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- 5y ago
See an ocd specialist they will help you
Hi, trans person with OCD here. It's really difficult to differentiate if those thoughts are just intrusive or actual gender dysphoria. The best way to figure it out is talking it out with a therapist. Best of luck.
Me too I’m afraid of both . I didn’t know what gender dysphoria was until I looked it up and starting reading stories . I’m gonna be honest I didn’t relate to the stories however my brain is telling me different. Btw CLB3122 this is no disrespect to you . Not trying to offend you . I’m just afraid of it happening to me. I don’t know what to do , I don’t know how I feel . I literally left work because I could not focus
isnt like being afraid of being transgender and actually having dysphoria different things? i have tocd too, i never felt like a guy but then one day i just woke up with the thought, - what im transgender
naj, i feel the same exact way. i suggest you find a therapist, im going to my first appointment on monday which I HOPE will go alright. its so confusing, i hate ocd and all the mind tricks.
And I’m trying but I’m alone in this literally my family and friends don’t understand the mental illness. That’s why I run here whenever it’s getting bad .
very relatable honestly, i dont know how much does the first therapy session cost but i hope it fits my budget.. lol.. this ocd theme itself is very hard because we dont understand ourselves anymore :/ (although it is with all ocd themes)
i had hocd in 2016 it left and came back in 2017 with tocd. i BELIEVE all of these intrusive thought themes and patterns are related, its just hard to fight them.
me too naj, me too.. for now i have to avoid compulsions and ruminating . i truly believe we all can heal and we wont suffer anymore.
In other words I don’t know if what I’m feeling is real or not anymore . I’m depressed , anxious , and the thought of me turning into a man makes me very sad which makes me believe it’s not real but I’ve been feeling very masculine lately and manly and it’s making me lose confidence in myself and I keep comparing myself to men . It’s very ridiculous and scary and I’m tired of ocd , if this is what that is .
It’s making me believe I’m depressed because I’m a girl but I’m not I’m depressed because I feel like I can’t live my life the way I want to
The thing is I can’t afford a therapist rn and on top of that I can’t find ocd specialist near my area . So I need to figure out a way to help myself rn
But I’m starting to think I can’t do this by myself
Exactly and what I can’t wrap my head around is , I’ve actually had this theme back in February a little before I found out I had ocd and I got rid of the thought I don’t know how but I did and it came back . I don’t know how or why but it did
It is , it’s getting in the way of my real life . Like I said I just left work early because my thoughts were distracting me to much from my work and it was messing me up . I never thought in my life I had to live with a mental illness. I just want it to go away completely ?
I hate it
I hope so . I wanna go back to myself . I wanted to carry babies oneday . Ocd is really messing with my head
i’m so stuck right now , this does not feel like ocd. my thoughts keep telling me “just come out and be like all those other people”. i hate these thoughts and everything feels so real. i feel like i’m just questioning my sexuality and i don’t want to. this does not feel like ocd it feel so so real. ugh i’m so confused and scared
I am about to start my ERP journey and I am so afraid. I have HOCD and I feel of I do the exposures I will end up liking them and and it will turn me into something I know I’m not.
I was able to sleep better but being calm takes me down to a spiral. I’m scared, what if I’m bisexual or a lesbian and I’m just lying to myself? What if I like the exposures, what if the exposures become my moment of truth? I feel like my attraction to men is there but it has disappeared. My mind keeps screaming I am lying about being straight and my attraction to men. It makes me feel like I like the idea of being with a woman now. My face smiles, it feels like it’s playing cruel games. I don’t see myself growing old with a woman. I know it’s OCD, but it just feels so real. I have friends and family who would accept me if I were bisexual or a lesbian. But I don’t want to. I feel like I have fed this monster even more fuel with doing mental reviews and googling. It’s like I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’ve struggled with SO-OCD in the past and was able to not think about my sexuality. But this time it just feels so real. I started sertraline yesterday. I know ERP is going to be hard work, but I’m just scared what if I’ve been in denial? I don’t want to lose another part of myself. My heart goes out to the bisexual community and how challenging it may be for them loving two or multiple genders. But I just don’t want to be with a woman. But my mind is telling me I have internalized biphobia. I just don’t want to. I hate this so much.
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