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- 2y ago
Nothing ever helps.
CBT, DBT, ERP…. I still always feel terrible no matter what I try or do. I don’t know what to do… my life is destined to be miserable.
CBT, DBT, ERP…. I still always feel terrible no matter what I try or do. I don’t know what to do… my life is destined to be miserable.
I haven’t done therapy yet, I hope to try ERP, but a relationship with Jesus Christ is life changing. I struggle but knowing he’s with me etc. is huge, I wouldn’t be here without him.
ERP can help you controlling your symptoms, but you have to find the right therapist and do it for the right amount of time. I've never tried it still. Antidepressants are very useful controlling your symptoms too, in a less conscious way though, I've taken them for a year, and my R-OCD got really better. Then I started with a psychoanalytical therapy. Psychoanalysis can help you bringing to your conscious world the inner and strong motivations that are limiting you, activating your pathological circle of thinking. I've been in therapy since two years now, results are appearing and disappearing now, but it's a longer path and it requires a very good doctor and for at least 4-5 years (to get really really better). If you are too down now, just consider to start with antidepressant that will help you to restore your serenity, and then think about making an ERP therapy, and maybe a Psychoanalysis too for the long run. You are not the only one, and you can still have back what's missing.
I’ve been on medication forever. Truly nothing helps.
@Anonymous Tried all of those? There's always something that can help you. Find the right thing, the right person, the right place! And give you time
Don’t give up. There may be a different therapist, a different therapy technique, or a different medication that could help you. If you haven’t already I would check out Michael J. Greenburg’s website, as well as the OCD Recovery YouTube channel. I’m sorry things have been difficult for you and you haven’t seen any improvement. But don’t give up, just because you haven’t found what works for you, doesn’t mean you won’t ever find it and recover. A good OCD specialist, who you connect well with and is invested in your recovery can be key to seeing improvement. Keep pushing forward, no matter how unlikely you think it might be to see improvement. Just as in ERP you are taught you can never be certain something bad won’t happen, on the flip side you can never be certain a good outcome won’t happen either.
i don’t think i can, i can’t stomach the possibility of these things, or maybe i can (because they might be true and deep down i know that) and just don’t want to and want to pretend it isn’t there. i can’t do ERP, i just want to pretend it isnt there and won’t happen to clarify, i know i have to do ERP, i know it’s necessary; i don’t need to be told this, this is just how i am feeling currently
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
Everyday I wake up, all my mind makes me think of is the stuff I’ve done in the past, like all day I’m in a constant cycle of judging who I used to be and it hurts so so much. I wish I never thought to do those things, I wish I had been more mature than how I was before, it’s really lowering my self worth and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this miserable before, like last summer was the worst because I was dealing with this shit, I about almost ended my life over it, and I thought it would get better, which it did, but it didn’t last but for a while. As soon as it became 2025 I was going through it again, having constant cycles of “I’m a good person” to “I’m the worst person imaginable” and I’m so sick of it because I just want to feel like the good person l like to imagine myself to be, but I can’t because of shit I did in the past that I obsess over. I’ve cried and screamed so much over it and it seems like it will never leave me.
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