Tics

TW: Tics and imposter syndrome Alright, I have tics, it started with shaking my head whenever I had an intrusive thought, because I wanted to 'shake away' the thought. Then it turned into audible tics: making high noises, clicking my tongue, making weird sounds with my voice, and still moving my head, shockish moves with my body. When I'm with a lotta people it gets worse and worse, especially when people interact with my tics. Of course this causes funny moments like when someone says: 'what did u say?' and I respond with 'F#CK YOU!' but I don't like it if people are going to see me for just my tics and however funny some comments and tics are, it would be nice if people could ignore my tics. But there's this voice in my head that says: 'Yeah well you laughed with these people, of course you enjoy the attention when people enjoy your tics, you're doing this for attention, etc.' and that sucks! I don't enjoy having tics, I feel awful that people find me weird and funny because I have these tics. And of course I feel better and good when people just laugh a little and move on, because, yeah, my tics can be funny, but I'd really rather not have them!! This discussion goes on and on in my head, especially because when I forget about my tics they completely stop, but the second someone says 'tics' or reminds me of it, it starts again. The imposter syndrome is really bad and idk how to deal with it. Anyone here that relates and can help me a little with how to deal with the imposter syndrome?

goblintears

Date posted: 2y

Really late response but I feel the exact same way as you! My tics have calmed down the past year but they developed and were really bad last year. For me ive also had imposter syndrome about mine, and how I've coped with it is looking at it in a sense of like, really wondering; What would I be gaining out of faking it? Because for me and I believe most other people with tics, they can be funny sometimes, but depending on the situation/tic/etc, it's more embarrassing and/or annoying than anything. Tics also usually lessen when you're focused or distracted so it's normal for them to sometimes not be there at all, they also can have time frames where they're just not as apparent which is the case for me the past year (besides some outbursts). But yeah I relate to you and I understand the worries about impostor syndrome, but we don't gain anything from how embarrassing and sometimes destructive tics are! Sometimes they can be funny too and it'd be miserable to not find them a little funny sometimes, but that doesn't mean that they're enjoyable to have all the time, because they can really be bad sometimes. They don't have to be miserable all the time to still be annoying and embarrassing.

idkausername

Date posted: 2y

Thanks for the response! The way you describe it is very true. Of course the tics are funny sometimes but mostly it gets annoying. Yes people find it really funny when you say a random word or make a random noise, but when they don't know about your tics it's mostly awkward and honestly annoying

tayanominous

Date posted: 25w

Compulsions and tics

I know I just posted, but can someone please tell me how to stop compulsions and ticks? My OCD is really bad and my compulsions are getting really repetitive and I just I can’t stop them. I’m scared because I keep ticking and doing compulsions and I can’t seem to stop it and it feels like I’m having a seizure but I don’t have epilepsy so I don’t know what that feels like, but all my muscles are tensing and I can’t stop squeezing and tensing up. It’s really really not fun and it feels like I need to be putting a straight jacket or something. I’m scared anyone please.

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts

I’ve had many types of OCD, but I gained control over them over the years, but a new one has started to arise. Do y’all ever have scary thoughts about something you might do? Recently I’ll get extremely uncomfortable no matter where I am because I can’t stop thinking about “what if I screamed really loud in my lecture class tomorrow?” And other stupid stuff like that. Also, this one is kind of funny, but sometimes when I use the bathroom I pause before because I think “what if I’m actually in class right now?” I also cannot control the thoughts about past embarrassing moments. I know everyone does, but I will become visibly uncomfortable and harp on something from years ago. This happens all throughout the day. Also, does anyone else do things that resemble tics when you get these thoughts. Like when they happen I’ll curse under my breath or like jerk my head a little bit. When I’m in public I keep it low key but when I’m alone sometimes I’ll physically get up and pace or something when those thoughts happen. Just curious if anyone has had these experiences

Anonymous

Date posted: 20w

How do I snap out of it? Any suggestions?

I'm new and I'm really trying to control thoughts of replaying interactions I've had or things I think might happen with the people around me. This is something constant, and it causes me to repeat actions. Then I lose track of time and often end up being late. It has always affected my sleep and becomes a part of my dreams, which are also always vivid. It's always been hard for me to get up. I just constantly keep replaying different outcomes of things that it haven't happened yet going over every possible outcome with no correct answer. I'm scared of what I might say and do when at work because it's been getting worse lately. I've been terrified of socializing, because I feel like I'm going to lose it every time I speak to someone. I work directly with people doing their hair. I don't want my clients or co-workers to catch me in the act of one of my rituals or it to effect the job that I'm doing. It just makes me angry that I haven't been able to control these thoughts and it makes the rituals worse. Then I feel embarrassed after I finally stop repeating whatever it is, I'm doing. I feel like I can't trust anyone, and I’m terrified but I know it's not real. I can't afford to lose it/show it.

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