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Im so sorry you are so young dealing with this. It is so hard but remember ocd is just ocd no matter the theme. I have this theme too and it’s so hard because it feels like it’s trying to take over your identity. It’s been so hard for me today because I am married with two kids and it’s trying to tell me I don’t love my husband and I’m not my kids mom, I’d rather be a man (which I don’t) and have always loved being a woman. We have to stay strong and show ocd who’s boss. I’m sorry, I know how hard the struggle is
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It really does and I believe the hardest thing about this is is how hard it is to separate the symptoms . I swear there’s times that I’m like “ wth that’s fucking ridiculous I know who I am “ and then there’s that stupid thought like are you really happy in your own body ? Don’t you want a change ? Don’t you wanna feel something different? . Granted I remember I always said I wonder how it felt to be the opposite sex but I thought most people had that thought out of curiosity. But I don’t actually wanna strip myself from who I really am you know ? It’s so frustrating and this theme is so strong to me . Just when I think it’s going away it comes back . I want to be a girl again. When I see other women I feel less then and ashamed of myself because I feel like less of a woman and like a man ... I hate it honestly
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Yess same! the worst part for me are the feelings. Like I can one time be convinced I want to be a guy and other times i can actually feel like a guy! It’s so awful! I’m glad you get it though!
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Yeah it’s like a feeling of masculinity. It makes me feel less confident in myself . This theme traumatized me so much that I keep stalling on getting my nails done because I’m afraid that I’m going to hate it. But what’s crazy is today I saw all the girls at my job dressing nice with their nails done and I felt like a piece of shit
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Yeah It’s almost like jealous of both genders. fake Jealousy of men and jealousy of women that they do what you want to do that you aren’t letting yourself do or are worried you hate. Do you ever feel happy as a girl but suddenly self aware in a weird way? like you suddenly don’t believe it or your mind says that isn’t you even though you felt like yourself as a girl for a while?
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I’ve felt like a girl my entire life and I’m 18 so you can imagine how weird and disturbing it is for my mind to tell me I want to completely Change my life in a way I’ve never imagined nor wanted to
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And I have a boyfriend who I live with and he doesn’t even know . I love him dearly and I feel guilty because I feel like I’m doing him wrong
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Same! Everything you have said I feel the same!
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it’s honestly such a relief you both/all feel the same. it’s good to know i’m not alone
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Me too I hope I have a good day today . The thoughts been in in my dreams and caused me to have a terrible nights sleep
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i can’t remember my dreams easily but i know i’m always so anxious and basically convinced i’m trans in them which freaks me out. good luck to you all and i’m here for support of you want to talk or write any worries ❤️
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yeah, it’s hard since i have a group chat and i know i text too much but it feels like i’m alone and different
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thanks so much! it attacks so many aspects and is exhausting
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Idont241 lol thanks for paying attention to me
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Yeah, lately relationships have been making me feel nervous, like i want to be the guy in them
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and i’m 15, but i can agree! i’ve never been overly girly but i’ve always been confident and proud of my femininity
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We just have to remember this is stupid ocd! We can do this!!
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How do you feel Bella?
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How old are you Bella?
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I’m worried this’ll lead to something but this is me: I’m a fifteen year old girl who’s struggled with this for a while. In January, I was hit with Harm OCD and it turned into Trans OCD mid march. I’ve had a history getting obsessed with things and my worry spiralling often and out of control
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There are many forms of ocd in the world I believe that theres been at least one person in the world who's worried about the thoughts people with ocd have. We just have to be strong
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Any Christian’s with religion ocd and relationship ocd I feel so alone
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This is so extremely difficult, i’ve never experienced having thoughts of being a different gender. i’ve always been comfortable being a girl. i’ve always been a girly girl. this all started a couple months ago and it’s increasingly getting worse. i’ve had times where i didn’t like my body but i always thought i could just go to the gym and fix it, never did i think i wanted to be a man. ever since these thoughts started i hate looking at myself in the mirror, i hate looking at my body, i’m aware of my breasts all day everyday, i can’t look at pictures/ videos of myself. from the moment i wake up to the second i go to sleep i have these thoughts. i’m in a panic EVERYDAY. i don’t want to be trans but my thoughts are convincing me i do. i’ve never bat an eye when someone calls me a girl but now it’s like i’m aware of it which i hate. i hate that i’m having these thoughts & it’s convincing me that i want them & that i have to just come out and change. i want to be able to go back to being comfortable as a girl. this has left me feeling so hopeless and depressed, i can’t help but cry every day. has anyone else felt like their whole world was turned upside down?
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I cant do anything anymore without my brain dregdging up proof from my past that I was actually trans and didn't know it, and it all seems so plausible. like I said in my last post its unearthing memories that I didn't even know I have. ik this is just ocd tricking me but I feel like I need to review every moment thoroughly bc I have questioned my gender in the past but always concluded that'd I'd happier as a girl (which is true). everything feels so real and it feels like I am just super in denial. also, how do I tell people about this? I made the mistake of confessing to a teacher on a note and only a couple friends of mine understand the thoughts I get, but I don't tell them everything. however its very hard for me to do basic responsibilities like school work and I always end up overwhelmed, so I'm thinking I may need accomdations. I need to get in touch with my counselor but i'm unsure how to explain all of this to her, being that I don't have a diagnosis....also I feel like I can't talk about this with the majority of my friends because gender ocd is rare to have (increasing my doubts) and, at least school-wise, i'm in very accepting environment for lgbtq and I'm afraid they're just gonna tell me to accept myself. I'm scared of doing erp for this because what if I like it (also cant afford therapy). ive also felt very apprehensive around some of my trans friends and classmates because my brain is going crazy asking "what if you're like them?" and I feel so bad and transphobic for these thoughts. i'm genuinely so tired. one of my closest friends died last year, but my father pointed out that my recent mood has been even worse than it was during that time. i tend to bottle up my emotions a lot, so everyone's just telling me to "let it go" and tell people, but if I do that I feel like i'll end up confessing. i'm so tired and lost.
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