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you’re not the only one!! for me, i haven’t experienced this but i have read about many people who have so it is your OCD!!!!! you are fine and if you were a lesbian you would know it and would not over think this much about it! It’s simply that ocd intrusive thought, calm down relax play some games on your phone, read a book etc. you got this!

Hmm but when i did go out i always looked at girls and i don't know why. but it was the boys whose attention i always wanted not the girls. And also fantasized about boys. bt then why is that i do always look at girls. Today it suddenly clicked my mind that i do look at girls but never fantasized. But there is one thing i know is that i always have the habit of comparing myself with others. May be that is the reason but i don't really know.

I have shared about the prob with my mom. But she said it's because from a few months i am not going out preparing at home for exams and that is why my mind is going in the wrong direction