does anyone have separation anxiety as well? it often makes me feel guilty for leaving my sister or my mum etc alone in the house in case something bad happens to them and then i would blame myself for not being there to save them. any suggestions would really help?

I believe I have undiagnosed OCD but was wondering if anyone else goes through this struggle. I constantly think of ways my loved ones might die. Whether that be from an event happening or a situation I am in with them and I am afraid to leave them in fear that they will die and I will be left alone. For example, I could be indoors with my family and they all go outside without me. I immediately imagine a tornado coming up, knocking over a tree and killing my family with me left to survive. Or I think of certain scenarios where a disease (especially with Covid-19 going around) could infect a loved one and my mind creates vivid images of how they could die of the disease. Does anyone else experience this? How do you cope?

at my job my director sent 2 little girls to her room because they were disruptive and I went back into my classroom. Then I had to remove another child from my classroom and as I was seating this child one of the girls walked out the front door of the building and I saw her get out but no other teacher was in my room so all the other children were alone so I went back in. But my director was the one who took them to her room so she said its her fault but I feel awful about the fact that I did not say anything, the child is completely fine. Nothing happened she is ok but I was also thinking about the other kids being alone. Idk if this makes sense but im having a lot of internal anxiety and guilt about it and its making me feel terrible about myself. I'm worried I am going to revert back to how I was when my ocd was first diagnosed. It was awful. I wanted to die and I was at rock bottom. I do not want to go back to that.

Whenever I’m out having fun with friends. I feel such shame, guilt, and sadness that I am having fun without my immediate family and start to think about the fact that they won’t be here with me one day. They have difficult lives so I feel guilt that I’m able to have fun while they deal with depression or anxiety. It consumes me to the point where I will want to leave what I’m doing and go home. Even when I am with them sometimes I hyper-fixate on the idea of them passing one day or soon and I become overwhelmed with sadness so I try to do lots of things to tune out those thoughts. Any ideas on how to cope with this?