Anyone wanna just chat ?

So a bit of yesterday and today I was able to handle my false memories a bit, but now I'm back to something else again and its if I acted on urges because I remember holding them and having the intense urge that made me so fucking scared so I don't know if I did like a checking or anything but I feel like I'd know. The thing is, this thought didn't bother me for a while because I had confidence, but well you know, once we start to feel better, your mind will just attack you again and now I feel god awful. So how was everyone's night ? What were some things we did today ?

BigGyro09

Date posted: 3y

Hey! I'm sorry that you're struggling but a lot of us are here for you. :) You said that this thought didn't bother you for a while but it came back. Sounds like a back door spike, which can happen with OCD! Try your best to accept those thoughts, acknowledge them, and let them pass. If they keep coming back, you may have to confront them. One way I can think of doing this is writing down the thoughts and trying to answer questions about them while agreeing with them at the same time.

InkJoy123

Date posted: 3y

@BigGip09 Thanks Gip. Yeah I knew when holding them I had scary urges that made me have to force myself to actually stop (this happened like around 5 years ago so even harder to remember), actually about 2 days ago I had the same urge but it was for a different theme and towards myself. I know I'd remember acting on it rather than just having an urge that felt so real. I think my mind is just scared of the potential and what ifs and im remembering wrong etc. Probably will just sleep it off. Appreciate the message 🫂💕

BigGyro09

Date posted: 3y

@InkJoy123 I don't know what the urges are and what they are for but I don't think they matter now and they won't matter in the future. It may sound like these are things are from deep in the past

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

@InkJoy123 Hi there I Hope this helps, but trying to figure out weather you’d act on and urge, if the urge is real, what would happen if you did are all compulsions. (Mental ones) Do your best to not give in and provide an answer to a “what if” question. Understand that there is no answer that is 100%. let it pass and continue doing what you were doing. Sounds like you may need a little help with the “response” part of the therapy. This app for therapist is amazing. Truly! I was at rock bottom I owe it to this app and it’s therapists

InkJoy123

Date posted: 3y

And obviously me trying to remember and figure out how I'd act or check the urge if it true, im piecing pieces that would seem like they would have happen cause again its a possibility but eh I still just wanna talk to others I guess.

Jo ^^

Date posted: 3y

That sounds really tough! My night has been pretty good I beat one of the legend of Zelda games tonight so that was VERY exciting haha

InkJoy123

Date posted: 3y

@Jo ^^ hey ! yooo thats cool ! which zelda game did you beat and how long did it take you ?

Jo ^^

Date posted: 3y

@InkJoy123 Twilight Princess. I think 47 hours so that’s uhhh that’s… three days? I don’t know 😂😭

RaeStruggles

Date posted: 3y

Hey! I would love to chat. I have done an exposure and working on not ruminating or researching stuff online. My stuff is real event OCD and health concerns. What are you doing right now?

G3MI

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

my nights been good !! i’m working on my valorant x webtoon contest entry :) (also i hope you feel better soon :( you aren’t alone :>)

ApplesAndOra...

Date posted: 3y

That sounds so bad I hope today is a better day! I'm in Spain rn and last night me and my family just stayed up and watched these guys play guitar for a bit. Wby?

dee012

Date posted: 25w

false memory half asleep

I hate when false memory targets memories where I was half asleep. For example, earlier this morning im guessing 2-3 am i dunno but I was half asleep, I turned my head and saw my cats butt in my face. I grabbed my cat tail and put the tail over his butt, so his butt will not be in my face and his tail will cover it. I think he ended up moving to cuddle, or I grabbed him to cuddle with me., but my cat ended up licking my hand and it gave me a groinal response. I am pretty sure that moment it did make me feel weird and uncomfortable, but I just tried to sit with it and ignore. I’m also sure that I just told my cat to leave, or just let him go. But my ocd is making me feel like i did something wrong or like WHAT IF YOU DID. Like no matter how much i try to figure it out my chest hurts so bad and i keep rethinking about it and i can’t find where I did something wrong but my brain is like what if you did this but you were half asleep so u don’t remember. Like this is super difficult. My chest hurts so bad like im trying to not think about it but wtf.

Anonymous

Date posted: 25w

I can’t figure it out

I have a bunch of real event/false memory and there is one that I remember I got in the middle of a horrible episode and I believed it was false but now I can’t remember why I thought it was false and now believe it could be real and it’s just bothering me so much because I want to remember the details to why I believed it was false in the first place and I’m just in a horrible spot and feel disgusting and am getting intrusive thoughts on my themes when I try to check if they are intrusive or not and I can’t function like i don’t wanna be around anyone because all I want to do is confess but I can’t because then I’ll obsess on confessing and they won’t understand.

What is happ...

Date posted: 19w

Can anyone relate?

anyone else have a good evening/ day then fall back down hurrendously the next day? Honestly yesterday I felt great! Like I knew what I like (opposite gender) and these ‘false attractions’ are just false alarms caused by OCD… like I knew these thoughts and feeling are OCD. Today I question it all over again. Are these false attractions real? Why has my loss of opposite attraction feel like it won’t return? Though yesterday I got snippets.

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