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- 6y
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- 6y
You kissed a boy and you didn't like it. That doesn't mean you dislike every boy outhere. Your rumination makes you get into unreal conclusions.
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- 6y
You are attracted to bodies. And shapes. Or figures. If you fell in love with someone I think that is pretty different. If you like "fictional men" you still like men bodies, you enjoy watching men bodies. If you were 6 years with the same person that is just not attaction, that is love. That means you probably love hin. First stop googling because is only going to hurt you more. And stop generalizing everything, that is common in ocd. You are you. And what you feel is only yours, and what you believe is only yours. If other people have other theories about sexuality or whatever, other perspectives, is their fucking problem. In hocd we have a malfunction in our brains. We had a trauma first and then to make stop the anxiety, that came with it, we create compulsions. And when you repeat the compulsions over and over til no end, your brain adequate to make you feel fear every time the theme is in front of your eyes. The doubts are out and desperation comes to your door. We also are not ready to understand that you can be straight(or whatever sexuality) and be attracted to sexual things, great bodies or just see someone atractive and think: wow how attractive. And just that, is just a thought. It doesn't have meaning above that. It doesn't mean your life is going to change forever. All because of the disorder. What you did in the past, is in the past. So don't get into conclusions so extreme. Who you want to be now? What do you feel you need to concentrate now?
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- 6y
Yes i know! I don't think i have any or i don't know if any of my friend belongs to the lgbt community. I just don't know why but now i wish i could have a friend who's a lesbian. it gave me a sense of relief. It would be so much easier for me to share all that i am going through with her.
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- 6y
No it doesn't mean i don't like him. I was there with him for 6 years. We would never have broken up had it not been for family issues. We even decided to get back together after our career is all settled. I don't know if i disliked it but i did not feel anything. I still blush when i talk about it with my best friend but why did i not feel anything while doing it
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- 6y
Today on the internet i read about compulsory heterosexuality. I felt as if i am the same case. It said "attraction to fictional men is not the same as attraction to real men" And " Wanting a man to be attracted to you is not the same as being attracted to them" I do wanted boy's attention but i don't think i was attracted to them and i do have a few girl crushes in the past. But then when i think about it, if i was really a lesbian why would i even be with the guy for 6 years while wanting to continue the relationship if i was not attracted to him or why would i only fantasize about men. Even if i had girl crushes i never fantasized about them. Heck now i don't even know what attraction would feel like. I searched on the internet on the signs if attraction. All these are mentally exhausting. It really feels like i was never attracted to boys and only wanted their attention and nothing else and all i was attracted to were girls
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- 6y
Truly speaking. The only thing that i am interested in now is building up my career and getting rid of my insecurities that i have regarding my looks.i just want to stay away from everything including any kind of attraction. I have a very little confidence in me. Even if i am good in something i still think myself to be inferior to other people around me. For now i really only want to concentrate on building up my overall personality and nothing else.
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- 6y
I really don't want to care who am i attracted to. I don't know if i should share this or not but my dream is to become a big youtuber. But just the fact that i have noticed that youtubers often get asked about their sexualities and they have to meet up with new people including both boys and girls is making me feel uneasy!
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- 6y
Then focus on that. Becausr that is really important to you. No matter what.
