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@Prole trust me I’ve been there. It doesn’t add up with me either. I’ve been naturally boy crazy my whole life but my ocd says I forced feelings for boys. For awhile I couldn’t enjoy sex either but now that I’m a bit better I have moments where I can be super into my boyfriend even if it’s for like 5 minutes only
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mine are exactly like that too. drives me crazy
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Mine are like that as well but my brain also tells me I want to do stuff with them or I picture it. Really annoying honestly...
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I hope you either find this funny or not too inappropriate. My scrotum and man parts kinda tingles and I just get flooded with super gay thoughts. They give me distress at first. But lately they are just there and kinda give me back door distress because I don't feel distress from before.
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@Prole haha you’re fine! I never know what it’s like for men so that’s very interesting
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It just sucks, I think it stems from the fact that I had a former gay friend (he always tried to coerce me into doing gay stuff in hindsight) but pretty much when the friend group found out they stopped talking to him. I tried to be his friend for a while, but he kept trying to make me do gay stuff and molested a friend of mine. I fear losing my friends because of that and fear that he coerced me.
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@Prole I’m so sorry, that’s not right, if he wanted to experiment he should have done it with someone who was into it. I have no idea what prompted mine for sure. I think it was porn addiction as a child? Ik it’s crazy but yeah, and to make it worse it was gay/lesbian porn ?
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Yeah I experimented with it several times, which led me to the conclusion it's possible I'm like a 1 on the Kinsey scale. The HOCD tells me I'm full and that I'll lose all my friends and family because of it. It doesn't line up with my history though, as I've loved girls my whole life and still really want a girlfriend. It doesn't help that I haven't had a long term relationship and the only time I had sex I couldn't finish, but I'm still convinced I'm straight. Now I can't even look at porn any more, I tried not pmoing and haven't for a while but now I lost all attraction
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I just feel like I placed the ultimate trust in the gay friend and in return he only wanted to solicit me, which really damaged my trust and sense of self
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hey, so i’ve had these insane thoughts about like, this dude. and i assumed it’s intrusive feelings, but it also has happened w the fact o think i like girls? but i don’t? like, i get the gronal response, and everything, and like, it sometimes feels like i actually like them, but it always makes me sick? same way w the false attraction guy, and it even started happening w my bsf of like 9 years? and it’ll tell me the most insane things like “maybe u are attracted” “maybe if u got w them the thoughts will stop” someone please help.
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False attraction has been killing me ive had it for months with the same person. I have a boyfriend so having false attraction makes me feel so guilty. And lately theyve felt so real and ive been so anxious. What if I do like him bla bla. Ive only ever saw him as a brother and we have a good connection and he is one of my good friends but even sometimes when im having a conversation I feel like im cheating. Sometimes I get excited like oh yay he is gonna be here and then I get scared that it’s romantical because I get excited when he is around because he is a funny. Im so scared thats its real attraction because I love my boyfriend I would never do such a thing. And lately my minds done stuff like oh grab his attention stuff like that and it feels like I have done those actions but I dont want to. Sometimes when he is like idk sitting near Im like oh is he looking and my minds like oh do something to empress him bla bla. Recently he was going thought stuff and my boyfriend was there and I was I can give him a hug because I think he needs it but after I thought of it as bad because he is a guy and I had this false attraction what if I did it because I like him bla bla. I am freaking out idk why my mind makes me do compulsions that I have acted on like oh go talk to him and I do its weird urges that I do not want to do. I am scared that it will come true
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hey guys, i’m almost fully healed in my socd journey but what’s stopping me is the false atractions. i get them almost 24/7 at this point and to every thing. they feel real and i hate them they make me feel disgusted. they also make me feel like hot and gross but then i see people saying thats what attractions feel like, but i have felt so much attraction to the opposite gender pre all of this and it felt nice and enjoyable not digustinf. i’m also getting false memory trying to show me ‘signal’ from my childhood to prove i’m gay amd i truly don’t know if they’re real. it’s so degrading and at this point i feel like govining up. pelesse if you have any advice or even if your going through the same thing just let me know. ocd is so terrible
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