Feeling horribly guilty

I wonder, if therapy will help me get rid of the guilt I feel... I'm not even sure, if what I did is only bad due to my OCD moral standards, or if normal people would freak out and feel guilty, too... I want to not feel guilty anymore... I again feel, that I committed the ultimate moral crime and have no right to live anymore, or not be/become happy anymore... And no, I'm not suicidal, I will not harm myself, I just feel horrible at the moment. 😔

Zoë_84

Date posted: 3y

OCD is such a horrible illness!!! I don't want to belittle other illnesses, but the guilt and fear is horrible and that the reason for feeling that bad is one's own mind is hard to bear... and it is chronic, so we can only learn to manage it, but it can always get worse again... arg

Zoë_84

Date posted: 3y

@LilyCup Well, I don't think, that someone who recovered will definitely relapse, but there is always the risk... and for me it is hard to start a relationship, when I never know, if a potential partner would stay with me through a relapse... but well, I have to recover first and I can't worry about a potential relapse now...

Zoë_84

Date posted: 3y

@LilyCup I can understand your decision, but I decided for myself, that I, as any other human being, deserve to be loved and I will not give up on it, even though I'm scared now. There might be a man out there, that loves me regardless and accepts me with my OCD.

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 3y

So often people with OCD are struggling with feelings of guilt and shame. OCD latches on to what people value and is egodystonic. When OCD flares up, people then feel guilt and shame associated with having these thoughts, feeling unable to complete things that they feel like they should be able to, the misunderstanding of what OCD is, etc. The list goes on and on. I have helped many people work through those feelings and improve their symptoms so that they feel as though they can have a meaningful life.

Zoë_84

Date posted: 3y

That's great, Shauna... I know, I suffer from OCD, but I still doubt it sometimes, as the urges and feelings feel so real... I will start therapy with nocd in Friday and I hope, that I will be as successful as many OCD sufferers, who shared their recovery stories on here.

Boss34

Date posted: 3y

The guilt is the worst… but temember, God knows we have a brain misfire but our hearts are true

Zoë_84

Date posted: 3y

I'm atheist, but good your faith helps you...

Boss34

Date posted: 3y

I don’t think it helps, just takes the edge off..

Boss34

Date posted: 3y

Shauna, I’m o e who KNOWS my thoughts and compulsions are not real, they are stupid, they come and go? Sone days very littke, they go rite away, some days they grab me and control me? They seem to attack the things I enjoy, the people I love and all the above, lol. Like I said, I know these thoughts or compulsions are NOT REAL, but the guilt I feel is????

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