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@Prole trust me I’ve been there. It doesn’t add up with me either. I’ve been naturally boy crazy my whole life but my ocd says I forced feelings for boys. For awhile I couldn’t enjoy sex either but now that I’m a bit better I have moments where I can be super into my boyfriend even if it’s for like 5 minutes only
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mine are exactly like that too. drives me crazy
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Mine are like that as well but my brain also tells me I want to do stuff with them or I picture it. Really annoying honestly...
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I hope you either find this funny or not too inappropriate. My scrotum and man parts kinda tingles and I just get flooded with super gay thoughts. They give me distress at first. But lately they are just there and kinda give me back door distress because I don't feel distress from before.
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@Prole haha you’re fine! I never know what it’s like for men so that’s very interesting
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It just sucks, I think it stems from the fact that I had a former gay friend (he always tried to coerce me into doing gay stuff in hindsight) but pretty much when the friend group found out they stopped talking to him. I tried to be his friend for a while, but he kept trying to make me do gay stuff and molested a friend of mine. I fear losing my friends because of that and fear that he coerced me.
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@Prole I’m so sorry, that’s not right, if he wanted to experiment he should have done it with someone who was into it. I have no idea what prompted mine for sure. I think it was porn addiction as a child? Ik it’s crazy but yeah, and to make it worse it was gay/lesbian porn ?
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Yeah I experimented with it several times, which led me to the conclusion it's possible I'm like a 1 on the Kinsey scale. The HOCD tells me I'm full and that I'll lose all my friends and family because of it. It doesn't line up with my history though, as I've loved girls my whole life and still really want a girlfriend. It doesn't help that I haven't had a long term relationship and the only time I had sex I couldn't finish, but I'm still convinced I'm straight. Now I can't even look at porn any more, I tried not pmoing and haven't for a while but now I lost all attraction
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I just feel like I placed the ultimate trust in the gay friend and in return he only wanted to solicit me, which really damaged my trust and sense of self
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Ughhhhhh it feels like I can’t tell between false attraction or attractive 😭 :/ idk I just saw some pics of joji and artist that makes music when he was younger (it was a post on insta) and on one of them I thought oh he looks cute here, but no I’m like omg but idk in what way tho but it felt like not false attraction like I thought or meant it in another way and I. Felt that and then kinda freaked out bc idk if it’s weird and then I felt groinals and *sigh*
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Does anyone else when they have the thoughts, they feel against it, but they still get arousal or tenglings sensations in the groinal area? Because this is what I experienced today and I feel like crap. This is going to be very triggering for a lot of you, but there are a lot of times that I notice things from kids. For example, there is a thirteen year old kid who looks very developed for her age, and I take notice of (and this already sounds creepy to me) her chest. Today with my thoughts, I imagined as if I were touching it, and although I usually "no no or "I don't want to do that", she is a kid, etc., I still get responses in my groinal area, and It felt very real. Even now, I feel as though I am faking it, even though I groan 😮💨 from it, and feel as though I am a fraud. Does anyone relate?
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hey guys, i’m almost fully healed in my socd journey but what’s stopping me is the false atractions. i get them almost 24/7 at this point and to every thing. they feel real and i hate them they make me feel disgusted. they also make me feel like hot and gross but then i see people saying thats what attractions feel like, but i have felt so much attraction to the opposite gender pre all of this and it felt nice and enjoyable not digustinf. i’m also getting false memory trying to show me ‘signal’ from my childhood to prove i’m gay amd i truly don’t know if they’re real. it’s so degrading and at this point i feel like govining up. pelesse if you have any advice or even if your going through the same thing just let me know. ocd is so terrible
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