advice?

hi everyone. i know this is ocd, so i’m not wanting any reassurance or anything like that, i just don’t know how to stop these thoughts and am looking for advice. i used to have harm ocd but haven’t in awhile. this morning i was praying and i said a prayer for my little brother who starts high school today and then in the middle of my prayer an intrusive thought came in about something horrible happening to the school and kids at school. and it was intruding in my prayer, acting as if i was praying for that to happen. it caused me so much distress. i know i would never want that to happen and i know that this is ocd, but i don’t know how to stop the thoughts. i just want to be able to say my morning prayer in peace without feeling like a bad person who is requesting bad things. anyone have any advice?

Cooculie

Date posted: 3y

This happens to me a lot! I just try to trust that my higher power that I’m praying to understands my true intentions, and that I would never pray for something bad to happen to people I care about. Hoping you feel peace very soon!! ❤️

iamworthy

Date posted: 3y

@Cooculie Thank you so much.

iamworthy

Date posted: 3y

@Cooculie Just a follow up, do your intrusive thoughts ever word themselves as prayers, saying “please let ____ happen” even though ____ is something you would never want to happen? it scares me so bad. i feel like i’m the only one who has ever experienced this.

Emily Rae

Date posted: 6d

@iamworthy I know this is an old comment, but I thought I was the only one who experienced this too❤️it scares me so bad and I feel like I’m constantly saying “God please don’t listen to that” and it’s my main theme

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

This used to happen to me, too, when I used to pray. I think it’s just the way the human mind works sometimes. Just try to accept that it is not your true intention and just a trick minds play on us that happens to a lot of people.

iamworthy

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous Thank you.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

ERP!!! I know it must be so hard to feel like you are wishing something you don’t really want and not being able to pray in peace. What has helped me the most is doing ERP instead of trying to get rid of the thoughts because that will make it worse. For example, if you are praying and you have an intrusive thought suggesting you are praying for something bad to happen instead of saying “I don’t want this” and engage in compulsions you can answer with something like: “yeah, that’s exactly what I am doing”, “lol”, “maybe”, “we’ll see”, “that would suck”, etc. Just “embrace” the thought, accept it is there and instead of fighting it and trying to argue with it engaging in compulsions just answer with something like “yeah, sure, whatever”. Hope this helps🙏🏻

iamworthy

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous This helps. Thank you

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

@iamworthy I’m glad! You’re welcome!!

iamworthy

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous Just a follow up; do you ever have intrusive thoughts that word themselves as prayers, saying “please let ___ happen”, ____ being your worst nightmare and something u obviously wouldn’t want to happen? i feel like a horrible person for these thoughts and feel like i immediately need to neutralize them so that god knows i don’t actually want that to happen. it’s driving me crazy, making me feel sad and like a horrible person.

Emily Rae

Date posted: 6d

@iamworthy My exact experience word for word…you are not alone. I’m so grateful I found your comment and I hope things have gotten better for you❤️

elro.elephant

Date posted: 25w

Can someone give me advice?

I’m not too sure where to begin so some stuff may be a bit scattered. I’d like to start with the fact that I’m not sure if I just have anxiety or if it is actually OCD. I’ve been dealing with these intrusive thoughts for as long as I can remember. TRIGGER WARNING NEXT PARAGRAPH Stuff like “what if my teacher just raped me in the middle of class” or “what if I pulled all my veins at.” Those are some of the more graphic and violent things but I do get lesser things like “what if I imagined that whole conversation” when I know for a fact I did experience that exact memory/conversation. I don’t like these thoughts and I don’t ever want to think them. If anyone has any advice it would be greatly appreciated. I’m only 16 and I want to be sure about this stuff before I ask my parents to get me diagnosed.

Anonymoususe...

Date posted: 19w

Can anyone relate: OCD prayers

TW religious ocd OCD is turning innapropriate desires into prayers. Essentially the best way I can describe it is everyone has innapropriate desires sometimes. One example is if I’m suicidal, I wouldn’t mind if a meteor hit while I was asleep. Obviously that affects other people too, but if it’s not my fault, selfishly I want it. Well, it essentially turns that “I want this” thought into me thinking towards god “this would be nice if it happens.” Especially if it wasn’t my fault at all, I wouldn’t mind. My brain can VERY easily turn that into a prayer. All I have to do is direct it for a second towards god, and boom, technically it’s a prayer. Has anyone else had this? It really seems like ocd, even if it is VERY technically a prayer. It doesn’t seem like a normal, thought out prayer

Stacey353

Date posted: 18w

Can’t stop the what if thoughts

What if this and what if that. It’s all harm related and the urges feel so real I just can’t stand this anymore. Does anyone have any advice that has conquered OCD harm intrusive thoughts. I have them 24/7 and they are so scary.

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