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You're sufferring from false memory OCD. I suffer from it too, and real event OCD, and it is HELL. Conffessing your sins to your husband it's a compulsion, I did that too. I felt like if he knew what I did i the past he wouldn't love me. It's coming from a fear of abandonment and also you probably believe you didn't deserve him, or love. Also I convinced myself I flirted with some guy I worked with and that was not true. I lost 17 pounds of how guilty, hopleless and depressed I felt. I didn't sleep, didn't eat, I just wanted to die cause I deeply believed I betrayed the love of my life. My advice is listen to all of Ali Greymonds videos on false memory OCD on her youtube channel. She saved my life. She will help you too.
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- 6y
He knows everything!that's the good thing!! I know bad on me for doing that. I talked to my sister for doing that. I even thought about messaging my friends but why that's embarrassing so no my sister said that I can hurt relationships for doing that and its irrelevant it's been years. And I listen to ali but I never thought it would that. I haven't been diag. With it if I describe my symptoms to you guys you all would say I have OCD I'm pretty sure it is anyway. I also suffer from Borderline personality so that explains alot of it. My husband when he was my bf at the time has left me once for false accusations which has me scared but that was when he was a different person we are both very different now happy now. But everytime he gives me love or does a very nice for me I feel like I don't deserve it because if my past. You know?
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That is exactly how I feel. You're not alone. Actually I believe my trigger is when he is very nice to me. Imidiately the feeling of worthlessness and guilt pop up. The thing is we don't believe we deserve love because we did this or that in the past, but that is not true. Everyone deserve love. We need to change that mindset and OCD will probably dissapear.
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- 6y
Yes, Ali is AMAZING ?
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- 6y
What is EMDR? Also, I am so sorry youāre going through that; you didnāt do anything wrong and your brain is trying so hard to find something you may have done wrong. I know many people with OCD (if not everyone with it) suffers from intrusive thoughts and thatās definitely what youāre experiencing. Also, you canāt control or know what actions (like the flirting you mention) that someone is going to show you. You couldnāt have known that was going to happen, and you canāt control other people. You know deep down, you didnāt do anything wrong. You should talk to someone (and mention this to your husband if you havenāt) because peopleās reassurance is only going to temporarily put your mind at ease. This is something you have to work on to get better. I wish you the best of luck!
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- 6y
I just watched ali Greymond! I love watching her but I didnt watch the false memory one and wow!!! It was so accurate when she said most common ones are cheating and the harm. I gasp!? yay I'm not crazy! Even my sister told me if I had an urge to confess to call her so I wouldn't confess. I need to call my husband right now lol
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- 6y
I started watching positive affirmation they are very uplifting
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- 20w
Iāve been struggling with something thatās been really overwhelming, and Iām hoping to get some perspective from others here. I feel a lot of guilt about it, and Iām not sure if Iām alone in this experience. Lately, Iāve found myself daydreaming about romantic situations or getting caught up in āwhat ifā scenariosāwhere I wonder if I could develop feelings for someone else, or if someone develops feelings for me. The thing is, Iām in a relationship that I love, and I donāt want to act on these thoughts at all. What makes it even harder is that these thoughts often hyperfixate on one specific friend, and sometimes they feel entertaining or give me a dopamine rush. But then, of course, I feel even more guilty because it makes me feel like Iām betraying my boyfriend. These thoughts usually happen when Iām upset and looking for comfort, but then they morph into romantic scenarios, which makes me feel so disloyal. Iām constantly going back and forth between feeling curious or entertained by the thoughts and then feeling horrible for even allowing them to happen in the first place. I keep confessing these thoughts to my boyfriend, and he tries to be understanding. Heās just never been the type to daydream, so he doesnāt know if this is something other people experience or if itās just me. I feel like such an awful girlfriend. Has anyone else dealt with something like this?
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- 19w
Hi, I'm 17,about to be 18. I've been struggling with these thoughts for the past 8 months. I was wondering if someone experienced ever the same because I feel im "different". BACKGROUND: (I'm not diagnosed with Ocd but seeing a local counselor) About 9 months ago I cheated on my boyfriend with this guy S (who blackmailed, manipulated and molested me). Since then when I realized that what i did was very WRONG and so I started ruminating picking apart every single interaction and telling my boyfriend, i tried to remember every single detail because otherwise I felt like i was being a fraud and hiding things to save myself, i had many crisis about it because I had also what i think was false memory ocd. My boyfriend forgave me idk how tbh I still wonder. CURRENT STRUGGLE: Months ago I was sure I didn't wanna S in any way and i was sure even when everything happened. For the past 2 months tho I've been having thoughts like " Do I love S?" "I love S" "S is hot" "Would S find me hot?" "What if I want S?" " What if I don't love my boyfriend enough?" "What if I secretly want S?" "What if I see my boyfriend as a friend only?Do I?" And I tried testing my reaction to intimate scenarios with S, I'm scared I like it i dont really wanna love S or have any secret attraction, I wish I didn't have any of this and I want to be sure of my feelings for my boyfriend because I know I wanna be with him and I see a future with him like he brings me comfort. But a part of me keeps trying to convince me otherwise. Sometimes I think I'd rather die than have these thoughts. Im so scared of not being able to control my feelings, im scared I can't resist S and its giving me anxiety and making me cry. Sometimes when i think of those sexual scenarios with S or I get those thoughts my mind tells me to smile because i like it because I find it funny. It makes me doubt myself all over again. Like I'm always like I need to test if I'd feel aroused to intimate scenarios with S, lately im trying to fight this urge to test and test but my mind is like "just do it this once so you can be sure. I can never watch anything romantic or sexual or whatever because my mind would be like "you and S" or sometimes I'm just enjoying time with my bf and im like " yes we can just have a sneaky cheating thing thats ok" and it makes me want to figure it out to find an answer a solution because idk it just does like I need to find the meaning of it if it means the truth and all. Im worried im just an awful person and these thoughts just ruin my quality of life . Today i had a crisis where i ended up doinf swlf harm, I'm so scared of finding someone that's not my boyfriend desirable or sexual appealing or whatever it is, I also have bodily reactions when I try to imagine and test my reaction to scenarios. Now i keep groing everytime and I dont know why but i have this sensation and I dont want to havebit especially when its something S related. Does someone experience the same thoughts? Am I alone in this? Is this ROCD? What should i do?
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- 19w
I was doing fine today until I asked ChatGPT if i cheated and they said it could count as emotional cheating if you are engaging in intense daydreams and looking someone up on social media to feed a fantasy about them. My partner and I already spoke about me fantasizing about this person and he said it was totally fine since it happened in my head and he has had crushes and fantasies on coworkers too. However I feel absolutely devastated and wrecked with guilt and anxiety and panic right now. I genuinely feel like a horrible horrible horrible cheater. I donāt know what to do. I have therapy scheduled for later this week but I really really need some advice right now!!! I feel like it could count as cheating since it did happen during a few weeks where i felt a bit distant from my partner and I feel like the daydreaming was excessive. I am so so scared. Do I confess? Do I tell him I cheated? He already told me once that cheating is a physical interaction (and I literally have not interacted with this person outside of surface level responses in a group server that my partner is also a part of). Do I have a moral obligation to tell him I cheated? I need to know.
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