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- 6y
Yeah i will. I just need to get rid of the thoughts. I sometimes think that if i kiss a guy i will feel void and that i won't feel anything but then i think of it with a girl and it feels like i will like it and it will be engaging and not void and it somewhat scares me. Now i really need to stop these thoughts and concentrate on what's important. Thankyou
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- 23w
Sort of a rant that probably sounds stupid and I’m kind of seeking reassurance… I’m still a relatively young teenager so I know I’ve got time to work all this out but I’m really confused about my sexuality. (I’m a girl) I’ve never been in a relationship (I don’t know if I want to be which is why I’m writing this) and sometimes I feel like I’ve never really had a crush and I just convinced myself that I did because I wanted to feel normal… but then maybe that’s false memory ocd??? I don’t really want to be in a long term relationship with a guy and idk about girls but idk if that’s just cos of my age??? Some days I hate the idea of ever dating, marrying or doing anything sexual. Other days I wish my mental / physical health was better so I could date someone! Everything I feel goes up and down a lot and idk why!? I have bad sexual intrusive thoughts that make me unsure whether anything that I think is real and my parents recently split up after not getting along for a few years. I don’t know if it’s my age, my ocd, my parents bad relationship, my sexuality (am I attracted to guys, girls? Am I ace!!!!???) Or something else but I have no idea who I am and I KNOW I’m young and have time but some other perspectives might help???? Can I ever be in a relationship if I have ocd like this? Also I’m really struggling not to compulsively seek reassurance and I don’t know who to talk to about all this irl I know I probably shouldn’t share this with random strangers but also idek if I care anymore 😭
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- 15w
Hi everyone, I’ve been really anxious lately, and I just need to get this out of my head. Someone recently told me that maybe I’m bisexual — that I might be more sexually attracted to women, but more romantically attracted to men. That bisexuality is not 50/50. And ever since I heard that, I’ve been spiraling. The thing is: I don’t want this to be true. It scares me. I don’t feel romantic attraction to women, I’ve never wanted to be in a relationship with one. But yes, I get aroused by fantasies involving women — and that makes me feel broken or like I’ve been lying to myself. I love my boyfriend deeply, I don’t want to lose him. I want to feel fully connected to him, physically and emotionally. But now I’m stuck in this obsessive loop of questioning: “What if I’m just in denial?” “What if I’m not really straight?” “What if this is why my libido is low?” It’s exhausting, and I don’t know if this is OCD, anxiety, or if something is fundamentally wrong. Has anyone else felt this split — romantic feelings for one gender, sexual feelings for another? I feel so alone and scared. Thanks for listening.
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- 10w
So I’ve been recovering from my obsession from my sexuality bc I am attracted to men 100% but when I was a child, a cousin I was really close to had me do things to her and ever since then my perspective on things have changed. After that experience I would sit in corners and watch girls kissing and when i got older and learned what pornography was, I would watch girls to learn how to pleasure myself and I would hide and watch women on women in the same room where I was sa’d in. When I became a teen I started learning about wattpad and teen stories and i got so into men and dating in the books and I ended up forgetting about all of those things that changed me. I never thought about any of the girl things till a old friend brought it up and said I should explore but it really makes me uncomfortable to do something like that because it doesn’t feel right and it makes me feel sick to my stomach to be with women or even talk to one that way bc I’ve never perceived women in that way. I’ve always fangirled over men and male celebrities and I have my favorite singers like Sabrina carpenter but I’ve never thought about her in that light nor have I done any other women. I even read this document called am I a lesbian and it’s very good and it helped me realize that I am straight and it definitely took a bit of weight off my shoulders but then I saw a video of a therapist saying how being sa’d doesn’t change your sexuality and so I looked up how did people know or what clues did they have to know if they were bi and a lot of people usually know from a young age as young as elementary and having crushes on women and men but i never thought about women in general even tho I watched porn on it. I simply did it because it was really all I knew and I guess it was familiar to me?? now my new obsession is what does this mean for me ? And how do I know if im attracted to a women? I’ve never had a crush on one before. I never even thought about any of this until my friend tried to convince me to explore and it all just sparked from there. Ever since that day I’ve been avoidant of women and giving them genuine compliments like I used to. Everything all of a sudden seems inappropriate or gay to do. I get anxious and my lower body part starts to ache (groin) and it keeps making me wonder if that is attraction or fear or am I uncomfortable? But when im around a man I clearly find attractive or a male celebrity I find hot, or if I have a crush/relationship with a guy, I start smiling and trying to act all pretty and squealing like a kid who just got the best Christmas gift and I know that I clearly want to bone him. And my biggest dream is to be a mother. I want to get married to a man who will be the love of my life and have a happy family and I just personally never seen myself doing that with a woman and i can’t even imagine myself doing so. I know that probably seems cliche and I know this probably is a lot but what does it mean ? Am I just in denial or is it something more ?
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