It feels so real.. like i have to come out.. what do I do to stop feeling so anxious right now? It was very clear as hocd at first, not so sure about it anymore

I am having a panic attack right now. And everytime I feel like this I imagine myself telling my mom about this. I fear that she won’t understand the ocd. I can only imagine myself crying out to my mom. It kind of feels like that memory is of me coming out. This is making me even more anxious. It’s really making it feel even more real than before. I am anxious about coming out. That must mean something. I don’t know, I don’t even know my sexuality to be concerned about this. I am just so worried

What If I actually want to be a lesbian and don’t know it? What if I’m just suppressing it. I am so confused right now.

you’re not the only one!! for me, i haven’t experienced this but i have read about many people who have so it is your OCD!!!!! you are fine and if you were a lesbian you would know it and would not over think this much about it! It’s simply that ocd intrusive thought, calm down relax play some games on your phone, read a book etc. you got this!

Hmm but when i did go out i always looked at girls and i don't know why. but it was the boys whose attention i always wanted not the girls. And also fantasized about boys. bt then why is that i do always look at girls. Today it suddenly clicked my mind that i do look at girls but never fantasized. But there is one thing i know is that i always have the habit of comparing myself with others. May be that is the reason but i don't really know.

I always compared myself to other girls but as far as I’m concerned before any of this happened I am sure I never liked girls. I don’t know if I started liking girls nlw

I saw that once too. I am just scared they won’t accept me. Or think I’m gay. I don’t want to do it yet. I am just too worried. It’s 3 am and I don’t want to go crying to wake up my parents

I have shared about the prob with my mom. But she said it's because from a few months i am not going out preparing at home for exams and that is why my mind is going in the wrong direction

I am starting school on Monday, new year. And I’m afraid I am going to suddenly develop crushes on ALL my friends. I didn’t feel like this up to 2 months ago. I seriously don’t know what to do. I experienced depersonalization for the first time today. I hate this so much. Hocd is such a sensitive theme that can be easily confused.

I had another attack that calmed me down with mindfulness a few hours ago that made me fall asleep. I just feel so uneasy. So anxious. It’s like if I don’t deal with this now it’s going to keep haunting me until it kills me

What part is the one that ocd was talking? I can’t tell them apart. I just feel so bad right now. And I haven’t been in therapy

There is no therapy where I live

Not really. They say you are supposed to be 18 or older to use those. I just feel SO anxious right now. Tryin fro meditate but the fact that nobody knows what it’s going through inside my head just makes me even more depressed

There’s this hocd course online taht costs 27 dollars a month. But I don’t have any money so I’ll have to ask my parents. I just don’t know. It like my head tells me I’m attracted to every single girl I see and I just don’t know what to believe. How do I even know I was even straight? As far as I’m concerned, I can’t rely on my past crushes as evidence. I’ve had 2 panic attacks today. I can’t anymore. I just need this to be over

It’s just my head tells me I’m attracted to very single girl i see. I feel nothing for guys now. I just want to forget, I just want to accept the uncertainty but it’s too hard. I get the phrases “what if I’m a lesbian” and “what if my parents don’t accept me” and “it constantly feels as if I’m lying to my love ones”

I slept 1.5 hours and woke up again because of anxiety. I can never catch a break. Not even while sleeping