I keep getting harm intrusive thoughts in direct relation to feeling powerless. I don’t want to hurt anyone but I keep getting intrusive thoughts of killing people and I’m scared of what this means for me.
I understand I used to get a lot harm thoughts about hurting my mother in law when she was talking to me I knew it was ocd because I will never ever hurt any one I did erp and it cause me a lot anxiety I felt like I was doing the wrong thing like I was accepting I was a monster but with the time I kept doing this and now when I get this thoughts it don’t cause me distraction or anything now I do struggle with health ocd most of the time something with other type of ocd but I recover quickly from health ocd no quickly it take me so much time
@Amonymos’: Yes constant and recurrent I thought it was gonna be like that for ever erp don’t make it worse it just the symptoms and thoughts get stronger during the therapy but after that all too
@Amonymos’: After you overcome it all good no more suffering
@Amonymos’: Yes it can is part of OCD harm thoughts all normal you are scared because you are no that person if you was one you won’t be scared of it
@Amonymos’: I know you will be okay I went though the exact same you won’t be that person because you are no you just have ocd which it su*ck honestly sadly ocd use anything with care about to attack us with this fears
@Amonymos’: Yes it can make you feel that ocd will do anything for you to really believe that you are a bad person I know is hard but is just ocd I never experienced false memories with harm things but I did with contamination ocd and I understand what it is to overcome this you have to do erp same for the thoughts I overcome came harm by accepting my thoughts no fighting with it no agreeing with it no looking for reassurance or asking for reassurance yes it was very scary yes I have urges and bad thoughts and I thought I was going crazy is the worse but I sit with all the uncertainty which it was so hard because I wanted to know for sure if I was a bad person or no if one day I was gonna loose control or no but to overcome this I choose uncertainty rather than knowing all the stuff I wanted to know and because I choose uncertainty I overcome this theme I do still suffer with health contamination relationship and other theme of ocd but no harm at all
@Amonymos’: Doubling if you have ocd is also part of ocd I doubled too what if no ocd what if something else ? That’s ocd you definitely have ocd mine started at early age too I was 6 mine started with health ocd and then later on In live I started experiencing more themes I used have those thoughts like what if I slept walk left the house and did something ? and the anxiety was so bad but I had to sit the uncertainty maybe I did maybe no I don’t know ocd will never be satisfied
@Amonymos’: Even thought I never slept walk before no one ever said anything about this
@Amonymos’: When you get harms thoughts I know you want to look for some relief because of the anxiety and fear that ocd bring but please just sit with the anxiety fear and feeling sit with the urges of wanting to know and make sure and fix stuff do this all the times some days gonna relapse but is okay just continue to do this and you will overcome this I promise
@Amonymos’: That’s OCD cycle you need to break it ocd will Always find something more thoughts more “evidence “ the more you analyze the thoughts the more they seem real when they are no because you are ruminating about it for example I struggle with health OCD I get thoughts that I will have a heart attack if I google how to avoid a heart attack or confess to someone that I m scared to have a heart attack these are compulsions this will only give me more anxiety more thoughts and it will fuel my ocd if I keep doing that I will no recover the way to recover is accepting this thoughts without doing the compulsions is very important no to do compulsions
@Amonymos’: Don’t look on fb no more no setting alarm no more You will get a lot anxiety by no doing this because you are teaching your brain there’s no real danger I did erp if you ignore it is basically like fighting with it is best to accept the thought even though they give you anxiety I never want to accept my thoughts because I thought it I accept it then it will happen for sure and plus I hate the feeling of the anxiety but I had to go through all the pain of accepting them and the physical symptoms to overcome it
@Amonymos’: you see how ocd make us think a theme is more important than than the other one I used to think harm was so important very important to me and now it mean nothing to me at all but I do tho k health is so important super important ocd use anything we care about or that we think is important harm is no real is just ocd telling you that just like me with health with help of a therapist you can start erp little by little I understand a therapist can help you with stopping the alarm and other compulsions it take time it have to be reduce little by little I completely understand I want to feel safe that time as well I used to get thoughts like what if I will become schizophrenia someone told me you don’t need to know and I was like what but I can’t live with this fear of no knowing and that’s what was keeping me stuck once I accept that I will never have 100 certainly not things I got better that’s no true I did erp my self because I can’t afford therapy and I m good with that theme all you have to do is stop doing compulsions little by little don’t cut them all at once because the anxiety will be too high
