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I accept it too lol
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I suffered with POCD at 16 and later realized I didn’t find kids attractive, I just had so much love for kids in the most empathic way. To me I just tell myself I confused my love of kids for ‘love’ of kids. I can look at a kid and be honest with myself. I don’t find them attractive but I can tell if they’re cute or ugly, that’s an instinctive thought for me. Sometimes the terrible thoughts kick in but I know I’d never enjoy it or act on it and the thought drifts off. Now I love spending time with kids more than ever and, I thought I’d never be able to have kids one day and even contemplated suicide because of the thoughts. Everyone says I’m really good with kids and that’s how I look at it. I don’t confuse the two anymore, I just love their pureness and how easily I can get along with them. With POCD remember it’s normal to think that way, but also remember that you’re not going to act on it. You just can’t help it. Now when I see a kid my heart just grows and I become so playful. Also having multiple girlfriends after the thoughts helped me solidify my sexuality even though I didn’t really need it. You got this, let it turn into something great. Bitter then sweet as they say.
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Its not our fault
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Its horrible pocd
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i think its the worst ocd tbh
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It’s shit and the hardest ocd to deal with but stay strong don’t fight the thoughts as they will increase, let them be and they get easier. I have good days good weeks good months, then 1 thing I see or hear then it triggers it off, believe me good days out weigh the bad. At Xmas n new year - Feb I couldn’t move or go anywhere, now I lead a good life with the odd shit days ?
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Sure is bagman! What you said about the good days outweighing the bad days is so true! It does get better as you have said. ERP for POCD is quite difficult as if a kid is good looking then they are good looking no matter how many times you look at different pics etc and do the erp for it, it's not going to change what you think! I take it that you just let the thoughts be there as well?
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Nope not at all☹️! Godfirst, what are your struggles if you don't mind me asking?
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Like everything tbh guys, kids.
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Like if i look at a younger person the wrong way or think about a younger person or something like that i will have major guilt and doubt
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And keep thinking and thinking
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Ah right did you have a porn habit by any chance as this does not help it lol
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I usually pray for help it works alot but its very challenging sometimes i tryied organic medication some of it works however its just nit me on some of the meds
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It made me sleepy and numb
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That's not good then! I used to do the praying an awful lot when I was younger and to an extent it felt as though it 5work7ng, but now it doesn't do anything for me! I started feeling guilty about fancying a 14 year old for example and then the age just got lower and lower (nothing sexual just find them good looking) I cannot see if this makes me a monster or just a normal human being who is being too truthfull!
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How old r u?
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26
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21
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Cool
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Sure is! Have you tried erp therapy?
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No i havent whats that?
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Exposure response prevention therapy. It is basically exposing yourself to looking at a little girl for example and then you are meant to sit with the anxiety and it is meant to get lower the more you do it! I am currently doing acceptance therapy which is just accepting the uncertainty of what I have and to be honest that seems to work best for me as at the end of the day it's something that you cannot change! But you can chose to accept that they are only thoughts!
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I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
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Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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