Fuck POCD Don't let it get you down! The way I now see it is some kids are better looking than others! Got to the point now whether I don't care if I'm a pedo in denile. I didn't chose this! Anyone else the same?

I accept it too lol

I suffered with POCD at 16 and later realized I didn’t find kids attractive, I just had so much love for kids in the most empathic way. To me I just tell myself I confused my love of kids for ‘love’ of kids. I can look at a kid and be honest with myself. I don’t find them attractive but I can tell if they’re cute or ugly, that’s an instinctive thought for me. Sometimes the terrible thoughts kick in but I know I’d never enjoy it or act on it and the thought drifts off. Now I love spending time with kids more than ever and, I thought I’d never be able to have kids one day and even contemplated suicide because of the thoughts. Everyone says I’m really good with kids and that’s how I look at it. I don’t confuse the two anymore, I just love their pureness and how easily I can get along with them. With POCD remember it’s normal to think that way, but also remember that you’re not going to act on it. You just can’t help it. Now when I see a kid my heart just grows and I become so playful. Also having multiple girlfriends after the thoughts helped me solidify my sexuality even though I didn’t really need it. You got this, let it turn into something great. Bitter then sweet as they say.

Its not our fault

Its horrible pocd

i think its the worst ocd tbh

It’s shit and the hardest ocd to deal with but stay strong don’t fight the thoughts as they will increase, let them be and they get easier. I have good days good weeks good months, then 1 thing I see or hear then it triggers it off, believe me good days out weigh the bad. At Xmas n new year - Feb I couldn’t move or go anywhere, now I lead a good life with the odd shit days ?

Sure is bagman! What you said about the good days outweighing the bad days is so true! It does get better as you have said. ERP for POCD is quite difficult as if a kid is good looking then they are good looking no matter how many times you look at different pics etc and do the erp for it, it's not going to change what you think! I take it that you just let the thoughts be there as well?

Nope not at all☹️! Godfirst, what are your struggles if you don't mind me asking?

Like everything tbh guys, kids.

Like if i look at a younger person the wrong way or think about a younger person or something like that i will have major guilt and doubt

And keep thinking and thinking

Ah right did you have a porn habit by any chance as this does not help it lol

I usually pray for help it works alot but its very challenging sometimes i tryied organic medication some of it works however its just nit me on some of the meds

It made me sleepy and numb

That's not good then! I used to do the praying an awful lot when I was younger and to an extent it felt as though it 5work7ng, but now it doesn't do anything for me! I started feeling guilty about fancying a 14 year old for example and then the age just got lower and lower (nothing sexual just find them good looking) I cannot see if this makes me a monster or just a normal human being who is being too truthfull!

How old r u?

26

21

Cool

Sure is! Have you tried erp therapy?

No i havent whats that?

Exposure response prevention therapy. It is basically exposing yourself to looking at a little girl for example and then you are meant to sit with the anxiety and it is meant to get lower the more you do it! I am currently doing acceptance therapy which is just accepting the uncertainty of what I have and to be honest that seems to work best for me as at the end of the day it's something that you cannot change! But you can chose to accept that they are only thoughts!