panosm
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- 6y
josh54321josh54321
- Date posted
- 6y
I’m going through the same thing. Sometimes my brain even tells me “yeah but you know you’re gay. Just accept it and you’ll feel better.”. Our brains are so powerful. I think the hardest part is that by saying okay whatever brain, I can’t be certain, you think that you have to admit that you’re gay when in all reality, you just have to accept uncertainty and accept that you can’t be 100% sure of anything. It’s scary but we’ve got this!
panosmpanosm
- Date posted
- 6y
I'm afraid because it feels so real and something that i want to do...
panosmpanosm
- Date posted
- 6y
Yes but I'm afraid i don't have ocd if I just say ok fuck it I'm gay
josh54321josh54321
- Date posted
- 6y
Don’t say or accept that, accept that you cannot prove you’re not. Accept the uncertainty. That doesn’t mean you’re gay, that means the thought of being gay isn’t scary so your brain doesn’t have a reason to be bothered by that thought anymore
panosmpanosm
- Date posted
- 6y
Its all about groinal responses....
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
I’ve just flat out agreed with my brain and said “Okay I’m gay whatever” and my anxiety went away for brief seconds until I was like “I just know I’m not gay” and them boom, anxiety spiked back up. I’ve been working on trying to accept uncertainty but my brain is like “remember that day you agreed and said you were gay?, no uncertainty for you” it’s literally crazy. I’ve been women crazy all my life until this crap appeared in my life. I used to struggle with other subsets of ocd but nothing like hocd.
panosmpanosm
- Date posted
- 6y
Do you have the same symptoms as mine?
IannIann
- Date posted
- 6y
I sometimes get groinal responses and even sometimes when I speak to my coworkers I’ll be like “hey you didn’t freak out when talking to them” and then my brain goes “nah you are gay and you like them”
panosmpanosm
- Date posted
- 6y
So bad to heard that...i have an obsession with a co-worker to...im constantly looking at him without willing to do...
josh54321josh54321
- Date posted
- 6y
Just push through it. The more real it feels the more you just have to sit with that anxiety til it has no power. Easier said than done, I know.
panosmpanosm
- Date posted
- 6y
And what about groinal responses?
josh54321josh54321
- Date posted
- 6y
The premise of ocd is fear. So ensure that things no longer cause fear. Shrug it off, laugh about it, make fun of it.
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