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my ocd triggers
does anyone have any annoying ocd triggers? mine include anything scary or crime :( I love horror and true crime but can’t enjoy it without my state of mind being harmed :/
does anyone have any annoying ocd triggers? mine include anything scary or crime :( I love horror and true crime but can’t enjoy it without my state of mind being harmed :/
Yep! Articles scare me, when I’m bad even police vans and sirens have caused me really heightened anxiety. There was a time when I couldn’t care hearing a sirens streets away because it would fuel my anxiety. When I got better, crime shows didn’t bother me at all and nor did articles. It’s the anxious OCD creating false alarms but those things are very good for ERP if they cause you anxiety, along with proper techniques to manage your anxiety of course. Just know you’re not alone , I have relapsed atm and I can’t watch any crime documentaries on specific topics anymore either.
@Worry24 Couldn’t bare*
@Worry24 i feel the same!! im totally innocent, drive safely and still feel so nervous hearing sirens or seeing law enforcement. I’m sorry you have relapsed. You can push through 🤎
yep, if a film has some of violent scene that involves a person killing an innocent being, it will stick into my head for a long time and i’ll replay it but replace the innocent person with a family member who doesn’t expect or deserve it :( so i can’t watch any horror films (not of a fan of them anyway) i don’t want to trigger yours but one example i’ll use is (i won’t go into detail) one particular scene in stranger things s3 really triggered my ocd and the image didn’t go away for a long time. it was the way a certain character died and how the scene was filmed to show the aftermath? that’s all i’ll say but yeah, i get you
THIS HAPPENED TO ME WITH TRAIN TO BUSAN!! the ending broke my heart n left my emotional state in shambles :(
Same, it honestly sucks because i used to not connect horror with anything from reality, i used to be able to just enjoy it as something fake but now my ocd made it hell for me. I do erp by playing horror games, and now it has gotten better. Try it, it's different from just watching it and you can start slowly.
how would you recommend starting?
@lrmgry What are your available platforms for playing? In general i recommend starting with horror games that look cartoonish and then slowly work your way to more realistic ones.
@LydiaK Like Roblox?
@lrmgry Sure! As long as the theme is horror. You could also try "little nightmares" or anything that has cartoon like horror. Anything that is available to you. Once you get used to that, you can continue with something more hardcore.
Omg so many annoying ones. I am dealing with bad ROCD and everything triggers me seemingly. For example, nice people trigger me because what if my husband isn’t nice? It is so stupid. It sucks that your triggers affect your hobbies, that is tough :(
I got into a scuffle with a "southern gentleman" the other day. It triggered me like no tomorrow. Threw off my entire day.
So I have harm ocd for sure and I get triggered by some m1rder cases like for some reason my brain gets latched to them and the perpetrators my brain goes ‘what if they’d find you attractive’ ‘would you be one of their victims’ and it feels like they’re watching me, if that makes sense, like they’re watching me, is this a symptom of any type of OCD? Please no judgement I’m super scared and I hate that my brain does this
I sometimes see posts on here of people saying their OCD fears becoming true and it’s so so triggering for me. It makes me question if I ever had OCD and if I’m just faking it. I’ve tried to accept that my fear was real. Okay? Before I knew this was OCD, I really TRIED to accept it as a part of myself because I figured if I was even having those thoughts, it must be true. But in reality it just made me feel worse in the end. It wasn’t until several hours/few days after accepting the thoughts as true did I realize they were not and how uncomfortable it made me identifying with them that way, so eventually I went back into the rumination cycle. And I’ve done this multiple times. No matter how much I’ve accepted it as real, I never come to a conclusion in the end and I just get 10x more miserable. And I am still so scared of my fear coming true as those peoples did. But I know that’s what we all fear, otherwise we wouldn’t be here. And with a new fear I just developed, (all in the realm of the same theme) I’ve also tried to accept it as real when I felt SUPER convinced and even though it felt excruciatingly real, there was a part of me that couldn’t fully believe it, because I just know viscerally that it’s not. But the feeling of it being real is just too powerful and it overmastered any ounce of insight I had left. It wasn’t until my OCD spike calmed down when I was able to see through the viel. I hate this. I have no desire to do anything that my thoughts tell me. I know what I want to be, want to do, and it’s the opposite of those OCD thoughts. But these triggering posts won’t leave. (Not really the publishers fault, it’s my ritual that I engage in). They make me come all back to square one (if I wasn’t there already) and question if I’m using this as an excuse. I don’t want to do what my OCD tells me to do, but my brain just spits, “you’re just convincing yourself you don’t want this!” as it so often now does. I’m so tired. Please give me my old self back. Please give me 100% certainty that none of this is real and my fears are not at all based in reality. My brain cannot accept uncertainty and will not leave me alone. My brain is raged and powerless without knowing why, and spiels that anger back on me to get a reaction, and when it gets what it wants, the cycle continues. And goes way longer than I had bargained for :(
So for as long as I’ve been alive I’ve loved horror/ thriller movies and books. I really only enjoy reading thriller books. Since my harm ocd hit I have slowly started back reading thriller again, but I have to check for triggers before each one I read. There’s been a few books that I was really loving that I had to stop reading because something that would trigger my ocd would come up ( my theme is going crazy becoming dangerous , schizophrenia etc ) so if a character in a book starts hearing voices or something, I get so anxious. I want to be able to read and watch horror / thrillers again. Do I simply need to just continue reading / watching and sit with the anxiety?
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