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- 3y
Ugh
This is so frustrating. I wish I was like most of the population who doesn’t have to deal with this torment. I hate it so much, I just wanna be normal. Why me? What did I do to deserve this?
This is so frustrating. I wish I was like most of the population who doesn’t have to deal with this torment. I hate it so much, I just wanna be normal. Why me? What did I do to deserve this?
Feeling very similar at the moment. Unfortunately I haven’t found a remedy for this feeling yet—it just kind of sucks. I know everyone is dealing with something and I don’t wanna bring anyone down. I just wanna watch some movies or go for a drive without having an attack. I don’t know, knowing other people are feeling the same makes me feel a little bit better I guess. I hope you feel better soon !
@Anonymous Thank you
Hi! I think the same thing why do things happen to people? Why me? But don’t forget how many other people are going through the same thing. EVERYONE on this app is experiencing the same thing as you. You shouldn’t wonder the question “why me” there is not reason why this is happening to you it just is. And yes it sucks but you know what you’re going to get through this and figure ways to help yourself!!! I believe in you and you got this! You’re doing wonderful! Keep going ❤️❤️❤️
@dreaminofyouhs Thank you so much
What helps me is hearing stories from people who say their lives now are better than “normal” because they know how to face uncertainty. That encourages me.
I feel this. Everytime im triggered, thats the first thing that comes to my mind. Why me?... But we hang in there! 💙
So over all of this. Why do periods have to make everything so much worse. I keep thinking that I can get over an intrusive thought and then the next one comes in. My brain tries to make be obsess over something that i've already obsessed about and moved on from. Wish this could be over.
I’m definitely having an episode right now. A few times I’ve thought about coming onto this app and writing something but then I spiral further and further and I forget about anything except what’s triggering me. Then I think about this app again and intend to write a post… but again I’m spiraling too hard to focus on anything else. But I finally ended up here because I got an email from NOCD. I opened it and read about someone who ‘overcame their OCD.’ It made me spiral harder, because I genuinely don’t understand how someone can control this. How do I stop? How do I silence my brain? I was told to sit with my thoughts and not try to divert them, but if I do that I have an extreme episode so bad that I feel disconnected from myself. I looked at myself in the mirror and it felt like my eyes were seeing someone standing in front of me and not my reflection. It scares me to think that I will be experiencing these episodes forever. I literally just put my phone down twice because I thought my cat was choking to death because he had a hairball (he’s fine) I just feel like I can’t see a way out of this. It’s not curable, and I don’t understand how someone can ‘conquer’ something that feels so out of control Obviously it’s possible, but unfortunately that reassurance doesn’t always break through the most awful thoughts Sometimes there’s nothing that can make me calm down, I just have to ride it out I hope there’s never a day where it’s so out of control that I can’t keep it in at work, and I ruin my own life by having a severe panic attack while I’m there and being fired. If I had the type of episodes at work that I have consistently at home, I would be so humiliated. It scares me. I’m trying so hard to be normal like everyone else. I just want to be happy. I just want to live.
I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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