I started to feel like maybe I could do these things? What makes me different? However, I’ve let those thoughts pass and I still listen to true crime without a problem. I think if we were to believe that we could commit a crime just by seeing or hearing someone else do it, all police officers, counselors and probation officers would be committing crimes. The same goes for going crazy and things like that.
An open door isn’t just having tormenting thoughts about something. An open door can lead to so many things, not just “if you watch a movie about this, you might become this” that’s not it. it’s SO much more.
@loved by the one true king Those things bring fear, maybe even anxiety into our lives wether you realize or shrug it off. Which builds up behind the scenes and isn’t good for us! And it can look different for all people, it could be more severe than that or less
I’m scared I keep thinking this over and over that I’m gunna hire a hitman on my brother what if I do like I’m a bad person how can I be normal with him this is probably my worst harm thought and it feels like I truly will do it I’m just “ holding back” :(
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.
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