What are false attractions like for everyone else? Here’s how mine go, they’re either groinal responses which are normal and I try not to give TOO much meaning to, but the one that fucks me up the most is when, I see a girl and I get a sensation in my stomach kinda like butterflies when you have a crush, but then I start panicking, they’re just sensations just bc I have no desire to be intimate with them or anything, but it’s tingling sensations throughout my body and stuff too and that drives me crazy. Ik my brain is doing a false alarm thing just bc it’s just a sensation and if I did have a crush I would know ?. But yeah that’s how mine are.

@Prole trust me I’ve been there. It doesn’t add up with me either. I’ve been naturally boy crazy my whole life but my ocd says I forced feelings for boys. For awhile I couldn’t enjoy sex either but now that I’m a bit better I have moments where I can be super into my boyfriend even if it’s for like 5 minutes only

mine are exactly like that too. drives me crazy

Mine are like that as well but my brain also tells me I want to do stuff with them or I picture it. Really annoying honestly...

I hope you either find this funny or not too inappropriate. My scrotum and man parts kinda tingles and I just get flooded with super gay thoughts. They give me distress at first. But lately they are just there and kinda give me back door distress because I don't feel distress from before.

@Prole haha you’re fine! I never know what it’s like for men so that’s very interesting

It just sucks, I think it stems from the fact that I had a former gay friend (he always tried to coerce me into doing gay stuff in hindsight) but pretty much when the friend group found out they stopped talking to him. I tried to be his friend for a while, but he kept trying to make me do gay stuff and molested a friend of mine. I fear losing my friends because of that and fear that he coerced me.

@Prole I’m so sorry, that’s not right, if he wanted to experiment he should have done it with someone who was into it. I have no idea what prompted mine for sure. I think it was porn addiction as a child? Ik it’s crazy but yeah, and to make it worse it was gay/lesbian porn ?

Yeah I experimented with it several times, which led me to the conclusion it's possible I'm like a 1 on the Kinsey scale. The HOCD tells me I'm full and that I'll lose all my friends and family because of it. It doesn't line up with my history though, as I've loved girls my whole life and still really want a girlfriend. It doesn't help that I haven't had a long term relationship and the only time I had sex I couldn't finish, but I'm still convinced I'm straight. Now I can't even look at porn any more, I tried not pmoing and haven't for a while but now I lost all attraction

I just feel like I placed the ultimate trust in the gay friend and in return he only wanted to solicit me, which really damaged my trust and sense of self