I feel so anxious and stuck right now. I have used up all my energy and im so tired of fighting everyday. It seems like no one understands the state of exhaustion im in. Battling with my mind everyday and trying to win a pointless fight. Everyone thinks im lazy but they dont see beneath the surface. Im so burned out and i feel like i cant escape myself. I feel guilty because i want to move out of my house and be independent. But there's no way i can possibly achieve that. I can barely brush my teeth or get out of bed. I feel so powerless and its making me panic. On top of that, i have a new major obsession. It started small but now its eating me alive. I'm just so tired of living like this. Its like im trapped in my own body. I want to live my life and do what i want but how can i do that when my own brain won't cooperate. Im also worried about climate change and the new abortion ban. I live in canada but i heard on the radio that they could ban abortion here too. I feel like the world is burning and we're all going to die. Its so frightening

You are not alone. I feel like the world is so evil too, after all that’s happened lately. My harm ocd is so bad right now and it feels like it’s my real thoughts. I have a lot of anxiety today. It feels like I’m no longer in touch with reality and I feel so scared. I hope you’re feeling better soon

You are not alone! Keep fighting as so am I.

I thought I wrote this for a second. I absolutely understand the exhaustion. The mental exhaustion is real. It's like you fight and fight and fight and it's still there. It doesn't go away. It's impenetrable. You try to function and your body just can't. I tried to buy toilet paper at the store and had a major meltdown when I got home. Like you said about brushing teeth, even things that should be simple become so complicated and it feels like no one gets it. You're not lazy, I'm willing to bet that you work hard all day trying to manage your compulsions. OCD is the worst boss anyone could ever have. Terrible hours, worse pay. Even still though, just don't give up. There is hope. It can get better. It can also get worse. But it won't stay the exact same way forever in my experience. Yesterday I was having a breakdown, but today I'm just a little uncomfortable in bed. In an hour I might have another breakdown, or maybe I'll manage to get some coffee without falling to pieces. There's no telling! Which sucks, but it is evidence that these feelings that you are feeling aren't permanent. You're not alone. Same boat, right here. I understand you. You're not lazy, you're exhausted because you are a super hard worker. OCD won't give you a moment of peace. That's not lazy at all. Just keep going. Going to therapy is a huge help. It feels impossible, but there are success stories out there. Besides, if you made it this far in your life with all of these horrible, awful feelings, like- you're super strong. I've felt this, you've felt this. This feels really, really bad. And yet you're still here. You made it through yesterday, you made it through last week, you made it through last year. You're here. You can get your OCD managed if you can endure hardship like that. Just don't stop Therapy. Oh, and I'm in the US and upset about the abortion stuff too. At least California will still allow us to have our rights. That is unlikely to change anytime soon and most of us in the US are pretty furious about the decision. So, hopefully things get back on track soon. If not we're all moving to blue states. Our bodies, our choice.

*I meant to say: California is unlikely to change that anytime soon. California is a safe haven. But many of us are furious about the Supreme Court's bad decision. Sorry I didn't mean to put that we were furious about California. California is doing great stuff lol