anonymousN
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- 6y
Stephen SmithStephen Smith
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- 6y
See an ocd specialist they will help you
CLB3122CLB3122
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- 6y
Hi, trans person with OCD here. It's really difficult to differentiate if those thoughts are just intrusive or actual gender dysphoria. The best way to figure it out is talking it out with a therapist. Best of luck.
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 6y
Me too I’m afraid of both . I didn’t know what gender dysphoria was until I looked it up and starting reading stories . I’m gonna be honest I didn’t relate to the stories however my brain is telling me different. Btw CLB3122 this is no disrespect to you . Not trying to offend you . I’m just afraid of it happening to me. I don’t know what to do , I don’t know how I feel . I literally left work because I could not focus
madaraamadaraa
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- 6y
isnt like being afraid of being transgender and actually having dysphoria different things? i have tocd too, i never felt like a guy but then one day i just woke up with the thought, - what im transgender
madaraamadaraa
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- 6y
naj, i feel the same exact way. i suggest you find a therapist, im going to my first appointment on monday which I HOPE will go alright. its so confusing, i hate ocd and all the mind tricks.
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 6y
And I’m trying but I’m alone in this literally my family and friends don’t understand the mental illness. That’s why I run here whenever it’s getting bad .
madaraamadaraa
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- 6y
very relatable honestly, i dont know how much does the first therapy session cost but i hope it fits my budget.. lol.. this ocd theme itself is very hard because we dont understand ourselves anymore :/ (although it is with all ocd themes)
madaraamadaraa
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- 6y
i had hocd in 2016 it left and came back in 2017 with tocd. i BELIEVE all of these intrusive thought themes and patterns are related, its just hard to fight them.
madaraamadaraa
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- 6y
me too naj, me too.. for now i have to avoid compulsions and ruminating . i truly believe we all can heal and we wont suffer anymore.
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 6y
In other words I don’t know if what I’m feeling is real or not anymore . I’m depressed , anxious , and the thought of me turning into a man makes me very sad which makes me believe it’s not real but I’ve been feeling very masculine lately and manly and it’s making me lose confidence in myself and I keep comparing myself to men . It’s very ridiculous and scary and I’m tired of ocd , if this is what that is .
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 6y
It’s making me believe I’m depressed because I’m a girl but I’m not I’m depressed because I feel like I can’t live my life the way I want to
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 6y
The thing is I can’t afford a therapist rn and on top of that I can’t find ocd specialist near my area . So I need to figure out a way to help myself rn
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 6y
But I’m starting to think I can’t do this by myself
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 6y
Exactly and what I can’t wrap my head around is , I’ve actually had this theme back in February a little before I found out I had ocd and I got rid of the thought I don’t know how but I did and it came back . I don’t know how or why but it did
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 6y
It is , it’s getting in the way of my real life . Like I said I just left work early because my thoughts were distracting me to much from my work and it was messing me up . I never thought in my life I had to live with a mental illness. I just want it to go away completely ?
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 6y
I hate it
anonymousNanonymousN
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- 6y
I hope so . I wanna go back to myself . I wanted to carry babies oneday . Ocd is really messing with my head
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