I want to talk to someone with real event OCD.

Hi thankyou so much for replying, means a lot. I’m struggling a lot with shame regarding my real event. I have tried to stop trying to figure out whether I am a bad person for this event in particular. But the shame is making it VERY hard for me to move forward. Since the app is anonymous I don’t mind sharing my real event. My real event OCD was triggered by my act of watching a celebrity sex video on a pornsite and it was titled ‘leaked’. I feel guilty for clicking on it despite the title saying that. I don’t know if it was actually leaked, but I researched whether it was or not All I could find was the celeb couple claiming that it’s not them in the video. Which helped, but I think they just said that to avoid controversy. I felt ashamed because I felt like I did something terrible by watching something that may or may not have been leaked. It felt equivalent to committing a crime even though I know that’s OCD blowing things way out of proportion. I haven’t watched porn since and I really don’t intend to ever watch it again. I find porn far too triggering. Do you have any insight on how I can better deal with this :(

@InkJoy123 It’s massively scary for me to type stuff out honestly so I feel like I’m facing a fear in a way of typing it out. Sorry if it’s too much info :(

@InkJoy123 Hey I’m sorry, no reply makes me feels like my real event it very terrible. :(

@Worry24 nononono you are not terrible, i was just typing it out :)

@InkJoy123 Thankyou for you’re response, and making me feel not alone. ❤️ I also grew up with porn sadly. I think I found it when I was 13, I am now 24. Tbh this real event was very recent, like only 5 days ago but I’m never watching porn again. I stopped before for 1.5 years, I was very happy at that point in my life. I want to be happy again. I wish I never started watching it again but I won’t be anymore.

@InkJoy123 I’m also female so it’s hard to talk sometimes, people think only men watch porn or can have addictions to porn. I don’t think I had a very serious addiction, but I definitely had a habit of visiting porn sites regularly. I won’t be doing that anymore because it’s too triggering and I don’t like how it makes me feel.