my mom and my brother put on the Joker and it started triggering me and making me feel crazy and like i could do all of those things? i feel very irrational and not like myself and i just want this to end
hey! Remember that you need to sit in uncertainty and move on :) I have a relationship with Jesus and I blocked out a lot of those movies Murder, phycotic people, etc because it’s really just not good for us. But also this doesn’t mean watching it can turn you into something your not. I’m just meaning ocd or not blocking out movies or songs really is good for you! I can tell you more if ya want!
@Jenny330 Maybe you know then that watching stuff like that can be something called an open door, which just leaves room for the enemy to bring fear or other things into your life. So I would stay clear of stuff like that. But ocd is very real and these thoughts are still gonna happen so just sit in uncertainty about what it could possibly mean! You are doing great girl!
If you feel triggered by something and your OCD flares up, the best thing you can do is expose yourself to it. Also be careful not to let your faith become the compulsive behavior! It’s a fine line between practicing our faith in a healthy way and moral scrupulosity. Great thoughts on here! Love the support and love this community gives! ❤️
I’m not a religious person, so I don’t avoid certain types of media. I used to feel that way about watching things like that, but I realized that it’s OCD. I think it’s similar to the subtype “Emotional Contamination” I like listening to true crime, but all of a sudden I started to feel like maybe I could do these things? What makes me different? However, I’ve let those thoughts pass and I still listen to true crime without a problem. I think if we were to believe that we could commit a crime just by seeing or hearing someone else do it, all police officers, counselors and probation officers would be committing crimes. The same goes for going crazy and things like that.
An open door isn’t just having tormenting thoughts about something. An open door can lead to so many things, not just “if you watch a movie about this, you might become this” that’s not it. it’s SO much more.
@loved by the one true king Those things bring fear, maybe even anxiety into our lives wether you realize or shrug it off. Which builds up behind the scenes and isn’t good for us! And it can look different for all people, it could be more severe than that or less
I love horror movies and would watch them random sometimes even Terrifier cause art is my new favorite character. I just felt like I was a bad person for this⁉️ I don’t support his actions but I like his goofy faces he makes. I can’t enjoy anything no more Literally me rn in life
i am convinced im a psycho killer. everytime im around my mom or sister i get these intense thoughts of stabbing or hurting them. when they’re not around its not as intense but its still there. its literally on my mind 24/7. im so tense 24/7. were currently looking for a puppy for the family and when me and my sister were playing with them today the thought was still there. nothing distracts me from it. video games and EVERYTHING else doesn’t work. im starting to feel like i WANT to do these things. i was never like this until i had a marijuana induced panic attack in january. i feel like something happened to my brain and its not just ocd anymore. i dont even know if im faking it. i have suffered from relationship ocd, pedophile ocd, and health ocd. i got over those relatively quickly. this new theme came out of nowhere after a panic attack on a plane coming home from a horror convention in february. i dont see a way out of this one. its been months. i try to let them sit and i get a panic attack. all i do everyday is cry. i feel like my life is over. i talk to a therapist and i have tried two medications that didnf work work. i dont know how to live like this. im afraid im gonna lose my relationship and im afraid im gonna lose my whole life ahead of me. im just 22. i just want the old me back.
I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.
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