Wishing I Had Guidance

I have a therapist but she is not specialized in OCD and we do CBT, DBT, and ACT (soon to start EMDR) and I'm medicated for OCD by a wonderful doctor, which is also helpful for my PTSD, but I wish I could afford a therapist who knew what ERP was and I didn't have to teach my therapist about OCD and be scared of judgment. I am willing and mindful to face my fears - but doing it alone is scary. I wish instead of being the bull and making the first move, someone supported me. I am doing well on my own, and the best I can, and I know that's all I can do and maybe I will not get ERP guidance. There are no in-person support groups so I faced my fear (this post itself is an exposure for me) of being online. I accept this. But it would be nice. nOCD doesn't accept either of my insurances, nor are there therapists outside nOCD that accept it. :( It feels like I have to do it to survive but I am hopeless researching for someone who takes the insurance.

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 3y

I'm sorry to hear about your difficulty finding an OCD/ERP specialist who is able to take your insurance. We know that can be a huge barrier to treatment, and that is why NOCD is working towards getting in-network with as many different insurance plans as possible. Until then, NOCD does offer extended payment plans to help people better afford the cost of treatment, and we often run promotions where we offer discounted rates for a limited period of time. It could definitely be worth your while to contact the NOCD Care Team again and see what NOCD could do to help make services more affordable. Good for you for doing the work you're already tackling in therapy--I hope you're able to find an ERP therapist sop you can make even more progress in overcoming OCD!

greenbean

Date posted: 3y

Thank you so much for your reply and advice I will make sure to contact nOCD!!

pktRatt

Date posted: 3y

I know how you feel, I am not even getting treatment yet because I'm scared that my therapist won't be trained and it'll be hard. But no one ever said getting through OCD would be easy. We can do this, there is a time where we have our thoughts under control. I believe in you and that idea. Good luck to you. :)

Drinkwayer123

Date posted: 3y

Excalty! CBT is not ERP

greenbean

Date posted: 3y

I believe you can do it and one day it'll be easier and being scared is just that, fear, and nothing else. It is hard but so worth it and makes you feel so proud. I hope you can too find someone who makes you comfortable.

prathamesh03

Date posted: 3y

You can try erp on your own by downloading some erp sheets from online resources. In those u have to list ur fears and start tackling them on basis of difficulty level. I know it may not be as good as working with a specialist but atleast its better than nothing. I am trying the same due to living in a country outside US where such therapy is too costly

greenbean

Date posted: 3y

I've done this and used the free tools page to do some exposures, they're very helpful. I am sorry you cannot find therapy due to your location. I hope one day you can but either way you are valid and a hard worker, keep it up! Thank you.

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 3y

Did you reach out to care@nocdhelp.com to discuss a payment plan or is there anything your insurance can do to help you out. ALso check to see if they have special promotions at NOCD. You are brave to work on this and putting in this effort. Keep working on this you can do this

greenbean

Date posted: 3y

Thank you so much for your encouragement. I have contacted my insurance itself and nothing came up for ERP or OCD specialists. I didn't know there was an email way to contact nOCD, I thought just the 15 minute call. This will help tons, thank you.

greenbean

Date posted: 3y

When I ask questions in support groups or on forums I get told to talk to my OCD therapist but I do not have one.

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 21w

Without therapy for months . Please help. Please

I had to cancel my therapy because it was no longer available with my insurance. And I just kind of feel hopeless with OCD. Even when I was doing therapy, I think my OCD started getting too complicated for my therapist and she didn’t even know what to do. My fears are so complex it’s crazy. So my big fear is my OCD being bad and being super depressed again like I was a few months ago in high school. I attended a public highschool for a semester and started the worst flare up I’ve ever had. I was harshly bullied for no reason whatsoever, and not accepted by anyone. I am an athletic kid who usually keeps to himself so I didn’t understand why people targeted me, especially when I wanted nothing to do with them. From August to now ( March) I CANNOT grasp hold of my OCD. I am very hard on myself about it. Going into dangers anytime I see one so I can expose myself. But constantly obsessing about if I’m doing enough for my OCD. And comparing myself to how I use to be, before the flare ups. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep I’m obsessing about my OCD and if it’s bad and comparing. Another HUGE fear of mine is being treated differently because I have OCD. So being bullied for so long I always assumed it was because I was shy and didn’t want to stand up for myself - due to my OCD- so I blamed myself for everything that continued to happen, . from people bullying me in the past . The people at that highschool were downright crazy. Even the teachers and coaches had major issues and I’m so glad to be out of there, but I still obsess the same everyday and hold so much resentment for that school and when I try to let it go, I just feel more passive pain and obsess even more about it weather my ocd is okay or not. I feel mentally sick. Please someone give me some advice for my fears, because I feel like I’m doing everything in my power to expose myself to everything but nothings working.

annabanana248

Date posted: 21w

In limbo between therapists and feeling discouraged

I've been in and out of talk therapy for OCD-related issues for years, but it hasn't been effective long-term. I am struggling with body image / eating disorder adjacent obsessions and I am really hopeful that ERP might actually give me some relief. I had my first session with my NOCD therapist a few weeks ago. It felt like a good match and I was ready to unpack my obsessions and compulsions to try ERP for the first time. The day of my second session she canceled due to personal illness. Then this happened a second time. Yesterday all of my future booked sessions were canceled without explanation. I went to schedule with a new therapist and the ones that seemed could be a good fit are filled up until at least early April. I booked a slot and sent the therapist a message letting her know I would be interested in starting sooner if a slot opened up. I am just disappointed. I could just meet with another therapist who has earlier availability, but it's most important to me that the therapist be a good fit since I've been through therapy so many times. I feel like I'm in limbo until I have an ERP plan set up and I'm not sure how to move forward in the meantime. I'm planning try out a support group but I need a personalized exposure plan and I'm not sure if that's something I should just try to set up myself? Anyone have something similar happen to them? Any thoughts or advice would be helpful.

PenguinB

Date posted: 10w

Getting through life when therapy is unaffordable

Hi everyone, I'm in a bit of a difficult situation and I wanted to ask for some advice. I recently finished my studies and I am living from my savings while I look for a job. However this process has turned out to be a lot more difficult and tedious than I expected. I suspect I have OCD as I relate to a lot of the experiences described here, in particular those corresponding to pure OCD. I have continuous intrusive thoughts about how what I'm currently doing is not enough, I constantly need to reassured that what I'm doing is right, with some magical thinking and concerns about my relationship sprinkled in. These intrusive thoughts have made it very difficult to make any significant progress in looking for something. Added to this I'm not even sure I have OCD as I don't have the money to afford therapy right now (my mind keeps telling me that it's silly to write this message because there's no way I have OCD). I live in Switzerland so as far as I understand my insurance won't cover sessions with NOCD. In conclusion I'm a bit stuck, therapy would help with finding a job but I need a job to get therapy. If any of you have had any similar experience and have some piece of advice it would be very welcome.

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