So I have confess to things I did in the past. And just note that I never cheated on my husband but did talk to alot of male friends back in the day 6 years ago when were just bf and gf now married 1 year married and been together for almost 7 years. But it was always for advice reason why I talked to my male friends. It's too long to explain long story short. I'm suppose to do emdr and for some reason I feel guilt so much guilt like if I cheated but I didnt!! I never even met up with these friends of mine. I know they were flirty at times but i ignore them when that conversation came about. Anyway I'm suppose to do emdr. And I'm afraid something somewhere it will come out that I cheated. I'm so scared I'm so happy in my relationship I dont want anything to ruin it. Why does this guilt roaming around. I hate this. I didn't do anything wrong it's been years I dont talk to anyone! Literally noone. Why does this haunt me! Like if my male friends will tell a lie to my husband that I have cheated but I didnt. Do you all understand me? I obsess over this everyday! Is better obsessing over this than suicidal thoughts everyday. I finally got a break from that. Someone HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP ASAP.

You're sufferring from false memory OCD. I suffer from it too, and real event OCD, and it is HELL. Conffessing your sins to your husband it's a compulsion, I did that too. I felt like if he knew what I did i the past he wouldn't love me. It's coming from a fear of abandonment and also you probably believe you didn't deserve him, or love. Also I convinced myself I flirted with some guy I worked with and that was not true. I lost 17 pounds of how guilty, hopleless and depressed I felt. I didn't sleep, didn't eat, I just wanted to die cause I deeply believed I betrayed the love of my life. My advice is listen to all of Ali Greymonds videos on false memory OCD on her youtube channel. She saved my life. She will help you too.

He knows everything!that's the good thing!! I know bad on me for doing that. I talked to my sister for doing that. I even thought about messaging my friends but why that's embarrassing so no my sister said that I can hurt relationships for doing that and its irrelevant it's been years. And I listen to ali but I never thought it would that. I haven't been diag. With it if I describe my symptoms to you guys you all would say I have OCD I'm pretty sure it is anyway. I also suffer from Borderline personality so that explains alot of it. My husband when he was my bf at the time has left me once for false accusations which has me scared but that was when he was a different person we are both very different now happy now. But everytime he gives me love or does a very nice for me I feel like I don't deserve it because if my past. You know?

That is exactly how I feel. You're not alone. Actually I believe my trigger is when he is very nice to me. Imidiately the feeling of worthlessness and guilt pop up. The thing is we don't believe we deserve love because we did this or that in the past, but that is not true. Everyone deserve love. We need to change that mindset and OCD will probably dissapear.

Yes, Ali is AMAZING ?

What is EMDR? Also, I am so sorry you’re going through that; you didn’t do anything wrong and your brain is trying so hard to find something you may have done wrong. I know many people with OCD (if not everyone with it) suffers from intrusive thoughts and that’s definitely what you’re experiencing. Also, you can’t control or know what actions (like the flirting you mention) that someone is going to show you. You couldn’t have known that was going to happen, and you can’t control other people. You know deep down, you didn’t do anything wrong. You should talk to someone (and mention this to your husband if you haven’t) because people’s reassurance is only going to temporarily put your mind at ease. This is something you have to work on to get better. I wish you the best of luck!

I just watched ali Greymond! I love watching her but I didnt watch the false memory one and wow!!! It was so accurate when she said most common ones are cheating and the harm. I gasp!? yay I'm not crazy! Even my sister told me if I had an urge to confess to call her so I wouldn't confess. I need to call my husband right now lol

I started watching positive affirmation they are very uplifting