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Are there any goals or dreams that you guys have had that have been kind of I guess ruined because of OCD?
Are there any goals or dreams that you guys have had that have been kind of I guess ruined because of OCD?
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@OCDSUCKS!! Yeah the idea of someone telling others about my false memory is terrifying. Idk if this will help but I feel if your friend is helping you then maybe he doesnāt dislike you. Of course I donāt know what the interaction between the two of you is like. Also I feel worrying about people finding out and if your friend likes you or not might be OCD (I could be wrong though itās just a thought I had) . But something that Iāve tried to stick into my head is that, āifā isnāt a certainty. Also something else that Iāve tried to kind of learn to do is tell myself, āwho cares if they tellā, I know thatās hard to actually do itās kind of scary to be honest. If someone told my false memory who cares, itās not a for sure thing that happened. Plus too Iām literally a nobody. Iām a number in the population counter. So if people found out I feel theyād literally not care as much as we think they might. You know yourself and thatās all that matters. But also LIVE, your life isnāt worth losing over something that is uncertain. Youāve got this. I get days like that too, today actually was one of those days. But we got this! If we were able to live happily months ago, we can live happily now. Donāt give up! Sending good and happy vibes your way.
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@anonymous1146 There will be better days. Even in the darkest nights there is light. Dancing is really cool! I hope that one day when you feel better you will try again. You deserve a chance to chase your dreams. Donāt let your mind tell you otherwise.
@anonymous1146 Thank you very much! We go this!
Traveling! Iāve always wanted to see other parts of the world but most of the time I can barely leave my house. And donāt get me started on planes lol
@emma18 Whatās a place youād like to visit if you did decide to travel?
iād love to work out more, but it makes it extremely difficult when i have to count every action/ step i take
@iloveespeon Thatās understandable. I wish you the best and hopefully you can get to your goal. You deserve it and Iām sure you will achieve it one day.
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I wanted to go to college/university but I felt like I wouldnāt ever be able to because of how my thoughts constantly distract me. Now Iām in a better place and Iām feeling optimistic about moving forward š¤
@blazed Thatās is so amazing to hear! Iām happy for you! I hope when you do decide to go to school that you get into the school you want.
I changed my major from education to something else so I wouldn't be around kids
@rmsh231 I hope whatever major you chose is something that brings you happiness even if it wasnāt your first choice. I hope all is well with you and school!
@OCDinparadise I graduated with my masters many years ago! And I dodged a bullet not being in education
@rmsh231 Oh wow congrats!
Honestly I feel like I wonāt do good in anything. I havenāt found the motivation to go to college Iām just fixated on the fact of getting enough money to pay the bills. Every relationship I have been in though makes me toxic but they also have toxic things and it makes me wonder if Iām the issue or Iām just being oblivious to manipulation. And then idk what to do and the relationship always ends and because I would always be with the person now that Iām not with someone idk what to do. It feels like Iāve lost my identity yet OCD makes me feel like all the negative things I thought about the person are true and it was never true love. Then I question am I worthy of being loved. I know Iām a lot to deal with. Then I become depressed.
@Pettie You are most definitely worthy of love. You will find where you belong. Iām sure itās waiting for you. Youāll find relief and joy again donāt give up!
this is probably kinda jumbled but over the past almost year or so i've slowly realized i have ocd (i'm diagnosed audhd but over time i started feeling like those alone didn't cover the whole issue yk?), and recently i've been kinda worried i guess. itās just that iām turning 21 in 6 months and iām afraid that this disorder is going to rob me of joyful adult milestones in my life. honestly being 20 has sucked, i canāt even remember wtf being 18 was like, and my childhood in general wasn't the best either, but i've been struggling a lot as of late and i don't want how i feel now to be the same as how i feel next year. my meds have helped quiet my compulsions a significant amount (i literally felt like i was going kinda cray cray when i was off them š) but theyāre not completely gone. sometimes it just seems like this is all it's ever gonna be forever and iām always gonna feel ashamed of myself for just like⦠existing. my 21 year old self deserves to be happy but idk if iāll be able to give that to her š„²š„²š„²
I feel like OCD has taken up a massive chunk of my life. I don't really have anything else, most of my time has been spent with obsessions for years. I'm 21 so I know I'm young and everything but that is time I won't get back, and it's had aeasurable impact on my future, with stuffike grades, or just missing out on social stuff due to obsessions. I wasn't even aware of what was wrong with me for so long.
I got interested in lucid dreaming several decades ago. I'd often had lucid dreams going back to childhood, long before I even knew the term, but it was in my early 20s that I learned about it as something some people actively pursued as a hobby, with a range of techniques to help make themselves aware of their dreaming while they were dreaming. Among those techniques is to look at a piece of writing, look away, then look back at it. As writing rarely remains stable in dreams, the writing will usually have changed if a person is dreaming, and if it stays the same, the person is probably awake. (The technique is usually described in terms of looking at a watch or clock, but it really can be used for any writing--in fact it's better if it's writing that normally wouldn't change, as clocks and watches do.) This is not the only method of reality-testing, but in my experience it's the one I've found easiest and most reliable. My full-time interest in lucid dreaming only lasted about 6 months. But thereafter I continued to use the looking-at-writing technique whenever the topic of lucid dreaming entered my mind. I began doing this practically everywhere, using whatever writing I found around me: books, food packages, devices, street signs, license plates, storefronts, and more. I even unwisely did it on occasion while driving. I did it so much it made my eyes sore and bloodshot. I even paused to do it while writing this post. Naturally, it looks strange if other people see me doing it, though it's something I try not to do around other people. My mom once saw me doing it, and she told me I had a tic. I don't think it's a tic, but it is a compulsion. My understanding of the difference is that compulsions are always a choice: I can choose to ignore the compulsion. But I guess the back-and-forth motion with my eyes and/or head may resemble a stereotypical tic to outside observers. I'm still unwilling to totally give up the habit. Part of the reason is that it still is effective at helping me become aware of my dream state while I'm dreaming, which is a positive when I'm having an unpleasant dream. But I definitely do it excessively, to a point that's probably unhealthy for my eyes, and it seems like a lot of effort for very little. I have diagnosed OCD as well as autism, but I'm not sure what particular subtype this would fall into--it's hardly the only compulsion I have, but it may be the most unusual one--as I've never heard of this happening to anyone else, not even other people who are interested in lucid dreaming. I guess it derives from a sense of anxiety connected to being uncertain about the reality around me, as well as a sense of loss of control when it comes to sleeping--which relates to my general difficulties in falling and staying asleep (which I'm currently being treated for). I also have chronic sleep paralysis going back to early childhood, and while this has provided me with yet another stepping stone to lucid dreaming, probably the fear of entering this state has further reinforced my sense of anxiety around sleeping and dreaming, and feeling a need to take control of it to the best of my ability. At least that's how I've been able to explain it. I'm open to other suggestions, or any advice others may have.
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