my mom and my brother put on the Joker and it started triggering me and making me feel crazy and like i could do all of those things? i feel very irrational and not like myself and i just want this to end
hey! Remember that you need to sit in uncertainty and move on :) I have a relationship with Jesus and I blocked out a lot of those movies Murder, phycotic people, etc because it’s really just not good for us. But also this doesn’t mean watching it can turn you into something your not. I’m just meaning ocd or not blocking out movies or songs really is good for you! I can tell you more if ya want!
@Jenny330 Maybe you know then that watching stuff like that can be something called an open door, which just leaves room for the enemy to bring fear or other things into your life. So I would stay clear of stuff like that. But ocd is very real and these thoughts are still gonna happen so just sit in uncertainty about what it could possibly mean! You are doing great girl!
If you feel triggered by something and your OCD flares up, the best thing you can do is expose yourself to it. Also be careful not to let your faith become the compulsive behavior! It’s a fine line between practicing our faith in a healthy way and moral scrupulosity. Great thoughts on here! Love the support and love this community gives! ❤️
I’m not a religious person, so I don’t avoid certain types of media. I used to feel that way about watching things like that, but I realized that it’s OCD. I think it’s similar to the subtype “Emotional Contamination” I like listening to true crime, but all of a sudden I started to feel like maybe I could do these things? What makes me different? However, I’ve let those thoughts pass and I still listen to true crime without a problem. I think if we were to believe that we could commit a crime just by seeing or hearing someone else do it, all police officers, counselors and probation officers would be committing crimes. The same goes for going crazy and things like that.
An open door isn’t just having tormenting thoughts about something. An open door can lead to so many things, not just “if you watch a movie about this, you might become this” that’s not it. it’s SO much more.
@loved by the one true king Those things bring fear, maybe even anxiety into our lives wether you realize or shrug it off. Which builds up behind the scenes and isn’t good for us! And it can look different for all people, it could be more severe than that or less
Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of “what if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me fired”. That really stressed me out, cause I don’t normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day “your dad is the president”, this one didn’t stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didn’t believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said “lonely” on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like “oh someone’s out to get me cause I got this”. I know this isn’t logical and it wouldn’t make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone could’ve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking I’m in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I don’t think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like I’m going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like I’m about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!
There are moments when something takes over me, like I have to fight myself (literally restrain myself) from acting on my thoughts, like causing harm to my parents or brother. I get these feelings that feel so real, like they are genuinely my own. There are moments when I feel like I like them, and it makes me question whether this is truly OCD or if it's me. Then I wonder whether this is me lying to myself, because I feel the urge to smile at the thought, or feel like I have some pleasure. I check whether I like them, and then I feel like I do, so I stop immediately. I feel like my old self is gone, and I've become this person, and that it was never OCD. Right now, as I type this, I feel like I'm lying to myself. There are moments when I feel like my brain splits, as if this is my new personality. Or there are moments when I feel like it might feel liberating or freeing if I do it. I genuinely feel like this is not OCD. There are moments when I stop the thought, and I feel like it's out of principle, as if I don't truly want to stop at that thought. I truly can't picture this to be my life now. I never had these thoughts in my life until two and a half months ago. It truly makes me question whether it was OCD. I don't get why. I used to view my family as my world, and now my mind is making me scared and feel like my room is my only safe place from them, from me.
For context: ive been diagnosed with arfid. But my brain refuses to accept it and that i don’t have an issue with eating. So this past weekend has been anything but chill. Today felt like the tip of the iceberg. My mom called me out for having an irrational fear of food textures, food appearances, and smells i find distasteful and told me i just let myself get too carried away by the “what if” “could be” “might be” “looks like/smells like/tastes like..” thoughts. I just have to get over it essentially and stop giving it too much meaning. Its ridiculous. I was taken aback cos we weren’t even talking about food to begin with and it just sort of came up with her. Still in disbelief and so frustrated. Seriously thinking about just isolating myself and not talk to anyone about anything cos i don’t know what to do anymore.
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