at my job my director sent 2 little girls to her room because they were disruptive and I went back into my classroom. Then I had to remove another child from my classroom and as I was seating this child one of the girls walked out the front door of the building and I saw her get out but no other teacher was in my room so all the other children were alone so I went back in. But my director was the one who took them to her room so she said its her fault but I feel awful about the fact that I did not say anything, the child is completely fine. Nothing happened she is ok but I was also thinking about the other kids being alone. Idk if this makes sense but im having a lot of internal anxiety and guilt about it and its making me feel terrible about myself. I'm worried I am going to revert back to how I was when my ocd was first diagnosed. It was awful. I wanted to die and I was at rock bottom. I do not want to go back to that.

I cannot give you advice, but I hope you get better soon

I don't want to reassure you but offer advice to just shower yourself with compassion. Whenever I get ocd guilt I like to take a step back and give myself kindness. We are all human afterall.

I'm a preschool teacher and sometimes things like these will happen. If your director isn't upset with you then you're fine. You know who are. You're a good person especially to work with these little ones. Everyday we learn something either what not to do or what worka for us and what to continue doing. Learn from this. Just continue having good work ethic/you're strong. With time you'll realize this and feel better and this will be past you.

The Fact you feel horrible means your caring so much about those kids safety ,and not beauase of your boss. Because you didn’t get in trouble because your a caring person but remember to care for yourself some and not be brutally guilty for no reason. I know this doesn’t make the guilt vanish, sometimes I lay awake thinking about small and big mistakes but mostly small things and they sometimes feel like they are eating me away but if you feel guilty it means you have learned.it is so easy to over think things.I’ve heard stories of careless babysitting you probably aren’t ever going to be like that.

Please any advice will help me. Again the child is completely ok. Nothing happened to her whatsoever. I just want the guilt to go away

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Do you work at a preschool?