I went to church today and had an anxiety attack trying to act like I’m okay when I’m really not. During the service a lot of existential ocd kicked in and all I wanted was reassurance. What do I do? I thought going to church made me worse and my brain feels loaded with negative thoughts not just from church but from thinking erp will not work because I’ve tried it before.
Keep your head up. I will keep you in prayer. God just brought me out of a battle of ocd, I rebuked the thoughts like Jesus did the wind. Never hurts to try 🙂. I had to stay in The Word of God and (contrary to ocd) walk be faith. I also told God about my anxiety and fears. Just keep pressing my friend get up the mountain so you can see clearly again… ocd is a nagging liar, my therapist said you have to ignore (not avoid) it like a nagging child you drown out Focus on the Truth and ignore the lie. And don’t let ocd tell you, you don’t know because you do know…. I encourage you and thank God for your courage when you overcome you will have a testimony, to encourage someone else 😁.
This has happened to me many times in the past year. It is the worst feeling ever because you so badly want to enjoy church. Understand God sees your circumstances and the anxiety you face and that His power and grace is sufficient for us. This might be weird but personally I’ve found that focusing on the finished work of Christ and imagining my ocd be nailed to a cross (even though it’s not a sin to have it but meaning Jesus did conquer all evil forces that are against us). I’ve been told by therapists to stop going to church until you learn mindfulness and other anxiety relief tactics. I recommend watching Mark DeJesus on YouTube. He’s helped me a lot in my journey.
Have you both ever heard of John bunion ( I probably butchered his name) he had ocd not that it was documented then but he wrote the pilgrims progress and it is a cool book for anyone to read but it help me with my first round of ocd. When he walked in the valley of the shadow of death or fought Apollyon with the Word against the lies. It might be a good read might even be good erp… check it out… ps there is also a movie but check out the book you will get more out of it I’m sure… keep the good fight!
Dude the key to getting out of the valley was “ all prayer and supplication” and to fight the lies was the sheild of faith and the Word of God. I started applying it and it has helped me. 😀 my battles have been up and down sometimes but I have had long seasons without and believe we will be free 100% in the future.
Ps I had a dream during my battles and in the dream I heard a rock band and I went closer till I heard what they where singing ( well it wasn’t nice thing) then I started smelling fumes and felt faint and went the opposite way. Lesson the thoughts playing in my head wasn’t me font take blame and beat myself up and they where to cause me to faint but go the opposite way. It gave me a better perception of what really was me and what was the ocd. If it was me I would of ran to the other way. I hope I help a little. Rest in Gods love for you ask for his help and helping to resolve it.
That helps a lot. That’s so weird because I had a very strange dream right before my ocd kicked in.. I’ll share it with you.. I was in a grassy field with flowers and trees and there were a bunch of people that looked like they were in combat with floating figures and the sky was dark. I look over and see this massive dark figure in front of me and I was so intimidated that I look to my side and I see Jesus pointing at it and saying something to me (something like “talk to it”) and I looked back at the darkness and started talking about Jesus to it and then I watched Jesus come and basically beat it up 😂 it was so awesome. And I never knew what that dream meant but I can’t help but think that is Gods way of telling me to be prepared to face this fear and anxiety/OCD by being empowered by His love and saving grace because He takes pleasure in fighting our battles. I hope that helps you too! I appreciate you sharing your stuff!
Yes I’ve heard of him!! When my ocd crisis started she would read to me that book! I wasn’t able to finish because I even started having panic attacks over the book itself but I think I’d like to pick it up again!
Yes it does brother reminds me of the scripture about speaking to the mountain and telling to be cast in the sea. It’s funny my God mother was telling me two days ago that she was asking God to bind the devil, but she then read the scripture where it said what so ever we bind on earth will be bound in heaven…. Awesome confirmation! We can bind this thing God bless and I will definitely be keeping you both in prayer 😉
That help a lot!
I been going to church looking for answers about my false memories if they are even false and overall ocd. Everything that I'm learning about ocd ultimately I get told that it's due to sin and that's why I feel overwhelmed and have the urge to confess on things idk if they are real or not. I just dont know whats my truth my mind Is saying one thing but I need a lot of confirmation if what im thinking its true thats why i been seeking confirmation going to church. Would appreciate a response or if anyone is going through this 🙏
So I’m not sure how many/if any of you are Christians, but I’m assuming this can still make sense to some of you. This morning has been rough. I’m constantly thinking, “am I saved? Have I never been saved and I’m tricking myself into thinking I am? When I’m listening to Christian music am I doing for the right reasons? Is it too late for me?”. Things I know the truthful answers to but yet I still think these thoughts. I don’t understand why. Why do I constantly think about these “what if”’s? My heart always feels so heavy and I feel as if I need to talk to God right then and there to make it stop and go away. But then am I talking to the Lord for the wrong reasons? And the cycle repeats. Thankfully, day one of my therapy is tonight and I’m hoping to find at least a little clarity on this stuff. I’ve had OCD for 7 years and I don’t even know how it works. Any advice?
I need help everyone. My thoughts have been getting worse… I haven’t used my ERP because it feels too scary and too real and so I am caught in this spiral of doing compulsions with every other thought that I have. I have thoughts about that bad guy that are so horrible and then I think that the bad guy is talking to me so I do compulsions and desperately want GOD to believe me when I say I don’t mean the thoughts, but then it creates doubt about whether or not I actually do mean the thoughts. And now I am afraid of my own thoughts This makes me want to fix ALL of the thoughts and feelings that I have to prove even more to myself and to GOD that I don’t mean these thoughts. On top of all of this, I am trying to convince myself that it’s OCD and not me at all. Does anyone have this and can anyone help? I am so tired and scared and burnt out…
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