I’m feeling suicidal because of how lightly the conversation is taken when it comes to skinny and flat chest shaming. People usually talk over me or get mad when i bring it up because it’s not the popular topic. I’m not allowed to be in agony the same way people with other body types are. My childhood bullies thought this way, and now the rest of the world does too.
I’ve been skinny shamed a lot. It’s equally as hurtful. Know you aren’t alone. Taking your life is never the answer. The world needs you here. If you are just having intrusive thoughts about suicide, that’s one thing, but if these are feelings that you are planning to act on, please tell a trusted friend or adult asap. You aren’t alone in the struggle and you CAN get through it just like the times you have gotten through it before. No one on here is here to bully you. This IS a safe space. We all understand. Sending you love. You are beautiful the way you are. Remember there is always someone out there who would do anything to be you. There is only one YOU and that actually is your superpower. Bullying usually stems from jealousy. Other people do it to feel better about something broken inside of them, it has nothing to do with you. There is nothing wrong with you or your body 💝
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Hi! I've never been skinny but I'm not plus size, I'm medium size and I also feel horrible about my body, I think it's not our fault, we are told all day we are not good, we hear we need to be skinnier or have bigger boobs or have a bigger ass (or less) we have been taught we are not fine the way we are, that we need to look a certain way in order to be happy or valid But that is not true, as long a your body lets you pursue your goals and dreams (like travel, work, have a family etc) it is fine 💖 I wish I could be body positive but I can't, I can't believe my body is beautiful BUT I like body neutrality, it doesn't matter if we are "beautiful" (subjective), what matters is that our body allows us to exist :)
I was skinny shamed when I was a kid. Usually when people shame you it tells more about their own self image issues then it does about you.
Self harm and suicide trigger warning - - - - So I did it again. I don't really feel anything. As I hurt myself I put myself down "I'm only doing this for attention" as I proceed to keep it to myself. I can't get over the shame and the guilt. I need serious help. I hate myself the most for having bodily responses to the intrusions. It if were just thoughts and images then maybe I would have reached out for help. But I'm in too deep. The moment I would mention "feelings of arousal" most people will take this as confirmation that I'm a pedophile despite me never having had these thoughts before. I am passively suicidal. I wish something would kill me. A heart attack, a car accident, cancer, anything. I am so tired.
TW rant: suicidal OCD So this has been my major theme for the past year since my onset started. For clarification: I just have suicidal OCD, I’m not actually suicidal Incase there’s confusion about that. Anyways, I am so SICK of hearing about the topic of suicide which seems to be everywhere. You hear a story on the news that some celebrity did it, or other stories that people they knew did it or they themselves attempted it. You hear that people with mental illnesses or those who went through trauma or just being a middle aged white man have higher risks of suicide. On my explore page on Instagram, thanks to the OCD support pages I follow, I get suggested posts about other mental health related things and there’s usually posts about “signs of suicidal people” or whatnot. I’m soooo sick of it. Having suicidal OCD has been extremely hard and scary to have. It seems like anything is a trigger and the unwanted thoughts of it keep popping up (as OCD normally does). A lot of the time it’s aimed toward myself, but a big chunk of it is aimed toward my loved ones, like what if they decided to commit suicide? If I haven’t seen a family member in a little while (they’re chilling in their room or whatever) I get scared they might have killed themselves so I feel the compulsion to check on them, ask if they’re okay and happy etc. But it’s mostly at myself and I hate it so much. I think overall, whether this attack is aimed toward myself or others, it just absolutely terrifies me that anyone could just decided to do it and then just do it? It’s not like fearing a murderer coming to your house or an outside threat, but you’re the threat! And you can’t seem to protect your loved ones from it! I get these fears that I’ll become depressed (I’m not depressed) and eventually desire it or that I’ll spiral from fear and pain and eventually desire it, or that it’ll be like the movie Bird Box where the people in it (after seeing the monster) seemed to go on autopilot and killed themselves. I can’t even see words like “committed” or “attempted” without having my stomach jump. I struggle to get things out of my closet since having an open closet is even a trigger for fear. I just wish suicide never existed, I wish it wasn’t a thing, I wish I’d never think about it, I wish i could move on from this intense fear. (Disclaimer: I’m doing ERP for this and compared to before have been progress, but on my spike days it’s just so frustrating) Thanks for listening 😩
Cw- SI, S/H references I try so hard just to let the thoughts be there and not bother me but they just keep coming back over and over, I don’t trust myself anymore I feel like an evil person and I just want to kill myself I’m so scared that I’m actually what my thoughts say I am, if I am then I will have to kill myself, it feels like a stain on my soul It’s gotten to the point where I’m considering mutilating parts of my body just so I can’t feel anything in those parts or ever use them again I can’t find any relief anywhere, I haven’t felt sure of myself in months, people always tell me it’s okay that I have these thoughts because I don’t want to act on them but my brain keeps saying I do and I would rather kill myself And I’m just so sick of the people saying to accept the uncertainty, I don’t want to have to carry this for the rest of my life I wish I could have literally any other subtype, which I know is selfish of me because everyone else here is suffering too but the stigma and the shame around this one actually sucks the joy out of everything I do
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