@Amonymos’: I have some books that help me getting started I follow the instructions I know you can’t cut them all at once for example if you do 10 compulsions at day try to start doing 9 then 8 and that’s how it goes. Depending on on how much you can tolerate the anxiety maybe medication can make it easier I never been on medication it was really hard ocd therapist are super expensive I can’t afford it I have a lot good books that I read and helped me out a lot and there’s no a lot therapist that understand ocd in my eyes yes health ocd ruin my life every day I don’t go to the doctors I just get a lot health related thoughts and get scared of it and my compulsions are I tried to ruminate “fixing the thoughts but I stop doing this every time I realize what I m doing and when I get bad symptoms I also get scared but I m just accepting them like ok whatever if I 💀 I did that’s it so I don’t get trapped in the cycle I really hope I can overcome this ugh is like impossible I move on from every other theme I had so many in the past I only ended up with health relationship and perfectionism
@Amonymos’: I have fews book but the one that help me the most was overcoming obsessive thoughts by christine purdon I bought it on Amazon this book help with any theme of ocd because is the same therapy for any theme yes with harm it switch I used to have thoughts about my family and friends and stranger sometimes that’s because ocd just keep moving to find other things to obsess about for example if you used to worry about doing something bad to your pet then it will move on to stranger or friends it just keep doing this to keep you stuck you have to do the same respond to every thought yes that’s the best thing to do I don’t know why I m so scared of 💀like it will happen one day to all of us but the fear of it is so scary that I developed health anxiety and can’t overcome it I will try that definitely did you have health anxiety for long time I have it since a kid
@Amonymos’: Yes
@Amonymos’: Health ocd
@Amonymos’: I didn’t know I had ocd until 2014 I went to a therapist and they also had a psychiatrist in the office I talked to the psychiatrist about my symptoms that started when I was younger she said I had ocd on that time I didn’t had harm theme yet just health and worrying about if I don’t do something right something could’ve happened to my family my harm started 2016 I believe back and forth and then came back 2022 that’s when I did erp myself haven’t had it since 2022 I do get some harm thoughts here and there but I don’t get affect by it no anxiety or fear
@Amonymos’: Honestly ocd will trick you to believe anything ocd want and of course you don’t want to do it that’s why you are terrified
I have this issue where I can vividly imagine hurting others or animals or say things OUTLOUD that may be disruptive or disrespectful becauss I am overstimulated by soemthing someone is doing or saying. So, Over stimulation with people and animals and things they do can be a big part of it, Sometimes I will see soemthing that bothers me about someone and I just want to either fix it or hit them because they make me so overstimulated I just want to hit the problem. I never act on these things obviously but SOMETIMES it leaks out and I hit my hands together to calm the urges. I really don’t like imagining hurting others but when I get mad I obsess over what I would or could do to them or might or would’ve in a situation in the past, had it planned out differently. I keep thinking about it and thinking about it and then get upset with myself because I know it’s wrong to be thinking about hurting others and it worries me I may someday act on something impulsive and harm someone. Sometimes I cry about it because I never want to hurt people. Really I don’t. Most of these thoughts happen in milliseconds and I have a second part in my brain like a THOUGHT processor/auto corrective thinking reminding me I can’t do that because it’s morally wrong and I am too good of a person to do that and there is nothing to stress over.
does anyone else get really vivid intrusive thoughts of the person who you are talking to (or close to physically) just randomly striking you violently? i keep getting them when i’m just talking to my dad one on one in the car & i get a flash of intrusive thoughts of him grabbing my hair & shoving my face in the dashboard. it gets me so anxious :’)
Does anyone else get super scared of feelings of adrenaline while you have intrusive thoughts? Like it feels like it’s trying to take over your body and those feelings of anger are trying to collide and dictate what ur body does? Now you feel impulsive and on edge and you feel like you are acting on your thoughts? Like I get thoughts about hurting family and I get super scared when I get feelings of anger about them and I feel that adrenaline! It’s all intrusive and I don’t like anything of it
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