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- Bella???
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- 5y ago
Im so sorry you are so young dealing with this. It is so hard but remember ocd is just ocd no matter the theme. I have this theme too and it’s so hard because it feels like it’s trying to take over your identity. It’s been so hard for me today because I am married with two kids and it’s trying to tell me I don’t love my husband and I’m not my kids mom, I’d rather be a man (which I don’t) and have always loved being a woman. We have to stay strong and show ocd who’s boss. I’m sorry, I know how hard the struggle is
It really does and I believe the hardest thing about this is is how hard it is to separate the symptoms . I swear there’s times that I’m like “ wth that’s fucking ridiculous I know who I am “ and then there’s that stupid thought like are you really happy in your own body ? Don’t you want a change ? Don’t you wanna feel something different? . Granted I remember I always said I wonder how it felt to be the opposite sex but I thought most people had that thought out of curiosity. But I don’t actually wanna strip myself from who I really am you know ? It’s so frustrating and this theme is so strong to me . Just when I think it’s going away it comes back . I want to be a girl again. When I see other women I feel less then and ashamed of myself because I feel like less of a woman and like a man ... I hate it honestly
Yess same! the worst part for me are the feelings. Like I can one time be convinced I want to be a guy and other times i can actually feel like a guy! It’s so awful! I’m glad you get it though!
Yeah it’s like a feeling of masculinity. It makes me feel less confident in myself . This theme traumatized me so much that I keep stalling on getting my nails done because I’m afraid that I’m going to hate it. But what’s crazy is today I saw all the girls at my job dressing nice with their nails done and I felt like a piece of shit
Yeah It’s almost like jealous of both genders. fake Jealousy of men and jealousy of women that they do what you want to do that you aren’t letting yourself do or are worried you hate. Do you ever feel happy as a girl but suddenly self aware in a weird way? like you suddenly don’t believe it or your mind says that isn’t you even though you felt like yourself as a girl for a while?
I’ve felt like a girl my entire life and I’m 18 so you can imagine how weird and disturbing it is for my mind to tell me I want to completely Change my life in a way I’ve never imagined nor wanted to
And I have a boyfriend who I live with and he doesn’t even know . I love him dearly and I feel guilty because I feel like I’m doing him wrong
Same! Everything you have said I feel the same!
it’s honestly such a relief you both/all feel the same. it’s good to know i’m not alone
Me too I hope I have a good day today . The thoughts been in in my dreams and caused me to have a terrible nights sleep
i can’t remember my dreams easily but i know i’m always so anxious and basically convinced i’m trans in them which freaks me out. good luck to you all and i’m here for support of you want to talk or write any worries ❤️
Trans ocd falls into the sexual orientation ocd! I know that naj and maddy12 have it.
yeah, it’s hard since i have a group chat and i know i text too much but it feels like i’m alone and different
thanks so much! it attacks so many aspects and is exhausting
Idont241 lol thanks for paying attention to me
Yeah, lately relationships have been making me feel nervous, like i want to be the guy in them
and i’m 15, but i can agree! i’ve never been overly girly but i’ve always been confident and proud of my femininity
We just have to remember this is stupid ocd! We can do this!!
@naj you are totally welcome haha. Well, I hope you are enjoying finding someone else that’s dealing with this too! I hope both of you get better :)
How do you feel Bella?
How old are you Bella?
I’m worried this’ll lead to something but this is me: I’m a fifteen year old girl who’s struggled with this for a while. In January, I was hit with Harm OCD and it turned into Trans OCD mid march. I’ve had a history getting obsessed with things and my worry spiralling often and out of control
There are many forms of ocd in the world I believe that theres been at least one person in the world who's worried about the thoughts people with ocd have. We just have to be strong
I'm scared to post this on here, but I haven't seen anyone else talk about it, so I'm wondering if anyone else on here suffers from POCD? I really need to know I'm not alone. If anyone has good tips/resources for coping that'd be great. I don't have an OCD specialist anywhere near where I live. I do see a therapist who has been helping, but I still feel incredibly alone.
TOCD is making me really depressed. I just want to feel normal.
I’m going to talk about something that makes me deeply ashamed and something I hear very little about. Maybe something that scares some people. I’ve suffered with Sexual OCD for about ten years and really the main issue for me was how much it had an effect on my sex drive, I feel like I’ve been neutered. Over time, I feel I’ve more or less overcome the thoughts but I still feel incapable with sex. This has killed the fun out my twenties. I don’t know if it’s the trauma, the drugs, which I avoided with this ocd theme I’ve had because of the side effects warning but took before when I was a teenager suffering from some whacked out religious worries. I’m now more worried than ever I’m going to die alone and unloved. I lost a girlfriend really over this. And on top of that I don’t hear many guys talk about this and I can understand why, but I just feel as if I’m really lonely with a condition no one can treat.
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