Lukej91
- Date posted
- 3y
Blinking ocd?
I had the fear if I blink at someone twice that they would die, so I use to blink at people once or three times. Is this ocd? I did this after watching a movie
InkJoy123InkJoy123
- Date posted
- 3y
Yes its ocd ! Its giving you a fear of what could happen (even though it won't) if you don't do the compulsion. You can blink normally and nothing will happen trust me !!! Its just your mind getting to you to believe that it may happen if you don't do it :) Even though again it won't ! Ssslloowwlllyyyy stop doing the compulsion not all at once unless you can, and you can hopefully see it was just all ocd :)
Lukej91Lukej91
- Date posted
- 3y
Ohhh I had this when I was younger. The reason I ask this is I'm scared I like my hocd thoughts and it's like I'm doubting I have ocd.
InkJoy123InkJoy123
- Date posted
- 3y
@Lukej91 classic ocd !!! if you don't like those thoughts, you don't !!!! dont let your mind get to you :) <3 you got thid
Beebee7Beebee7
- Date posted
- 3y
So ocd is basically trying to get us to believe a lie? …. I’m asking this because I think we all know no one will die… but our ocd try’s to convince us…. I’m just finishing out about ocd, so reading this is interesting.
InkJoy123InkJoy123
- Date posted
- 3y
yes ! many compulsions do this ! some people may have to close the door a certain amount of the times, if not their mother will die. Thats a scenario that could happen with someone who has ocd. Not all ocd is the same though but its all linked to one thing: OCD ! Your blinking one is actually what people usually think about when you bring up OCD. What they don't know is that OCD is MANY things and just like us rn, we are suffering from intrusive thoughts ! Yours would be your HOCD ! Hang in there <3
Lukej91Lukej91
- Date posted
- 3y
@InkJoy123 It's so frustrating I literally can be like before Feb 22 I had no issues and this has turned my life upside down
InkJoy123InkJoy123
- Date posted
- 3y
@Lukej91 oh i have said that SOOOO many times, me in July 2016, me in November 2016, and me in May 2022. These were the major OCD changes in my life. Not to scare you !!! I just never got proper care and teachings during childhood HAHAHAHA so I couldn't receive or talk about any of this. But trust me for you I know you'll get better :) Your already on this forum, thats better than what I did before !!! Keep pushing <3
Lukej91Lukej91
- Date posted
- 3y
@InkJoy123 Did you ever feel like you're faking compulsions to prove you're not gay
InkJoy123InkJoy123
- Date posted
- 3y
@Lukej91 i did not suffer from hocd ! but you can say pocd is pretty similar ! just different people BAHAHAHA could you describe faking compulsions ?
Lukej91Lukej91
- Date posted
- 3y
@InkJoy123 Like when the thought feels real and you want it , you do compulsions to make sure it's not real, like
InkJoy123InkJoy123
- Date posted
- 3y
@Lukej91 Hmm still need a bit of context, like if the thought feels as if I wanted the thought and it was real, I did a compulsion to prove that its not me ? Could you describe the compulsion ?
Lukej91Lukej91
- Date posted
- 3y
@InkJoy123 It's hard to explain... It's like am I just doing the compulsion to lie about this being ocd
Lukej91Lukej91
- Date posted
- 3y
@InkJoy123 Like I'm scared of doing ERP to find out I'm not straight
Lukej91Lukej91
- Date posted
- 3y
@InkJoy123 And would rather research on my phone all day and not face the realness of the thoughts
InkJoy123InkJoy123
- Date posted
- 3y
@Lukej91 OOOOHHHH no I have did not do that but thats because when I had POCD, I had no help at all. I was alone with my thoughts. But I understand why you would want to do that. You are trying to prove, which is an compulsion. Trust me your therapist will help you along the way with your OCD. Honestly finding the right therapist for our kinds of OCD is a bit tough, but just know people here understand what you are going through. Do not fake the compulsions even though faking the compulsions is still showing that you are trying not to believe the intrusive thought even though its just intrusive thoughts ! If its constantly plagueing you with you not wanting them, I can swear to you thats not a normal healthy mind haha. If they seem real and you experience no anxiety, thats what many of us faced too ! Its not you !! Its OCD !! Hope this helps a bit !! <3
Lukej91Lukej91
- Date posted
- 3y
@InkJoy123 Thanks man I think I'm experiencing a backdoor spike
Beebee7Beebee7
- Date posted
- 3y
*finding out about ocd not finishing…
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- Date posted
- 22w
Is this even OCD?
Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
Anonymoususe...
- Date posted
- 18w
Meta ocd prayer through magical thinking
This is really complicated but it isn’t just intrusive thoughts, however I didn’t directly do the prayer. I’ll do my best to explain. I’ve been having an obsession over prayers. There have been a few bad prayers I’ve almost done and meant that are not good. A week and a half ago, I was feeling desperate and I had the genuine urge to pray for my parents to die in a way which somehow wasn’t my fault (I couldn’t be morally responsible for the prayer was another condition too), because if I attempted suicide, it would devastate them. Thankfully, I stopped myself, but that mindset stuck. If I was worried about it, it could actually put me back in that mindset where I wanted to pray for it. I know this sounds crazy. So it followed me around sometimes. OCD has found loopholes to actually doing the prayer. I have prayed to pray for certain things, meaning I am indirectly praying for it. This was sort of like that, except my mind designated that blinking while thinking of it a certain way would be a prayer. To me, this actually meant it was a prayer because of magical thinking. I ended up blinking while thinking of this, and I did regret it right after, but in that moment, I meant it. I essentially blinked during that moment to magically agree with and do the prayer. And to me, it was doing the prayer. I meant it while doing this too, but didn’t care afterwards. To me, stepping back, it does feel different than directly doing the prayer. This probably doesn’t make much sense
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