does anyone have separation anxiety as well? it often makes me feel guilty for leaving my sister or my mum etc alone in the house in case something bad happens to them and then i would blame myself for not being there to save them. any suggestions would really help?

I'm really scared and alone and I don't know how much I can handle! Briefly I lost my whole family and got abandoned too, and the adopted family I currently live with we are having conflicts with each other because they want to control everything about my life friends clothes times of sleep food drinks everything!! I have OCD very bad intrusive thoughts and they don't help at all but at least i have a place to sleep in and food and they aren't that bad after all and thank god they saved me but They are very much dependent on me on everything at home, and the mom treat me like garbage sorry for the word but these days it's been so bad we had alot of fights and i feel like she will abandon me too soon, I know I should have left them earlier but I don't have any where else to go and I don't have the courage to be whole alone!!! I'm crashing I'm terrified and many senarios are on my head and it feels like I'm living in a nightmare, should I obey her? But my life and my mental health would be much more bad, or leave them and face the world alone??? Please tell me anything I want to have hope that everything is going to be okay..

I can’t help but feel so anxious because of guilt. I feel guilty about not sharing everything about my OCD to my partner, but because I understand that confession itself is a compulsion and would not help anyone. I feel so anxious too that if all my fears come true and she finds out, then it would be so devastating for everyone especially her. Does anyone feel the same thing? How could I change my perspective on this?

I don't know if this is exactly a compulsion, but for a few months I had this mindset of "I have to be anxious so that nothing bad will happen." It was mostly when I went out in any way. Sometimes it was for other people too. For example if my mom went to the store/to get food without me. This was mostly during the time when I had been staying inside constantly for a little over a month. Idk if it was an exact cause but I had seen someone who FOLLOWED me last year, hence why I was staying inside. I guess I just want to know if this is common? I know that the whole "if I do this, then this won't happen" thing is common in ocd, but idk how common it is to somewhat force yourself to be anxious.